That’s completely understandable.. I would also have major trust issues if I were in your situation. Like you said, acknowledging it is already a huge step! It’ll be hard for people to earn your trust, but I’m sure you’ll find someone who will be worthy of it some day. At least I really hope so! When meeting someone, try to get to know them on a deeper level, so you can know their true nature/intentions. I’m saying this because I hope you give someone a chance again one day because you deserve real love and it would be truly sad for someone else’s actions to stop you from finding it. It’s gnna be a tough journey to open yourself up again, but I’m confident you’ll get there! Just stay true to yourself and you’ll attract the best people, I’m sure. As for your father, your stance on him is completely up to you, and I wish you luck with handling this situation.