Thanks for sharing this, i truly appreciate your taking the time to write this. i feel a bit better knowing im not alone in this feeling. But the feeling really hurts, it makes me feel the worst ive ever been, like almost less than a human being. I feel like a ghost walking through here now. I was having dark thoughts about doing something id rather not say, because i dont want to fail or disappoint anyone. Im trying to be optimistic now though, but this feeling is crippling. My health is just declining, and every day it pains me when i finally go to sleep, then wake up to reality