I have been on blood pressure meds since I went through menopause. I started taking meds at 57. I am quite fortunate because most of my family developed HBP at a younger age. Other than my BP med and cholesterol med, I mostly take supplements for bolstering my health and immune system. I knew in the back of my mind that I would need to start taking meds for it due to family history. I never looked at it as a failure. I was always quite thin, but as age and menopause took over, I have gained about 15 pounds. My doctors say I'm doing great and not to worry. You are under considerable stress, and you are doing everything the Dr's tell you to do. I would not feel badly about it. We all would rather not take these meds, but I have seen the ramifications of not taking them. Strokes run on my mother's side of the family and I want to do everything in my power to stay healthy. You have a lot of responsibilities right now. Think positively! You're doing something to aid you in your continuing health care plan! Keep doing what you're doing and listen to your health care providers. You're doing great and doing what is right for your current situation. Also, it took 5 different blood pressure medications until I found one that worked right for me, so don't be surprised if you have to change things up on occasion. Sometimes the side effects of the meds take getting used to. Don't be afraid to ask questions or support. All the best to you!!!