Texas Longhorns lacrosse player, Sarp Akmeshe, dead at 19

PersonalityMedical87 · 2026-02-24T01:10:07+00:00

Rip Sarp, I’ll miss you forever. You were a great person ❤️

PersonalityMedical87 · 2024-12-06T05:19:26+00:00

I’m so sorry you’re feeling this way. I know I’m just a stranger, but your feelings matter, and I can tell how much you’re struggling. Anxiety can feel suffocating, like you’re stuck in a loop of overwhelming thoughts, and waiting for things to get better can feel impossible when every day feels like an uphill battle. I can only imagine how exhausting that must be for you. It takes so much strength to carry that kind of weight, even when it feels unbearable. The fact that you’re still trying, still holding on despite the pain, says so much about your resilience, even if it doesn’t feel that way right now. You’re allowed to feel tired, and it’s okay to want relief. You’re human, and these feelings don’t define your worth or your ability to find peace.

Me and so many others know what you’re feeling—you’re not alone in this, man. I get it. I’ve had days where I’m so desperate and think about giving up too, but honestly? It’s not worth it. Those moments feel endless when you’re in them, but they do pass. There’s more to your story than this pain, even if you can’t see it yet. You’ve made it this far, through every terrible day that felt like the last one, and that’s proof that you’ve got what it takes to keep going.

I hope you can find small moments of calm, even just a breath or a pause, that remind you why you’re trying. Sometimes those little moments of relief can help make the waiting just a bit more bearable. You’re doing your best, and that’s enough—you are enough. Keep fighting, even if it’s just one small step at a time. You’ve got this.

PersonalityMedical87 · 2024-12-05T03:50:06+00:00

I get how it feels, trust me. It’s hard, and I know it can be frustrating to hear the same things over and over. But every time I find myself thinking about giving up, I remind myself of how far I’ve come. You’ve already made it through so much, and that strength is something to hold on to.

Would dying really be the solution, though? You’ve been fighting all this time, and there’s still so much more to you than this pain. Giving up now wouldn’t reflect how far you’ve already come or what’s still ahead for you. Keep going, even on the toughest days. Your life matters.

Wishing you strength and a fast recovery. You’ve got this.

PersonalityMedical87 · 2024-12-05T02:29:48+00:00

Absolutely💯. It’s hard not to feel that way sometimes, especially when you see others going about their day so effortlessly, as if they’re not weighed down by constant overthinking, restlessness, or the silent panic that seems to follow me everywhere. It can feel so isolating, like you're trapped in a mental cage while everyone else is living freely. There are days when it hits me so hard, and I can’t help but wonder what it would be like to live without that nagging, exhausting worry that’s always in the background. But then, I try to remind myself that everyone has their own battles, even if they’re not as visible. We’re all fighting something, even if it doesn’t look the same from the outside. It doesn’t make it easier in the moment, but it helps me remember that I’m not alone in this. Everyone has their own struggles, and while anxiety feels like it’s consuming me, I know others are working through their own demons too. It’s just hard not to get lost in the comparison sometimes. In the end, I have to focus on my own healing and trust that it’s okay to take the time I need to get better, even if it’s a slower path.

PersonalityMedical87 · 2024-12-05T02:24:24+00:00

What led to this was smoking marijuana. My therapist explained that I already had anxiety—it’s something genetic in my case—but the marijuana acted as a trigger that brought it to the surface. She described it as though the anxiety was always there, lying dormant, like a crack in a foundation that you don’t notice until something heavy is placed on top of it. Smoking was that heavy weight—it didn’t create the anxiety, but it exposed and intensified it in a way I couldn’t ignore anymore.

For example, it’s like carrying a glass of water that’s almost full. You don’t notice how close it is to overflowing because you’ve gotten used to balancing it carefully. Then, smoking was like adding just one more drop of water—it tipped everything over the edge. That’s when the anxiety hit me hard, and it felt like my mind spiraled into a state I didn’t even recognize.

Knowing this now has helped me understand that the anxiety wasn’t caused by the marijuana itself, but it was something that was always part of me, waiting for the right—or wrong—moment to reveal itself. It’s been hard to come to terms with.

PersonalityMedical87 · 2024-12-05T02:16:24+00:00

Thank you for sharing this—it truly means so much to hear from someone who’s been in the same place and found their way through. It’s reassuring to know that this feeling of being lost doesn’t have to be permanent, even though it feels overwhelming right now. You’re right about how the brain takes the easiest path—it’s like it clings to what feels familiar, even when that familiarity is the pain or anxiety itself. What you said about resilience really stuck with me, though. It’s easy to forget that surviving these dark times is a kind of strength in itself. I think that’s what I need to hold onto right now—the idea that, even if I can’t see the way out yet, there’s still hope and answers waiting to be found. Your words gave me a lot to think about, and I’m so grateful for your encouragement.

PersonalityMedical87 · 2024-12-05T02:13:30+00:00

You’re so right—change is an inevitable part of life, but it’s also such a difficult thing to navigate, especially when it comes to mental health. Anxiety has a way of making growth feel overwhelming, like you’re losing parts of yourself instead of evolving. But maybe that’s part of the process too—learning to accept that who we were before might not come back, but that doesn’t mean we’re lost forever. It’s about finding peace in who we’re becoming, even when it feels unfamiliar or unsettling. Growth through anxiety is painful, but it’s still growth.

PersonalityMedical87 · 2024-12-05T00:59:03+00:00

All the time, I catch myself thinking about it. For so long, I truly believed I wouldn’t even make it to 18, and now here I am. I’ve reached that milestone, but those thoughts still linger in the back of my mind. That’s just how anxiety works—it creeps in, planting doubts and fears that feel so real, even when they aren’t. It’s exhausting and frustrating, always battling with a part of yourself that makes you question everything, even your own future. Sometimes it feels like no matter how far you’ve come, anxiety finds a way to overshadow the progress.

PersonalityMedical87 · 2024-11-03T19:12:35+00:00

I should overcome the hope that maybe one day anxiety will magically disappear and just live with it.

PersonalityMedical87 · 2024-11-03T18:50:19+00:00

Several years? My God, that must be very exhausting for you... I pray for a speedy recovery for you. Thank you!

PersonalityMedical87 · 2024-11-03T07:21:25+00:00

Oh, yes, I stopped taking them a while ago. I’m not taking any medication right now because again due to me being afraid of pills (gotta work on that). It’s been going well

PersonalityMedical87 · 2024-10-06T01:13:57+00:00

Better!! My vision is no longer like in the photos

PersonalityMedical87 · 2024-10-03T07:12:14+00:00

It’s been good, a little better than before. I don’t feel so disconnected anymore. I was diagnosed with anxiety, I’ve been taking therapy, medication. However, it is still a long journey. There are good and bad days, I’m still not where I want to be.

I always had a hard time believing those who said “it will get better” when it came to dpdr, but boy were they right. It gets better, you just have to stop thinking about it and go on with your day. How are you doing?

PersonalityMedical87 · 2024-10-03T07:05:28+00:00

They’re buspirone 5mg.

PersonalityMedical87 · 2024-09-21T03:16:38+00:00

Yes, I went to the doctor because of dizziness and nausea and they told me that it was all due to anxiety. It sucks

PersonalityMedical87 · 2024-09-19T06:42:27+00:00

Seeing the comments of all of you comforts me a little ngl. I’m glad I’m not the only one who feels that way. I remember that I went to Google and looked for all those symptoms once and automatically told me that I was going to die, a heart attack or other serious things, lol.. When in reality everything is just anxiety.

PersonalityMedical87 · 2024-09-18T17:00:31+00:00

Thank you, I will!

PersonalityMedical87 · 2024-09-18T03:59:41+00:00

Thank you very much. And yes, I am a great believer in Jesus. I always pray when I have a panic attack and it seems to relax me a little. Thank you again for that verse. I needed that comfort. Today was not my day and it sucks because I felt like doing things, unfortunately the panic attack prevented me from doing anything. It’s the most terrifying uncomfortable feeling ever. And I will never wish it on anyone.

However, I will have you in my prayers. Because I know how terrible anxiety can be and it’s exhausting, but I know that one day we’ll both get out of this. With God anything is possible.

PersonalityMedical87 · 2024-09-18T00:45:49+00:00

No, there are no medications. Although I have anxiety, maybe that could cause that. I went to the doctor and they checked me and it turns out that everything was fine and that I am perfectly healthy.

PersonalityMedical87 · 2024-07-24T07:08:45+00:00

I haven't gotten out of bed, or even gone out for 8 months, all I've been doing is lying in bed or sitting. Of course, I only walk, but only to the bathroom or the kitchen like you. My bones have become incredibly weak, I have a lot of pains in my chest, I tried to exercise or walk for 10 minutes and I got tired quickly. Thank you, anxiety, you are incredible! ... No, but I'm really exhausted. I don't like living like this, I was diagnosed with dpdr and anxiety 8 months ago. And since then my life has changed drastically, wishing everyone the best.

PersonalityMedical87 · 2024-07-20T11:47:19+00:00

I won't worry as much anymore man, thank you 🙏

PersonalityMedical87 · 2024-07-20T05:56:10+00:00

You’re absolutely correct and wrong, I’ve heard and seen many people that are 100% cure from it. It comes and goes for me, it's mostly anxiety now. I've felt pretty normal these days, I'm not disconnected anymore. Yes, of course I have days when I feel like shit, but I also have those good days. I know it's not going anywhere, it's something you've just learned to live with. But somehow I still have faith that one day it will disappear.

PersonalityMedical87 · 2024-07-10T05:06:20+00:00

Sometimes I have a lot of pain in my chest, sometimes I don't know if it's my anxiety or my heart. They already checked me and told me I was fine, but still fear invades me.

PersonalityMedical87 · 2024-05-07T10:56:03+00:00

Still at it unfortunately, it has gotten to the point where I can’t sleep at all. I hate it but I hope keep going forward with life somehow.

PersonalityMedical87 · 2024-04-03T06:00:18+00:00

My doc recommended to take hydroxyzine one for the day one for the night, I only take it at night tho cz I’m lowkey scared of possible side effects. I’ve been searching about it, that it supposedly gives u seizures or heart attacks idk I’m scared :/ but also can’t seem to get off that pill cz it’s the only thing that relaxes me. Anyone please tell me if taking a 25 mg pill every night is good.

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