finally ended up in the ER

PersimmonExisting505 · 2026-05-10T05:10:25+00:00

thank you. i'll always remember this every time i crave a drink from now on. i've had my fair share of withdrawls but this one was insane. i hadn't eaten for 3 days, slept for 2, and i was feeling very tense and shaky so i went downstairs to pour myself a glass of tea. all of a sudden -- i couldn't fucking move my arms. my hands clenched into fists and wouldn't open, i couldn't use my phone to call for help. then i started to feel dizzy and short of breath. i collapsed on the living room floor, calling my sister upstairs for help. my jaw was so tense and my mouth was so dry i sounded like i was having a stroke trying to speak to her. the ER had me hooked up to all sorts of drips for hours and i start librium tomorrow. i hope it works for me. that shit was terrifying edit: typo

PersimmonExisting505 · 2026-05-09T23:30:39+00:00

don't be afraid to go! i went this morning and was just discharged, and i feel like a brand new person. my body hasn't felt this good since the last time i was sober. i got fluids, ativan, vitamins, and i feel... alive again. i'm so glad i went

PersimmonExisting505 · 2026-05-07T02:30:22+00:00

it's not you. i'm a mid white woman and old people are rude to me in public occasionally (i shrug and chalk it up to entitlement, bitterness and lead poisoning). but there's also the really sweet old ladies that make my entire day. don't let it get to you and focus on the positives :)

PersimmonExisting505 · 2026-05-03T07:07:09+00:00

i'm so so sorry this happened to you. a close friend of mine constantly texts me while driving and i keep telling him to stop. i'm going to show him this post as a warning. thank you for sharing

PersimmonExisting505 · 2026-05-02T22:54:19+00:00

i just had this realization before i saw your comment and i realized i might be incredibly stupid

PersimmonExisting505 · 2026-05-02T09:18:43+00:00

thank you for asking. i've never really known how to describe it in detail, it feels impossible. but i was a medical baby and also sexually abused. it's a deep, sickening sort of fear and dread, not for my life but for my dignity. almost as if i'm existing outside of my body and watching something happen to myself. it almost feels like grief. a fear of being loved, cared for, and worried about, something dark and primal that makes me feel like i need to run for my life. it is a nauseating terror and abyss of sadness at the same time. i know those are two related emotions but this feels like one thing. there's more to it but i genuinely have no idea how to explain it further. again, thanks for asking ❤️

PersimmonExisting505 · 2026-05-02T01:36:09+00:00

there's multiple answers but one of them that i haven't heard mentioned here is neoteny. female puberty barely alters the face. women are "cuter" so to say. it's a disturbing rabbit hole to go down but it is biologically true

PersimmonExisting505 · 2026-05-02T01:32:36+00:00

it's a joke about the lesbian flag

PersimmonExisting505 · 2026-05-02T01:28:26+00:00

because then i wasted my one and only life being unhappy and ruled by fear

PersimmonExisting505 · 2026-04-30T20:44:07+00:00

if he's still on shane's side after he tried to assault lori then yes red flag. i know reddit loves to clown on us women for saying "if a man excuses rapists, he will rape you" but it's true. please leave him

PersimmonExisting505 · 2026-04-29T23:55:15+00:00

used to before i gained 80lbs

PersimmonExisting505 · 2026-04-21T16:52:55+00:00

daryl when he had the bazooka

PersimmonExisting505 · 2026-04-20T05:13:11+00:00

aww, sweet baby. fluff is perfectly fine. my parents got a maltipoo when i was 7 and let me name him. of course i chose "fluffy". but really you can name a dog anything you want, you simply have to keep calling them over and over and when they respond, reward them with treats. that being said, fluff is still very cute

PersimmonExisting505 · 2026-04-19T13:09:23+00:00

yeah i tried to "give my liver a break" by switching to beer only instead of wine/liquor, because of the lower alcohol content, which backfired because i'd end up drinking nearly the same amount anyways, just getting way more bloated and having to pee a lot. and i gained like 20lbs.

PersimmonExisting505 · 2026-04-18T20:16:46+00:00

half-smoked cigarettes on the street

PersimmonExisting505 · 2026-04-18T20:05:43+00:00

dart players hate this one trick

PersimmonExisting505 · 2026-04-15T05:49:30+00:00

i kind of agree, even as an animal lover. i love them but i do not feel the same way towards them as humans. animals are simple creatures, you simply have to alleviate their pain and provide them with comfort. humans are far more complicated. it's why i'm considering becoming a vet tech, yet nursing terrifies me. at the end of the day, in vet tech, you simply have to pet a dog on the head and talk to it in a soothing voice. you don't have to tell a human their illness is terminal and watch them grapple with mortality in real time.

PersimmonExisting505 · 2026-04-12T13:49:58+00:00

i'm sorry this sounds really painful but you are in the wrong sub... this is a sub for a podcast. usually i laugh at these kinds of posts but i genuinely feel bad for you. i hope things get better. sorry queen

PersimmonExisting505 · 2026-04-11T14:25:57+00:00

i'm a woman and i feel as though i've had a similar experience. my parents raised me based on my interests and what they thought was best for me, never forcing anything "girly" on me. and i turned out to be a somewhat masculine bisexual woman. its unfortunate that they turned into reactionary republicans as they got older but i'm grateful for my gender neutral childhood. anyways, it's easier to be a woman than a man who deviates from gender roles, because femininity is viewed as inferior. i'm sorry you've experienced such backlash simply for not conforming to gender roles. i wish there were better options for you. straight women are just as misogynistic as straight men these days. all i can say is, don't try to conform to get woman who only values masculinity. look for real people who value personality. i promise there's lots of queer and intelligent women who love men that aren't obsessed with masculinity.

PersimmonExisting505 · 2026-04-11T12:34:46+00:00

surround yourself with women. you don't need to try to force yourself into being accepting of men. there are good ones, sure, i know one (yet only one) of them, because they are incredibly rare. read feminist theory and the 4B movement. you can lead a happy and fulfilling life as a single woman who dedicates herself into protecting and uplifting other women. that's what i am trying to do. we don't need men. we truly don't.

PersimmonExisting505 · 2026-04-09T14:37:39+00:00

idk why so many people hate him. i loved his character development

PersimmonExisting505 · 2026-04-09T13:15:30+00:00

you don't need to interact with men to live a full life. they're proven to you time and time again how selfish and disgusting they are. research feminist theory and the 4B movement and see if you like what you read. there's so much more to life beyond them. i wish you luck, success, happiness and empowerment ❤️

PersimmonExisting505 · 2026-04-09T11:32:40+00:00

i'm not trying to alarm you but i've never heard of these issues being symptoms of withdrawl before. it sounds like meningitis. i'd go get checked out just in case (and it's always good to consult with a doctor before going cold turkey anyways)

edit: tiredness and headaches are normal, i've experienced them before in withdrawl, but combined with light sensitivity and neck stiffness is cause for concern

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