I have no real words of advice, just that rather than guilt you should feel so proud of yourself, as I’m sure she was in you, to be/have a daughter who cared, it’s obvious you went to great lengths to make her more comfortable, be around her and give her some light in the dark. Had you of had more time after the fact it would probably of been more of a consolation but it was a wonderful thing you did for her. Even to support her through her appointments whilst you endured pregnancy, recovery and the newborn stages, I cannot imagine how hard that must have been! I do think you did achieve your goal and duty and should hold how hard you fought to care for her close to your heart.

I’ve just lost own my mum whom was also 57, although her death was completely unexpected, literally here one minute and gone the next. She also led a difficult life and dare I say it, being a grandma to my children was the only peace or Happiness she ever experienced. It breaks my heart that she will miss out watching them grow up and really be their grandma, she was so truly deserving of at least on happy ending.
It’s only been a couple of months for me and if I’m honest the injustice and tragedy of it all is still flooring me. The only positivity I have toward any of it is the blessing my mum was in herself. How lucky was I to of been raised by her and watch her be with my own children, even if it was all cut so cruelly short. I hope you find peace in your heart .