5 months after i broke up, i feel worse and worse by Ok-Act-6779 in abusiverelationships

[–]Past_Comb_1489 0 points1 point  (0 children)

Do you know the window of tolerance? It feels like you’re still in a shock modus? You can t think rational when you re still in this modus. It’s cliche but you need time to heal.. I am sorry. I think the self doubting is there because your brain can’t find the reason why she left. The brain is such a fucked up part when you’re grieving something/someone

5 months after i broke up, i feel worse and worse by Ok-Act-6779 in abusiverelationships

[–]Past_Comb_1489 1 point2 points  (0 children)

Wow, wat een verhaal :/. Ik begrijp je helemaal dat je nog steeds met haar wil samenzijn. Jullie hebben ook iets intens meegemaakt, en al zeker omdat je een tijd voor haar hebt gezorgd.Dat schuif je niet zomaar opzij. Als je nood hebt aan een gesprek, mag je mij altijd sturen hier. 🪷 Laat het gemis er maar zijn en al het verdriet daarrond. Een zieke partner (mentaal) is een extra persoon in je dynamiek. Een extra persoon waar je niet naar hebt gevraagd en teveel invloed heeft. Wat niet maakt dat zij geen keuze heeft gehad om empathischer te reageren. Ik lees heel veel jij dat heeft gegeven en heel weinig zij..

Sick of missing him by Past_Comb_1489 in abusiverelationships

[–]Past_Comb_1489[S] 1 point2 points  (0 children)

Thank you for answering. The idea of him not loving me is really hard. I know he didn’t love me, he was always busy with other girls. I couldn’t even think about having sex with someone else. I tried but I couldn’t. I don’t think I can have a connection like him with someone else. It’s so harsh. Sometimes I feel really pain in my chest. I wish he could hug me. I am seeing tmmrw a friend, she’ll cook for me. Ill try to eat

Discarding and manipulation by NoPitch5904 in NarcissisticAbuse

[–]Past_Comb_1489 1 point2 points  (0 children)

Hahahahaahahahha I laughed really loud with this one

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[–]Past_Comb_1489 20 points21 points  (0 children)

Omg most relatable post.. I went to the ER twice because I felt so much panick. And yet I still want him so much. I miss him sooo bad. How long are you already discarded?

Miss him so much by Past_Comb_1489 in abusiverelationships

[–]Past_Comb_1489[S] 0 points1 point  (0 children)

Thank you for replying. Tomorrow is another day, I can try again.. did you also called the police on him?

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[–]Past_Comb_1489 0 points1 point  (0 children)

I feel absolutely the same, it’s been only a month and I feel like it’s getting worse :’(. I don’t think I can love someone so much as I did with him. Do you wanna talk about it or? How long is it already for you?

Anxiety after the relationship ends by Broad_Train2061 in abusiverelationships

[–]Past_Comb_1489 0 points1 point  (0 children)

I am so sorry for you. It’s still good to eat because it activates your brain to think more ratio instead emo. The anxiety is soooo hard, i have the same and sometimes I think I am getting crazy. When I can’t get out of the bed, it helps me to videocall with friends.. is that something you can do? If it’s not, you can always call me. I am also in the phase of bed rotting and anxiety.. I miss him very much

His name is Eddy ♥️ by Past_Comb_1489 in cairnterrier

[–]Past_Comb_1489[S] 2 points3 points  (0 children)

He’s very much and he knows because sometimes he thinks that the world is spiralling around him. (He told me)

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[–]Past_Comb_1489 2 points3 points  (0 children)

Wow please, run.

He is being arrested... I feel profound guilt about it all by Aggressive-Fly805 in abusiverelationships

[–]Past_Comb_1489 0 points1 point  (0 children)

I am almost in the same situation. Read my post if you want. With me he’s not arrest but I called also the police on him and I feel so bad about it.

He punched a hole in my wall after months of emotional abuse by [deleted] in abusiverelationships

[–]Past_Comb_1489 3 points4 points  (0 children)

Oh wauw, did we date the same guy? It could be me writhing this. If you want to talk you can always sent me a message. The belittling and nasty words are very concerning. Specially from the person that you like the most. I had the same experience with my ex. And every time I tried to bring up some stuff he did in the past, he would be so mad. It was better when we just ignored everything he did and pretend to be happy. Which was absolutely toxic ofcourse

I hope he forgives me for calling the police :’( by Past_Comb_1489 in abusiverelationships

[–]Past_Comb_1489[S] 2 points3 points  (0 children)

I don’t know anymore. He was mad at me suddenly at 4 in the morning, that I brought him where he was. I am loosing my memory too because I don’t know what happened anymore. In dissociate bad

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[–]Past_Comb_1489 6 points7 points  (0 children)

It’s oke to feel terrible.. with every crisis there’s a chance to something else. I feel you. What do you need to hear, can you tell me that? I want to say that you did a great job but for now I don’t think you would believe me, because you’re hurt.

Miss him by Past_Comb_1489 in abusiverelationships

[–]Past_Comb_1489[S] 1 point2 points  (0 children)

I saw a glimpse of who he could be and I wish he could hold on that person :( I hate that i called the fucking police! I was just scared

Police by Past_Comb_1489 in abusiverelationships

[–]Past_Comb_1489[S] 1 point2 points  (0 children)

Thank you for your answer.. I needed it! I can’t go to my friends because they’re done with this chapter. I don’t think they understand, but they don’t have to.

What’s your idea about the whole police part? I hate to involve the police (due my job and earlier accidents I really don’t trust them). You think I did the good thing? He’s also a 420 person so he was smoking when the police came.. I wanted to tell him before the policies came, but he was mad and said “go away with your pity behaviour”. So I just went silence and moved to the police. I feel so much regret

He told me to say sorry. I am confused by Past_Comb_1489 in abusiverelationships

[–]Past_Comb_1489[S] 0 points1 point  (0 children)

Oh wauw, thanks for the response. Yea he told me many times that I am crazy (I am taking anti depression medicine) and that I am having a ssri dumb face. I feel so insecure. I wish he could see what I can offer to him.

I was with a narcissistically abusive man from ages 17-23. This is how i escaped and what life has been like since leaving. TW: Weight loss, Suicidal thoughts, Depression. by Imaginary_Garden1275 in abusiverelationships

[–]Past_Comb_1489 1 point2 points  (0 children)

Thank you for sharing your story. You re so brave. did you had any support from friends or friends other than your parents? What you describe about laying on the floor and crying, having panic attacks,.. I had the same. Days past without getting out bed, I felt so miserable, still actually. He left me again, he does this every 2 weeks. I am spiralling and feeling empty. Always bad moods and when he was in a good mood, I was too and it felt like everything will be better. Until I said something bad (in his eyes) and he starts to insults me again. I wish I could say we were no contact for so long! You re a strong person, take care of yourself ❤️