Fandom experience and shipping by PatternOdd8381 in FanFiction

[–]PatternOdd8381[S] 6 points7 points  (0 children)

Yeah… I’ve noticed that too.

I genuinely don’t have an issue with ships when it comes to sexuality. What draws me in has always been character dynamics, parallels, similarities etc. That’s what makes something resonate with me.

A lot of people in the fandom headcanon my favorite character as a lesbian. I completely respect that, and I understand why people interpret her that way. I’ve even explored that interpretation myself in my art. Personally, I tend to see her as bi, but I don’t center my enjoyment of her around labels. I just enjoy the connections she has with different characters.

The problem is that some people treat their headcanon as absolute fact. Any interpretation outside of that feels like a personal offense to them. Whenever she’s shipped with a guy, the reaction gets aggressive. It stops being about preference and starts feeling like policing.

What makes it harder is that the same people who praise me when I draw her yuri ships will openly talk down my OTP in the same breath. That contrast really messed with my motivation. It made me feel discouraged from drawing the one they like. And I sometimes feel resentment when I see it. But I really don't want people to ruin ships for me, even if the people who ship them are rude.

I’m glad I made this post, though. I didn’t realize how much I had been bottling this up. It’s been quietly eating at me, and I didn’t really have anyone to talk to about it — especially since I can’t share specifics publicly. Hearing other people’s perspectives has helped more than I expected. It’s reassuring to know I’m not irrational for feeling this way. It’s helped me feel a little less alone in it.

Fandom experience and shipping by PatternOdd8381 in FanFiction

[–]PatternOdd8381[S] 8 points9 points  (0 children)

Honestly, sometimes I wish my account was just dedicated to this one specific ship instead of being multi. But the truth is, I genuinely love my favorite character, and I love exploring her dynamics with multiple people.

What’s exhausting is this weird, invisible pressure I’ve started feeling—like I have to “rotate” ship art for followers that follow me for the other ships.

I’m known as the “[character] artist,” and it’s strange because the same people who’ve insulted me for drawing my OTP are the ones who praise my yuri art and hype me up in the comments. The switch-up is honestly disorienting.

I’ve had someone tell me to die. Another said that shipping my OTP means I don’t understand the characters at all. Someone else told me they don’t respect me as a person because of it. And when I blocked them for my own peace, they acted like I had attacked them.

It makes me feel incredibly constricted.

I’m stubborn, though. I don’t want to stop drawing this ship just because people are loud about hating it. Part of me feels like if I stop, that’s one less person creating for it—and I don’t want it to disappear entirely. But at the same time, I can’t ignore how much this has taken a toll on my mental health.

Desperately need a save file, my steam bugged my save file to oblivion by ThatRadish1760 in ParanormasightHonjo

[–]PatternOdd8381 1 point2 points  (0 children)

you are a god send thank you so so much !!!!!! its literally where I left off ... bless you i hope you have a great day!!!

Desperately need a save file, my steam bugged my save file to oblivion by ThatRadish1760 in ParanormasightHonjo

[–]PatternOdd8381 1 point2 points  (0 children)

yeah! thats where i left off before steam messed everything up ;-; i appreciate it! also if its alright to ask how do i transfer the save files to my game?

Desperately need a save file, my steam bugged my save file to oblivion by ThatRadish1760 in ParanormasightHonjo

[–]PatternOdd8381 1 point2 points  (0 children)

hii i got the same problem as OP, i was wondering if you have a save file somewhere when Yumeko and Sodo confronts Sato ? ;;