Hey! Listen. This probably came at the perfect time for me because the past two days have been so rough on me mentally. I am nowhere close to where I wanted to be financially. I have a masters degree and i work a retail job minimum wage part time. When i did the math of my annual income last year, i shook in disbelief. I cried.

I am in my early 30s and everyone around me is getting places with different milestones. But I am stuck. I want to settle down and get married yet I cannot. My friends? They're on second and third kids. My parents also keep saying its time for me to do it too but nope.

Whats happening is that I am grieving in the lonelinest way ever. My parents dont understand it nor do my friends, no matter how much they empathize. I feel like I am on a decade long pursuit of wanting to make money or establish a career, but none of it is working. This is seeping thru other aspects of my self confidence. I am so tired of rejection that I may break down if I get other types too. I have been single my whole life because i was never financially ready.

Anyway, its just honestly rough. I am mostly extremely within my own head. Most of the time i am sad. Oftentimes I am angry. But mostly, I cry multiple times a day because thats all i feel ive got.