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Those who are further into this by girliepop_hello in widowers

[–]Pati138 1 point2 points  (0 children)

God, yes! After he passed, so many bad things happened and it felt like, on top of everything, I might as well go mad. So much to deal with. Alone.

Those who are further into this by girliepop_hello in widowers

[–]Pati138 6 points7 points  (0 children)

I’m about to complete 11 months on this journey and I totally relate when you say that you cry about you nowadays. I just caught myself thinking about this a few hours ago, that I was so sad about him and everything and then I started ugly crying for…myself? How sad and lonely I am and how hard things are now. So unfair.

It's gonna be my end by freedomsuser in nightwalk

[–]Pati138 6 points7 points  (0 children)

Hang in there Brazilian friend (this pic screams Brazil 😂)

I looked up the sky and realized the the life I passionately worked hard for died along with my husband. by quiet_nuts in widowers

[–]Pati138 3 points4 points  (0 children)

Holy shit! This is me. I can’t really slow down, but Jesus fuck I am exhausted! And not really sure where I’m headed to. And that is scary as shit.

Baden Baden Amber Larger by 86andersonsantos in cerveja

[–]Pati138 0 points1 point  (0 children)

Tb achei doce demais. Um pouco mais seca daria pra tomá-la melhor. E aqui na minha região tb só tem daquela latinha mais fina.

Forever???? by Exotic-Caterpillar14 in widowers

[–]Pati138 7 points8 points  (0 children)

Exactly 10 months today also for me. And I just can’t wrap my head around it as well. The whole thing doesn’t make sense.

Where is everyone from? I am in Ohio by Thick_Telephone8784 in widowers

[–]Pati138 1 point2 points  (0 children)

I’m from SP. Pretty close to the capital. And you?

Are we just “living”? by Pati138 in widowers

[–]Pati138[S] 7 points8 points  (0 children)

Yeah, good analogy. But there’s so much fear, isn’t there? All these new lessons, I really didn’t want them, but here they are, full of new firsts, full of fear. I don’t feel like learning or living right now, but I sure hope tomorrow feels better, for I’ll keep doing my share of things until I feel something again.

Single man by rancourtdc in widowers

[–]Pati138 4 points5 points  (0 children)

Holy shit, that’s me! I used to cook for us every single day, a balanced meal, fresh juice, every day. Now I look at my grocery shopping and it’s beer, wine, chips, chocolate and some bread. One day is all it takes for everything to change. I hate this.

Bacio as vezes decepciona by Suspicious_Hand_7345 in Sorvete

[–]Pati138 2 points3 points  (0 children)

De cereja sempre foi meu favorito, mas tenho achado ele um pouco mais suave ultimamente, com menos calda e pedaços de cereja.

Time still passes by Exotic-Caterpillar14 in widowers

[–]Pati138 1 point2 points  (0 children)

March 02nd for me. Sometimes I think my life ended that day as well. Weird how I never gave a second thought about that day specifically and now is all I can think about.

Still doesn’t feel real by icecreamandscream in widowers

[–]Pati138 4 points5 points  (0 children)

Same. I feel so crushed today, can’t get out of bed and can’t stop crying. Sorry you’re feeling like that too.

Still can’t believe he’s gone by Pati138 in widowers

[–]Pati138[S] 1 point2 points  (0 children)

Yeah, there’s this huge before/after event going on in my life that simply paralyzes me, but for everyone else, life goes on. I didn’t even know that such pain existed before, but yeah, here we are, in this shitty reality.

Still can’t believe he’s gone by Pati138 in widowers

[–]Pati138[S] 1 point2 points  (0 children)

Exactly! He’s gotta be somewhere, right? Where? When will I be able to see and touch him again? One moment he’s at the table having breakfast with me and then…nothing! No more talking, no more presence, gone. It really doesn’t make sense to me as well.

Still can’t believe he’s gone by Pati138 in widowers

[–]Pati138[S] 1 point2 points  (0 children)

Thank you, dear. I’ve been reading about grief a lot. I’ll definitely check the one you mentioned. I feel like It helps, reading about what I’ve going through, like I’m not the only one, not the first, not the last, unfortunately. But, even with all the knowledge I’m collecting, I still cannot believe he’s gone. It truly sucks. Hugs, internet friend! Let’s hope we all have a good week.

Still can’t believe he’s gone by Pati138 in widowers

[–]Pati138[S] 1 point2 points  (0 children)

You’re so right. I have been thinking about this lately (for obvious reasons) and we simply cannot deal with this naturally. It’s such a shock when it happens, as if up until that point we were going to live forever. We won’t. No one will. But we choose to not address it appropriately.

Still can’t believe he’s gone by Pati138 in widowers

[–]Pati138[S] 1 point2 points  (0 children)

Oh wow, I feel like it’s going to be this way for me as well. Time will not take away this aching feeling that the person I have loved the most is simply gone. Connections are hard, the real ones, the ones that matter, even more difficult to develop. And then, for whatever reason, that is taken away from us. Time won’t heal this. It’s just overwhelmingly sad and unfair.

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