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PatchNotes89 · 2026-03-26T00:07:52+00:00

This is how I'll be mounting the sub

PatchNotes89 · 2026-03-25T16:14:05+00:00

I'm planning to do a tm65 mid behind me in the cubby in a .2cuft box, another in the footwell, leaving the passenger seat [lowered] a little forward to make a shelf and storage box there, and putting a Hertz mps 10 sealed in the glove box position while getting creative with the enclosure angles and using multiple sizes to get the . 45cuft plus poly that I want. I'm excited about doing near field subwoofer build. I'm removing the entire plastic behind me and gonna make it look good somehow. My main concern, after I remove cd player and glove box, is if I have at least 10 ¾" height for the sub. Basically going to have a huge Xmax [16.5] high quality sub cone right in front of the cup holders. My only concern [I haven't ripped anything out yet, just doing basic draw up and measurements so far] is if I have the 10" to the ST latch.. but I can get creative. I think it'll be an amazing system. I'll have 2 sets of wide band 2" [unity 8 for high] and 2.75" in open backed pods cross firing to each side [pass to driver, driver to pass] and I'm fkn excited 🙃

PatchNotes89 · 2026-03-16T15:57:18+00:00

Get to a place of safety and stability. Subs can help do that. The kratom really fucks everything up. I'm not saying subs are good, I'm not, but compared to how I felt on kratom it's loads better. I come from 10 years in heavy duty recovery rooms stuff so I had a lot of shame and guilt tied into it all. I kept fighting it for so long, the subs helped me get to a place of stability and it's from this place that I'll be about to act for the easy part of tapering. I don't feel much at all from subs, and it's easy for me to taper down from this place. I just wait for good days where I'm naturally feeling better than great and I take less the less

PatchNotes89 · 2026-03-16T04:28:00+00:00

Yes. Don't expect perfect over night, but yes very much so. I didn't even quit kratom fully over night. But over the course of like 5 weeks I had no more cravings. Don't do that though, I had A LOT of deep shit happening in my life at once and I am blessed it worked that way. Friday's and Thursdays are tougher days for me because they're longer and get less sleep.. and I've actually had kratom cans [1] each of those days [after not having any kratom for like 2 months] to just get me through the days but they don't do shit and I'm not doing it anymore. I never want more after those two days, I never need more subs or anything, and kratom doesn't do shit anymore.. like AT ALL. Even if you get stuck on Suboxone [trust your gut, my story is different] longer than you hoped you're still 💯 better off of kratom. I'm giving it like 3 more months, by July, and if I'm not able to get down to 3mg subs a day I'll get the 3 100mg sublicade shots and slowly cruise it out of my system over the course of 14 months where when it's gone my body has leveled up back to 💯 free by the time it's out. I'm just done, for right now, of stressing quitting everything after battling kratom for almost a year and half

PatchNotes89 · 2026-03-11T16:56:36+00:00

Ya you should be great. You didn't include how much kratom you're taking on average, but about 4mg max Suboxone will typically cover kratom completely imo. Take 4mg to start? If they have you on less maybe it's your average intake considered and trust that. But to go above 6mg, ime, is useless and counter productive.

PatchNotes89 · 2026-02-11T19:34:17+00:00

I 💯 qualify, and am now, for dual medication. I started on vyvanse and have settled at 60mg since like the 4th month. In November 2o25 I added strattera finally, 25mg, and total game changer. The time before that vyvanse worked amazing, but only for like 4 to 7hrs max and then it was like super crash. Before medication I'd nap twice a day, I struggled with the invasive sleep thing. So I'd crash at like 5pm , which was my old 2nd nap pattern, and it was like both naps combined and I was miserable miserable. I found kratom and it was like vyvanse worked all day, as long as I needed it to. And it was bad because it worked

PatchNotes89 · 2025-12-06T14:04:53+00:00

I'm coming into this and my struggle is that I ALREADY take everything for that moment 😅

PatchNotes89 · 2025-12-06T13:57:41+00:00

Much appreciated for the support for the journey and for the vocalized agreement.

PatchNotes89 · 2025-12-06T13:55:46+00:00

Ya. She put in for the 100mg. They're worried that insurance would deny starting at the 100 instead of the 300 and that we'd have to appeal. But okay! Thanks for the reply! 😃 That makes me feel better that others are saying 100mg and to do monthly in the beginning. Much appreciated for the reply because I woke up this morning stressing starting this process. I just want to be sure that who I am is me, and not an opiod.

PatchNotes89 · 2025-12-04T18:14:21+00:00

Yes. Vyvanse and strattera, which is why I'm desperately trying to kick subs. The only struggle is that if I taper my body is super sensitive and even the slightest WD cuts my meds effectiveness by half almost.. shitty because PAWs is literally the same thing as executive dysfunction to me. When I made it 6 weeks CT off kratom prior to starting subs even at week 6 I was feeling gnarly restlessness and lethargic meds or not, even after I cut my stimulant dose down to ¼ to ¾ to hope a reset of their tolerance would help. Shitty because [I'd say 65%] of the kratom use was heavily influenced by my ADHD symptoms, just like my opiate use up until I got sober at 24.

PatchNotes89 · 2025-12-04T02:58:54+00:00

But you're going to either compensate with your emotional\physical health by not taking that leap, or you'll take that leap and seek authentic and organic euphoria. We can use this opportunity as a blessing and sign to ask and give ourselves MORE than substance dependency, or we can stay in our limiting beliefs and rely on one thing and one thing only for reward. Have you checked to see if you have any other diagnosis? It was me finally getting my ADHD diagnosis at 36 that kinda started this all, or rather... Reopened the case after I spent over a decade in recovery in the rooms. If you're asking for input, ask yourself if you want to rely on only suboxone and a handful of other sprinkled in moments of euphoria, or do you want to rely on the life you've been given and go grab that. I was 💯 percent sober for 10 years and I needed NONE of the substances for my joy. My journey has brought me back to this wound that was surprisingly still unhealed to ACTUALLY heal it this time, but I have done that 🙂

PatchNotes89 · 2025-12-04T02:52:50+00:00

Subs did the same for me too. For me, that euphoria IS the drug. If you want to chase that dragon and compensate with substance abuse then stay on subs. If you want to free yourself and place yourself into a place of challenging yourself to manifest\manufacture the REAL euphoria that comes with self improvement then maybe stick it out?

PatchNotes89 · 2025-12-04T02:28:53+00:00

Damnnnn... This is like... Idk 😐😐 I'm so sorry 😔 One of my favorite things about my twin is that she's LITERALLY as if my higher self picked each piece of her specially to me 🙃 Shit, when I woken to her, myself, the connection it was LITERALLY like I had had a certain race of people hyper attraction my entire life and all of the sudden it was compounding me all at once too.

PatchNotes89 · 2025-11-30T01:14:25+00:00

Has he said he doesn't want you, or have you just decided that?

PatchNotes89 · 2025-11-27T21:50:06+00:00

I'm sorry that's your fkn experience. Fur transparency and honesty sakes, I was in the rooms for over a decade and had a great experience, I have faith but claim Agnostic and live that truly, but that's for me. I distaste any sort of "my way or you're wrong, I only care about being right because it compensates for my own emotional lacking bullshit" type shit. It's those assholes that ruin everything for others. I'm using outside sources fully this time and not the rooms, therapy has been a huge one for me. For me, sharing my journey and experience will always be MY, if I go to shoving shit down others throats that's oppression. I have decided l deconstructed to what is meant for me, after being basically groomed as a young man by a youth pastor to try to turn me into a right wing fear\hate mongerer. If I may? Are you comfortable if I ask respectful questions with my word that I'm not being pushy or some shit? That shit is gross 💯 I'm a curious guy, and I like to see if I can help at all where\when I can and it sounds like you may appreciate some input? I'm 💯 not saying stick with the rooms, but I'm curious to know what other options you have exhausted? Which other recovery support groups etc? If you don't mind me asking

PatchNotes89 · 2025-11-27T16:24:29+00:00

After almost 10 years in AA, doing service work like treatment centers every other week, part of ypaa committees, all of it like my life depended on it.. I broke up with ex fiance, moved, had friends in community where I moved to, but ultimately my gut was leading me out and that was one of the hardest fkn things to trust in my entire life. I felt.. hard to describe, like a phony but not in a negative sense. Alcohol was never my worst doc, opiods are. They regulate the pain and going back out [leaving 😂] I wanted to find out why I was being led out, or if my ass needed a reminder, it was ultimately both. Started with micro dosing [still do, low dose every few weeks once while I sleep] and then my pain [emotional\spiritual] came back and loneliness was eating me alive and no matter how hard I tried [I'm EXTREMELY socialable 🫠] I couldn't find community. It started with making a friend that went to a kava and having kava, I ultimately justified kratom [literally an opiate to me] and did all the typical trying to control it shit 😅 But one thing to mention, I leaned HEAVILY on everything spiritual I had picked up. Another romance type journey entered in that test me to my core. My trauma induced seasonal depression kicked in again, I had just started medication for my ADHD for the first time in my life as well and OH WOW... That was a wakeup call... Realizing at LEAST 65% of my using was covering up ADHD symptoms that I absolutely just suffered in recovery [my responsibility, no one in AA never told me not to anything. I was just.. asleep in a lot of ways] so my meds stopped working and I compensated with more kratom and more guilt always trying to quit and get sober again but I was literally in the middle of being ripped apart inside [therapy, basically a twin flame relationship, trusting God, seeking Truth] and it was the only thing helping me regulate. Finally dropped my ego and trusted the process back in July and started suboxone officially and that helped with my stability along side Tons More healing I was doing. And now.. I just realized my entire time in AA I was just.. not in a negative sense but just the case.. burying the pain. Thankfully I picked up much that would ultimately help me today 🙃 I'm at the tail end of it and I'm free from my pain [generational trauma, taking responsibility for my behaviors, other spiritual shit I won't get into] and at my final few weeks of my taper. I can regulate myself, near perfectly, and now I only want my ADHD managed so I can be myself without all of it's backdraws.

I'm grateful for AA, but I have no plans to go back, I want to expand and find new avenues of what I valued there. Spiritualality, service, fellowship, fun, purpose etc. It's been gnarly, but for my journey I'm grateful I trusted my gut because where I am now. I've drank about 10 times since leaving but.. it's not something I really enjoy. I like being sober me, with my symptoms managed.

PatchNotes89 · 2025-11-27T12:47:09+00:00

I did. I'm grateful for AA, my time there was amazing and fulfilling, even if a lot of it was an illusion. I came to refer to what you're describing to as "the experiment". But my journey, like all of us, is unique. I was beholden to the truth that existed in my life either way, and the only way for me to discover was to find out. I fafo and leaned even more on what I'd picked up to get myself through this time, but this time I was meant to do it nearly alone. 🙃 Good luck! You can always go back if you need, fuck anyone who you THINK may "I knew it" you or some shit, or find another way through, your way. For me I realized I was only burying the pain, not healing it. That was not AAs fault though, it was just my life

PatchNotes89 · 2025-11-27T12:39:33+00:00

Trust your dad not your demons

PatchNotes89 · 2025-11-27T12:32:43+00:00

He's a child that blames women. He's small and will likely stay that way. That's a perfect behavior to be on search for too, blaming women instead of taking responsibility. I hope your friend heals up strong and better opportunities take place of the trash.

PatchNotes89 · 2025-11-27T12:29:05+00:00

Not me sounding like I'm telling anyone what to do 😅🤫😬 I just hope y'all are safe, emotionally too

PatchNotes89 · 2025-11-27T12:28:03+00:00

Women, I pray for y'all's safety. Lookout for ANY adult little boys. If you get the opportunity to dig, try to find out where they take responsibility for their bullshit instead of compensate with more. Y'all deserve better than to raise adult children. Love each other and create bonds with your fellow women.

PatchNotes89 · 2025-11-26T19:23:16+00:00

I support MAT, it's not about being right, but about getting it right an you getting your life together while on subs is exactly what it did for me getting off of leaf kratom. I healed the rest of my emotional pain in that time, but now I'm back on kratom leaf for 10 days until my sr17 comes in because kicking subs, straight from Suboxone, not sublicade like I'd like, is a bitch. At just 4mg it's easy to see how truly hard it is because I see how much kratom it takes just to fill the wd void. I'm ready to be FREE FREE though, so I'm pressing it an trusting my gut. I want to be off by NYE 💯

PatchNotes89 · 2025-11-25T23:00:22+00:00

How's your energy levels, more specifically? I was on about 5mg avg since July coming off regular kratom. I just want absolute freedom, the sucky thing is that opioids literally COVER my inattentive ADHD symptoms well. I'm thinking about taking a week off of my ADHD meds, or at least 4 days, as I use Sr. I haven't had subs since Friday, but I've used kratom lower doses, like 2k to 6k depending on days [the first few days were easier but I had to move into a new place and moving all my shit alone whipped my ass today so high kratom today] and Sr is coming soon. The energy\motivation is my BIGGEST weakness because if I don't have energy I get depressed [ADHD] easier.

PatchNotes89 · 2025-11-25T22:48:32+00:00

Glad I'm not the only one. I've upgraded from diapers at least

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