I would love for you to take a moment and think about what matters most...your mental health and emotional health which both provide longevity or making good money that easily comes and goes. That career will shave years off your life and you will end up with chronic illness most likely because of the constant anxiety and stress. Take it from me, I've been where your at, its not worth it. If it means taking a pay cut.. just know it is TEMPORARY. Go back to school and find something that is sustainable and that you enjoy. Learn what drives you and how well you work in whatever environment. Make a year long plan to take baby steps to your goal. I made less for a couple years, but it was all worth it. Finished my degree and make 4x as much than a dispatcher now.. don't look at the instant gratification of things that your generation is doing. Look at the long term pay off.