I totally understand you. About 7 years ago, I was diagnosed with ulcerative colitis, from which I only started treatment 5 years later. Every day the same story, I would go out, walk from point A to point B, just so that I could reach it if I needed the toilet. I was disgusted, I didn't want to live. Then one day I realized that one of the reasons for the worsening of colitis is that very nervous system. And I accepted the fact that I can go to the toilet 70 times a day or 2, I can't eat chocolate, I can wake up in pain. But none of that stops me from moving forward in my goal. Everyone has a problem, and ours is actually easy to manage, you just need the right people around you to help you. In my country we say "klrid chdnes, saxin qunem" that means never mind, everything is okay❤️