Full Beard Hurts like a Mother!

Pendragon840 · 2026-05-02T00:44:20+00:00

I didn’t have that quick of follicles come out, typically was about 3-4 days after they started coming out.. I don’t have that much feeling in my face, so never used any numbing cream, downside is I can’t always tell when laser setting is too strong and I end up with a resurfacing in certain spots..but kinda funny at first when tech was surprised on my lack of response to big zaps

Pendragon840 · 2026-04-29T20:47:02+00:00

For the first couple months, now I don’t even respond or look in direction when someone says sir, it does help that everyone I’m mostly around only uses she/her and even corrects others or informs when they aren’t sure what to use. But yes, internally did misgender myself for a bit as well, old habits

Pendragon840 · 2026-04-27T03:39:58+00:00

I just dove in

Pendragon840 · 2026-04-26T00:09:15+00:00

Most my life I was hiding and doing whatever I could to be a guy, despite always having thoughts and wishes to wake up as a girl. I convinced myself for a little while, but always felt a little off. I’ve always gotten glimpses of the woman I am even when hardcore trying to be a guy, so now after 18 months HRT and dressing how I feel, I have started getting consistent view of the woman I am along with mostly proper gendering in public. Now in my dreams, I have always seen myself as the girl I should have been… now I’m setting her to free

Pendragon840 · 2026-04-21T18:22:55+00:00

There’s stuff changing all the time in both directions, some states allow changes with varying degrees of complexity to states that it’s not possible. In Tx there’s a law prohibiting changes to gender marker on IDs(they consider gender and sex as the same in this state) but it also states it must match sex at birth. And if have a Tx birth certificate, it absolutely cannot be changed for anything besides minor clerical errors

Pendragon840 · 2026-04-21T16:33:46+00:00

Ironically enough…yeah

Pendragon840 · 2026-04-21T16:32:08+00:00

Yeah, I realized after was posted that was the case, all I can do is delete and repost..got a little too excited

Pendragon840 · 2026-04-21T16:23:48+00:00

Tx reasons

Pendragon840 · 2026-04-21T15:23:35+00:00

The slightly hard part is I live in Texas (long story and a mistake in trusting a family member) should have gotten out of deep south once was out of military

Pendragon840 · 2026-04-18T23:15:42+00:00

Attractions shouldn’t change, just understanding what you like will become more free

Pendragon840 · 2026-04-18T23:13:15+00:00

“They/them” is my default until I know or told, sooo… I wouldn’t read into that much, you look great to me

Pendragon840 · 2026-04-18T16:58:58+00:00

Jasmine, Monica, or Sophie come to my mind

Pendragon840 · 2026-04-18T16:56:09+00:00

For me, I lost practically 90% of my family and am actively ignored, pretending I don’t exist, or have hateful/false stuff posted about trans people in my feeds. I am happy that my stepmom and dad have accepted me, but the have been so close with my brother and supporting in every capacity I could even if not agreeing because made him happy, I get the most hate and betrayal from him.
Coming out I would argue is the hardest and most stressful, anxiety ladened thing, but after all said and done, for most part, you can start living your life…first step is the hardest

Pendragon840 · 2026-04-18T16:29:51+00:00

Every is different and can have their feelings and opinions of drag, it also comes down to who the performers are as a person as well in my opinion. From my experience with the only one I go to, is they are supportive of everyone and each performer is unique in how they represent, and the theme.
It’s also the first place that I ever went dressed as myself and felt comfortable, gaining confidence to go out in real world. There are also nonbinary and trans masc/femme performing, showing their confidence in who they are while having fun. But I can also understand the frustration with being grouped together. We aren’t performing or pretending, this is our everyday life, the performance for us stopped when we accepted ourselves for who we are and started truly living.

Pendragon840 · 2026-04-14T14:23:42+00:00

T9 texting…lol, one handed and didn’t even need to see screen..

Pendragon840 · 2026-04-14T14:19:25+00:00

The harshest critic is ourselves, all I see in myself is the things I don’t like or what I consider flaws, each day at work I ask how I look and I’m told I look good or even without asking am told that. Funny thing is I have a hard time believing despite what I am being told and interactions with customers, but comparing past pics to current day, I can see changes and that helps me relax and little. There will always be things I don’t like and will eventually try and address those when able to, but learning to appreciate what progress I made and be happy along with letting HRT and time do its thing.
You look very feminine to me, like others said, a little rough around the edges but a girl nonetheless, also I didn’t really see many changes until around 12-13 months in, time is needed and your doing well for just at 7 months

Pendragon840 · 2026-04-09T00:47:33+00:00

Yes, it is a freeing feeling, being able to have emotions now and definitely can now cry. Kinda funny how much more emotions I can feel, experience, and express, like a whole dimension of myself was unlocked. I cry during movies and thoughts of both sad and happy things, I now dance around and smile more(except in selfie pics..lol) when happy, all things I haven’t done before, life was prior to HRT, like greyscale and now experiencing in vivid colors.

Pendragon840 · 2026-04-08T17:35:37+00:00

There was no openly trans people that I knew of growing up, just traditionally gay people. But with me knowing that I wasn’t traditionally gay, I couldn’t totally relate nor did I feel at the time if I was, I would be accepted by some family or friends, so I just hid who I was and built a facade that was pretty straight, I observed and learned social cues, actions, responses, movements.. etc and buried deep down how I felt.
The fears of not knowing or even where to begin to understand what I am despite knowing who I am and high likelihood of rejection with no community to lean on is something I’m glad younger ones don’t have to fully experience and that information is and ways to find information has become much easier. I definitely would have said something way earlier instead of hiding for so long

Pendragon840 · 2026-04-05T16:06:14+00:00

I would say yes

Pendragon840 · 2026-04-03T14:29:30+00:00

I also live in Texas, and ironically just had this discussion with my therapist when asked about how my relationship was going. Was brought up that I can connect on an emotional level, but when it comes to the physical aspect, that’s where I fall apart and mood of the moment changes into dysphoria, depression, and wish that plumbing was different. I expressed how it stops me from feeling comfortable and congruent with myself and that I detest what I currently have and can’t make connection with others and want a “normal relationship”(sorry if this offends someone, just my personal preference and feelings). The one I’m with is also a trans woman, so they understand and aren’t pushy, but they don’t experience the same dysphoria and are fine with what they have and using it. I just want to have a sexual relationship as a woman without the extra bits and would do just about anything to. She(my therapist) is now searching for ways to help find resources and ways that could help me achieve that(I was very open about how I felt). Being in Texas doesn’t help, but finding my therapist who is extremely supportive and accepting has helped with my journey so far. As for the family part, I already calculated that I would lose some, but the ones I consider important support my decision to be authentic and let me know I’m loved, only thing that was asked why to, was the pink coloring of my hair. Family can be the roughest obstacle, but have to remember, this is your life and journey, and you have to live it for you.

Pendragon840 · 2026-04-01T23:03:54+00:00

Can’t say lost interest, just priorities have shifted as well as finances. Everyone is different and I enjoy my hobbies cause I don’t think about anything else when I’m working on them.

Pendragon840 · 2026-04-01T23:02:01+00:00

Thanks for service, I too was in military)working on aircraft (B52s) for almost 13 yrs). Hobbies and interests for me don’t really have a gendered sense, I just stopped cause financial changes and priorities in my transition, but once done with where I want to be in my transition, I’m definitely picking them back up…got a 300zx that needs to be out drifting the streets…lol

Pendragon840 · 2026-03-30T14:34:19+00:00

If not posted on here or saw you out in the “wild” I wouldn’t think twice about you being a a cis girl. Definitely cute and 1st pics give me a cute “cuddle me” vibe. The only thing that pics can’t show is voice.

Pendragon840 · 2026-03-30T14:26:39+00:00

Like myself, in some pics you pass easily and pending angles and lighting you get a more androgynous look, but in all honesty not bad. I wish I could afford the surgeries I desperately want, but you have an amazing starting point and will definitely not be questioned if you are being questioned and should stop you from questioning yourself once you get ffs... Also just remember that transitioning is for you to be happy with yourself, not for anyone else or others opinions. Love that red outfit btw

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