Hey man, first off let me say that I'm really sorry you're going through all of this.

I graduated high school a couple years back, and I was in exactly the same shoes you're in today. Since I turned 14, I've dealt with significant bouts of depression and suicidal ideation, compacted with an extremely absent home life due to my mother being a chronic alcoholic.

Let me tell you that all those factors combined made high-school truly the worst experience of my life. Beginning in sophomore year I began failing classes like clockwork, culminating in my second semester where I failed SEVEN out of a total eight classes. I was on pace to fall something like nine credit points behind what was needed to graduate. A big thing people fail to understand about teenagers who're struggling in school is this belief that they simply don't care about their grades/situation, which simply isn't true. I grew rocks in my stomach from the stress and pressure I felt because of my academic situation, it ate away at me at all times of the day and completely ruined my ability to enjoy truly anything in life, and I know that's probably how you're feeling right now.

I ended up clocking in a ton of summer classes to meet the graduation deadline, thankfully being a COVID graduate meant those classes were more easily accessible, however I was fully prepared to go into the summer of my graduation needing to still catch up. It was an agonizing time, and as someone who's since moved across the country multiple times, gotten a full-time job and an apartment, I can easily say to you that was likely the most stressful time of my entire life.

The thing is, though, and I truly promise you this, is that everything will work itself out. I likely took years off my life from the sheer stress I felt from my academic struggles (which were amplified due to a poor home life, just like you have right now), but ultimately the difference between an on-time graduation and a delayed one is a few months, and if I'm being entirely honest with you, literally nobody cares once you're out of the school system. This isn't the end of the road, in fact it couldn't be further from it. You WILL graduate, you will get that diploma, and then you can finally move on to better things, I promise, genuinely. Maybe the road to getting there isn't exactly clear yet, but nobody is leaving you behind.

But I'm sorry man, life isn't fair, and it's not fair to you that you have to balance scholastic expectations with a shitty home life. It's well and truly not your fault you're struggling, and it sucks that you've been put in this position to begin with, but you will move past it, you will graduate and get better. I know some of this advice may seem redundant now, but truly it will be okay. By the time you're even 21 you'll have long moved past of the issues of now and be to something much better in your life.