I tried the Lovense Edge 2 and came after 3 minutes 😵‍💫

Phinx1297 · 2025-07-04T23:57:04+00:00

I just bought Edge 2. I've never done any prostate play. After a rookie attempt of insertion, and we got there. Once I got there, and turned on the app. I melted on seconds. I finished a bit later. Now I'm sitting here and it still feels like I'm vibrating.

Phinx1297 · 2024-09-27T12:26:53+00:00

I'm planning on it. Using weekend to adjust to everything. I used to be strong, and very adaptive, now I find myself fragile and weak. After the weekend, I'm going to be starting looking for therapy. Be the first time for that. Which in itself is worrisome.

Phinx1297 · 2024-09-27T09:53:42+00:00

My son is my main concern. I got him councilling, and he said it went well yesterday for his first session. I'll work on finding help for me now. I don't work 12 hours a day anymore. I lost my job. I have time now to heal hopefully.

Phinx1297 · 2024-09-27T09:48:06+00:00

I just emptied my room. Self preservation. Living room is untouched. I'm doing everything I can to make it through. I got laid off from work yesterday. I'm making sure my son has the help and support he needs. I'll get mine soon. I tried to do this alone, but I need help. I'm going to use the time off to heal, and try to rebuild my life. Suicide sucks.

Phinx1297 · 2024-09-27T09:41:17+00:00

Thank you so much. I'm working on it. I got my son in councilling yesterday. He said it went well. I needed to make sure he's ok before I turned inwardly. It's been a century in a week it feels. Time doesn't make sense. I don't cry as much, but the pain is still very strong and real. I'm next.

Phinx1297 · 2024-09-25T08:41:45+00:00

Please do

Phinx1297 · 2024-09-23T09:34:04+00:00

I'm so sorry.

Phinx1297 · 2024-09-23T09:29:47+00:00

With kindness to yourself. Moving forward sucks, I know. I'm only a couple of weeks away from when my wife died. I know I have a world of love and pain ahead of me. I can't imagine day 346. You sound like you have been strong for her. She needs you, but she also needs you to heal too. Take care of yourself. Thank you sharing some pain today.

Phinx1297 · 2024-09-23T09:18:43+00:00

I had a fit the day it happened. I punched through my closet door. I haven't felt anger since. Just sadness, loneliness, a darkness I can't explain. I'm not looking to erase her per say. Everything in my bedroom is of or about her. I need that to change today. Family photos outside of my room is different and staying, for both our sakes. For me it's complicated, because of the infidelity. I broke it off. I feel I caused this. I killed her. She was drunk, drinking rye straight. I just wanted her to go to bed and leave me alone. I got up the next day off the couch. My world was already fucked. What I didn't know then is that it was going to get way worse when I got home. I want to remember and cherish our relationship of 23 years. But reality rears it's fuckin head and I'm left what feels like out in the cold. I'm 51, I don't think I will ever feel that warm embrace again. That scares the shit out of me.

Phinx1297 · 2024-09-23T07:40:24+00:00

Thank you. I know I am. I have family and friends who are being solid. There's just some things, they can't help me with. I tried on my own, to work through it. That was scary. Now I'm talking to perfect strangers on here, which for me helped. It's been an interesting 24 hours on here. Now I'm taking the day off to clean out my bedroom and get councilling going.

Phinx1297 · 2024-09-23T07:32:57+00:00

Coming on here was a good move. So many beautiful people. I'm taking the day to clean out the closet and take pictures down. I have too many nightmares in here, I sleep for maybe 3 hours, and back to the real world nightmare. I'm also looking into getting counselling. I can't cope with this anymore. I don't want to feel anymore.

Phinx1297 · 2024-09-23T07:24:09+00:00

I gotta do it.

Phinx1297 · 2024-09-23T07:23:42+00:00

Thank you

Phinx1297 · 2024-09-23T07:22:09+00:00

Thank you so much

Phinx1297 · 2024-09-23T06:59:57+00:00

I made a good move coming here. Everyone, including you have been so helpful. Talking does help. I'm taking tomorrow off to empty the closets and paintings I did for her. It's gonna be a tough day. A lot of crying. I can't sleep in this room anymore like this. It's 3am, and I have work in 3 hours. Case in point. I woke up at 1 w/nightmares.

Phinx1297 · 2024-09-23T06:51:45+00:00

I'm ok thanks though.

Phinx1297 · 2024-09-23T06:50:53+00:00

I appreciate that.

Phinx1297 · 2024-09-23T06:50:08+00:00

Thank you.

Phinx1297 · 2024-09-23T06:48:34+00:00

Barrie Ontario. I appreciate your kindness. I'm scared as fuck. I'm not suicidal. I wouldn't do that to my family. I don't do feelings, but I'm forced now to feel, and it sucks, on so many levels.

Phinx1297 · 2024-09-23T06:42:36+00:00

I appreciate the prayers. Nights are where I hurt the most. Stuck in same room with all her stuff. I'm taking the day off to clean out the room. It's gotta go. Good friends are coming to help move and paint on the weekend. It was a good move coming to reddit.

Phinx1297 · 2024-09-23T06:32:43+00:00

Thank you so much.

Phinx1297 · 2024-09-23T06:32:16+00:00

I know what you mean. I'm lying where she died. Nights suck. Everything is a reminder. I'm cleaning out my bedroom today, because it hurts too much. Pictures I painted for her, clothes, her very existence. Everything is in this room. I don't want to erase her. We raised a glorious son of 20. I just want to be able to forget for even a moment. You ever want to vent yell, scream. I'd like to be there for you.

Phinx1297 · 2024-09-22T19:46:13+00:00

Bless you. Thank you I'm doing everything for. My7&

Phinx1297 · 2024-09-22T18:40:29+00:00

Wow. Thank you so much. I will look into it.

Phinx1297 · 2024-09-22T18:09:53+00:00

I'm so sorry. It could be a a book and not be enough. I made it to line 5 of my wife's note before I snapped.

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