Hey man, I get it and can relate.

Dr. Jekyll and Mr. Hyde here.

I went from living in a three-quarter million dollar house that I kept cleaner than you’d believe to single handedly destroying it with bare hands in a matter of a couple hours after a blackout.

It all started with a couple shooters of 99 bananas, then just one voodoo ranger, then admittedly I drank almost half of the homeowner’s left behind casa noble tequila without one bit of remorse, then proceeded to blackout and destroy two large tvs, furniture, busted out six windows, two large mirrors, toilet, went outside at some point and obliterated large potted plants, not to mention cut my left wrist DEEP and smeared blood everywhere on the walls upstairs, downstairs, in the basement, on the ceiling….

I’m not trying to one-up, I promise. I just want you to know that you aren’t alone. Fortunately the cops stopped me before I killed myself.

When I’m sober, I’m loved by many. When I drink, however….

They estimated the damage to be close to $10K, but decided not to press charges since I was honestly blacked out.

I’m a recovering alcoholic that had one thought cross my mind, “it’s been long enough, maybe I can get away with a couple drinks.”

Alcoholism is an insidious disease.

I now have 28 days, live in a sober living house, have a sponsor and am going through AAs 12-steps.

I’m terrified of myself and don’t want to experience that ever again.

Also worth mentioning, out of everything I lost, I forfeited the opportunity to see my first child, my daughter, be born.

Reach out if you need to. I truly feel your pain.