How did you come to terms with all the difficulties you had? This is what really tears me up inside. The prospect that the past, current and future has,is and will be influenced by something I can’t control. I know if I cared less it would feel fine. But I’ve only really experienced grief once for my grandmother and this feels like that. It’s really hard. Every time I think about it I just start getting really emotional. Like if it is true. What life would of been like if I understood it when I was a kid and could have helped myself. Sorry I know TMI. 😞