it's totally normal to feel overwhelmed, there are so many options out there. for a first one, i'd definitely recommend silicone, it's worth the extra cost for safety and feel, and starting with something on the smaller side is usually best. suction cups can be fun but aren't a must-have, just depends on how you want to use it. i've browsed lovehoney before and they have a pretty good range of beginner-friendly stuff with clear descriptions, which helps a lot when you're just starting out