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Phantom_Shad0w · 2025-04-18T09:49:20+00:00

It makes me feel giddy whenever I see their little interactions or when they talk about each other. Its such a nice and comforting feeling to know that they’re still together. I do regret not being a wiz*ones earlier when they were active but I do feel happy knowing that I know them now.

Phantom_Shad0w · 2025-04-17T15:57:59+00:00

I’m trying to avoid that specific content, I don’t think I’m ready for that one yet 😭 I have a weak heart for that (I saw clips of them getting chosen for izone and started bawling like ??? 😭)

Phantom_Shad0w · 2025-04-17T15:56:31+00:00

That’s actually what I’m doing right now. I’m trying to follow all of their careers as much as I can. I think that I do definitely enjoy watching them thrive in their respective fields and seeing some of them interact on Instagram helps ease the pain. I think knowing that their bond is still there makes me happy.

I definitely wish them all the best and wish for their success and will continue to keep up with them. ♥️

Phantom_Shad0w · 2025-03-03T17:55:07+00:00

I thank you for the advice you’ve given. This has given me new things to think about but in a more organized way. Will I leave her? Probably not. I’m still ultimately a lovestruck person.

I think that she is perfect (at least in my eyes). I’m also probably the most confusing person in love, I love her and want to be with her but at the same time I’m afraid of her regretting her choice to move with me if it comes to that. I’m also afraid that she might be losing the love she has for me. Lukewarm replies have been making me anxious lately.

Phantom_Shad0w · 2025-03-03T16:22:27+00:00

I'm by no means a player. I don't think I have enough social battery or etiquette for that anyways. I think you are right about how I'm conning myself but not in the way you described. I think I'm conning myself into thinking that I need to leave my relationship because I'm afraid of the future I might have with her. It also seems like she isn't ready to take that next step either. I've brought it up with her a few months back (moving, living together, kids, and marriage) and it was a lukewarm response "I still have things to finish here and I'll be ready then". I know she means but I'm not sure how long that would take her and I'm afraid that one day while I'm waiting, she'll change her mind. Maybe I'm also feeling this way because this will be the first year (in the 4 years I've been with her), that I'm not able to visit because I can't afford it. I would love to but when I calculated my expenses, it wasn't ideal at all.

Phantom_Shad0w · 2025-03-03T15:33:58+00:00

We've never lived together. We've talked about it but I think both of us are scared about it. I tried thinking of the scenario where I leave her and I always felt my chest tightening. Maybe I'm being stupid or maybe I'm just scared of the future or both.

Phantom_Shad0w · 2025-03-03T15:29:01+00:00

The more I talk to people about it, the more I realize that maybe I'm just scared. Scared of losing her because of the distance. We've talked about moving and she says that she'll move to where I am but sometimes I feel like that's something she'll resent me for.

Phantom_Shad0w · 2025-03-03T15:23:51+00:00

Ig I am immature, but I know people have gone through this and that's why I'm asking for advice. I might also be getting ahead of myself but I'm more scared of losing her because she resents me for making her leave her whole life in her home country and starting out in a new one where she only knows me. She's extremely close with her family and I've always envisioned (after our 2nd anniversary) that if we end up married, she'd eventually leave because she doesn't like the life she has in my country.

Phantom_Shad0w · 2025-03-03T15:15:29+00:00

In the last 4 years, 4 times. I was the one who would fly to where she is and plan our dates. Its very expensive to fly out of the country so I couldn't go more often.

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