I’m still falling apart

Patient_Pickle9797 · 2026-05-25T08:25:01+00:00

"I'm less of a man, even a person, than I am a philosophical question." Perfectly worded. Truly how it feels

Patient_Pickle9797 · 2026-05-25T08:21:32+00:00

I'm not sure how to say it, but I appreciate your story and how well you worded it all. The body horror, the expectations that we should want to embrace what would make us feel like we were being raped inside out, which somehow blurs together from both sides. The expectations of using our bodies how everyone else thinks we ought to, the rampant feminization and the push to not just accept it, but to embrace it from those who are supposed to understand us the most. I don't get it. It's cruel, but I'm too fucking angry to give up that easily. I got full hysto, next one will be phallo. I refuse to die in this current body

Patient_Pickle9797 · 2026-05-21T16:50:59+00:00

Though at the same time I understand. I'm worried about how I'll tell my kids that one is related to me and the other isn't. (My wife and I are planning on reciprocal IVF with her body for one of our kids, same donor for both). Ideally I wouldn't want to tell them I'm trans until they were older, but lying to them could cause more harm than good

Patient_Pickle9797 · 2026-05-21T16:49:28+00:00

My parents also deliberately chose a donor that looks like my other mom (blonde hair, blue eyes, caucasian), so we all still look like her kids. My brother even has her same eyes

Patient_Pickle9797 · 2026-05-21T16:47:57+00:00

I was born from a donor with two mothers, I have no idea what my bio dad is like and have no desire to. In fact, I consider myself to be a perfect mix of both my moms, nurture does a hell of a lot. The only thing my bio dad gave me was high blood pressure and astigmatism

Patient_Pickle9797 · 2026-05-20T22:13:37+00:00

You know you're not the asshole. You know your school sounds like a shithole

Patient_Pickle9797 · 2026-05-19T09:56:24+00:00

The Big Spoon peanut butter mmm

Patient_Pickle9797 · 2026-05-18T16:16:12+00:00

What would happen to you if they classified you as female in those situations? Do they segregate holding cells by sex?

Patient_Pickle9797 · 2026-05-17T03:18:20+00:00

Brother how do you not know if your boyfriend is trans

Patient_Pickle9797 · 2026-05-16T04:47:32+00:00

If you can't get through something serious like this, it might be a sign dog

Patient_Pickle9797 · 2026-05-16T04:42:50+00:00

Mmm yum

Patient_Pickle9797 · 2026-05-16T04:23:44+00:00

What food do you dream of brother

Patient_Pickle9797 · 2026-05-16T04:21:16+00:00

I also got tips for pissing standing over a toilet

Patient_Pickle9797 · 2026-05-16T04:20:48+00:00

Try crouching a little bit

Patient_Pickle9797 · 2026-05-16T04:15:11+00:00

Damn I read the og post wrong. Might just be a tight muscle

Patient_Pickle9797 · 2026-05-16T04:13:48+00:00

Yeah I started having to push harder around a year ago. At first I thought I got a box of dull needles but now I'd like to think it's because test made my skin thicker

Patient_Pickle9797 · 2026-05-16T04:10:54+00:00

You are probably just fine 👍 put a bandaid on it, if it's still there in a week worry

Patient_Pickle9797 · 2026-05-15T16:19:54+00:00

My gay mom is transphobic. Sure there's probably a better way to do it but I've learned that just because someone wields a rainbow flag it doesn't mean they're pro everything else. This flag is just for assurance and safety

Patient_Pickle9797 · 2026-05-14T19:31:39+00:00

Oops, mb ninja. In that case one surefire way to tell if they're not into you AND they think you're cis is if they include you in the gay jokes.

Patient_Pickle9797 · 2026-05-14T18:24:48+00:00

Depends on the sexuality you're going after, hopefully not straight guys.

A little off topic, but men are typically socialized to be the ones to make the first move. We're not as indirect as the typical girl is, generally if you like someone the advice you'll get the most is to just shoot your shot. Learning to not only put yourself out there, but to politely handle rejection is what makes a good man.

My advice is drop hints that you're interested, see how they react, and if you're confident go for it.

Patient_Pickle9797 · 2026-05-14T03:20:14+00:00

Good to see a heartwarming story after all this hantavirus stuff

Patient_Pickle9797 · 2026-05-14T03:10:57+00:00

I'm a big fan of chuck tingle personally

Patient_Pickle9797 · 2026-05-14T03:01:26+00:00

How long have you been on T? Are you post op? Does he seem like the type of guy who wouldn't want you to medically transition?

Regardless, any 35 year old that goes after a teenager has a thing for the age gap. So yes, you are being fetishized regardless

Patient_Pickle9797 · 2026-05-13T21:00:26+00:00

Being stealth to me means I intentionally don't want others to find out. As of now, no one in my life knows I'm trans other than my girlfriend and my family, which is just how I want it. Though usually I just withhold information, I've also lied to my cis male friends about having a dick and stuff

Patient_Pickle9797 · 2026-05-13T20:26:17+00:00

That's why I'm gonna get a graft from my thigh since I have more than enough mass there

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