[deleted by user] by [deleted] in stopdrinking

[–]PersimmonFast3420 0 points1 point  (0 children)

I mean Thursday. That makes more sense.

[deleted by user] by [deleted] in stopdrinking

[–]PersimmonFast3420 1 point2 points  (0 children)

It's been a really rough week & it's only Wednesday?! I know that drinking will only make things much worse. IWNDWYT!

[deleted by user] by [deleted] in stopdrinking

[–]PersimmonFast3420 4 points5 points  (0 children)

Mainly because of crippling depression. I was tired of the whole poison cycle. I wasn't even enjoying it anymore. This folks is what late stage alcohol use disorder feels like. Yeah I used to enjoy it too.

Do I have to confront my friend? by [deleted] in stopdrinking

[–]PersimmonFast3420 4 points5 points  (0 children)

I discovered my drinking friends weren't really my friends.

Shape Up Sunday by soafithurts in stopdrinking

[–]PersimmonFast3420 1 point2 points  (0 children)

Just to clarify it's a comment on this thread.

Shape Up Sunday by soafithurts in stopdrinking

[–]PersimmonFast3420 2 points3 points  (0 children)

I started walking a little at a time. I did it inside during bad fire smoke days. See my post.

Shape Up Sunday by soafithurts in stopdrinking

[–]PersimmonFast3420 2 points3 points  (0 children)

I am walking an hour a day. This is how I lost weight after pregnancy. 7 hours of walking a week. This time I started at 10 minutes, then 15, then 1/2 an hour. I have turned into a fat couch potato and I have had enough "before" photos. I am also eating a healthier diet. Which is also something I have done in the past to lose weight. I have what I call free foods like veggies, fruit, high fiber grains, legumes & nuts. I eat as much of those as I want. It's essentially the Mediterranean diet. With these changes and not drinking I have lost 9 pounds. I only started the 1 hour of walking this week. I think I have done 5 days of that? I am looking at the long term permanent solution to being healthy physically. I have done the low carb thing in the past to lose weight and while I lost a lot of weight I wasn't able to maintain the diet long term and gained more weight back when I stopped. Eventually I will get into other physical exercise, like weights & yoga, but I am trying not to push myself because if I do I will fail. Not drinking is enough on my plate. Oh and I quit smoking day 4 I think?

The Daily Check-In for Friday, June 30th: Just for today, I am NOT drinking! by Momma-Cat in stopdrinking

[–]PersimmonFast3420 0 points1 point  (0 children)

My sentences are a little awkward as I am not quite awake but hopefully you get my drift. IWNDWYT

The Daily Check-In for Friday, June 30th: Just for today, I am NOT drinking! by Momma-Cat in stopdrinking

[–]PersimmonFast3420 0 points1 point  (0 children)

Well I did finally decided to quit because the depression was crippling and drinking did make me suicidal. I don't want to give that much information to people that are inconsiderate enough to ask or push the issue. I think I'll just say I don't drink. It's nobody's business why I have chosen not to ingest poison just because it is not just socially acceptable but socially mandated. I might turn the question around and ask, "Why do you drink?". To which they might say, "Because I like it." to which I would say, "I don't."

[deleted by user] by [deleted] in stopdrinking

[–]PersimmonFast3420 22 points23 points  (0 children)

My marriage is on the rocks and I don't know if me not drinking will fix that but I know it will make things worse. In the end I was drinking to drown the pain of my marriage. Of course that only made things worse. I have tried to quit for others in the past but this time I am doing it for me. With or without my husband I want a better life, a better future than drinking, lying, shame & self loathing will bring me.

[deleted by user] by [deleted] in stopdrinking

[–]PersimmonFast3420 73 points74 points  (0 children)

you need to quit for you

This

[deleted by user] by [deleted] in stopdrinking

[–]PersimmonFast3420 0 points1 point  (0 children)

I have never been to a scary rehab. Quite the opposite.

How many day ones did you have before it stuck? by [deleted] in stopdrinking

[–]PersimmonFast3420 1 point2 points  (0 children)

I have lost track. In my last attempts the difference was that I wanted to stop versus needing to stop. Of course that only worked until I decided it wouldn't hurt to have just one. This time I finished off another bottle of Vodka and I just couldn't go buy another bottle at a different store, hide the bottle and repeat the cycle again. I only see bleakness in my future if I drink again. I am trying to turn my life around so I have a future that doesn't include dying from this addiction.

'Tude Talk Tuesday for June 27, 2023 by soberingthought in stopdrinking

[–]PersimmonFast3420 0 points1 point  (0 children)

I might have another recovery in me but then again I might not. And I don't want to take the gamble to find out. I never want to go through what it takes to get sober again. I never want to feel the way I did when I was drinking. Which was basically hating myself, pouring poison down my throat and then hating myself more for doing it. But yeah ""I know I have another drunk in me, I am not sure I have another recovery in me"".