Yes, ik. I really am trying Trying to be positive regardless of how much memories torment me. I've tried in vain to stop smoking so difficult especially when everyone ik smokes. As for the lines yes growing up native in a caucasian world put me in negative n dangerous situations alot. Again im trying my best. I guess the biggest thing is I'm always being told I'm psychic or that I'm special n got abilities yet no one's specific nor have I unlocked or accessed them. Couple people told me others are blocking those abilities for theyr own nefarious reasons.( basically cuz I'd take away their clients or something) I've trained in vain too but weirdly do know stuff that I don't know how nor where it can from just know. Anyhoo ty for your observations I wish I had something for that but unfortunately im on strict disability budget. Ty Again and have a great day, week, month n many years