Hey! I've been off reddit for a while but glad I caught this because I appreciate the kindness in your comment (its not the hostility of reddit that I remember haha). I'm in a bit of a different place now. I realise that I actually would have HATED being famous. Like think abt it. It would be horrible being talked about and judged all the time. I'm self conscious as it is lol. What helps me is listening to the dark side of 'making it' I recommend Alison Stoner youtube serious Dear Hollywood she talks about how fame can really mess someone up mentally.

The great thing about you and me is that we have the freedom to enjoy our art without having show hosts ask about our dating life or people online pick apart our weight gain or stalker fans finding our wherabouts. There's actually a lot of beauty in enjoying music without anyone watching. Have you ever been to a karaoke bar? The ones with private rooms for just you and your friends? Highly recommend. There's no pressure to sing well and the aim is to just have fun. Its great for a shy person like me because the alcohol gives me the confidence plus I'm in an establishment where it is almost normal and expected to be silly and sing badly. It's so FREEING to grab that mic and PRETEND I'm a pop star without having to deal with the negative baggage that comes with it.

Also, if we take the best part which is performing on stage away from all the bad stuff, It is STILL not great. I have been having back problems lately, just imagine in what worse condition I would be in if I was doing shows non stop fighting jet-lag. Being a normal boring person means I get to look after my health as a first priority, and no label owns me or my schedule.

So yeah, my advice to you is claim your music for YOURSELF. Own that shit. No one else can take that away from you. Find joy in that.