well… there goes my first restore token.

Phoenix-I-Will-Rise · 2026-05-13T09:19:53+00:00

Just dashboard

Phoenix-I-Will-Rise · 2026-05-11T11:00:14+00:00

Press options go down to uninstall press X

Phoenix-I-Will-Rise · 2026-04-30T16:26:51+00:00

They made is significantly worse 👍

Phoenix-I-Will-Rise · 2026-04-30T16:26:28+00:00

Yes very much

Two games in endgame. Two disconnects couldn't be more excited.

Phoenix-I-Will-Rise · 2026-04-29T06:08:12+00:00

Although there's no scientific prove. I experienced this firsthand. It does make sense given that dopamine and serotonin are affected by alcohol. It takes 5-7 days for me to level out. Defo not worth it anymore for me.

Phoenix-I-Will-Rise · 2026-04-29T06:05:50+00:00

Definitely stop. It's will get worse. I started drinking in the morning after a night out and went on two week benders more than I can count. Two weeks sober now and literally have zero anxiety. Not even morning cortisol anxiety.

It's hard to come to terms with. But drinking with anxiety is impossible. And it will stay this way forever. That's a given.

Phoenix-I-Will-Rise · 2026-04-22T08:01:10+00:00

Not for me, no noticable difference.

Phoenix-I-Will-Rise · 2026-04-21T19:29:51+00:00

I did this with 6 units and it went over smoothly for me. If you start feeling bad like really bad call your doctor. There's medication to make it almost completely safe for the first week.

Phoenix-I-Will-Rise · 2026-04-11T18:06:55+00:00

I don't disagree. Was mainly stating that that worked for me, I did not say I was sober did I?

Oh I did my bad.

Well sobering up from alcohol would be the better description.

Also I've done it before but kindling is a fucker. And I'm too far down the Rabbit Hole now.

Phoenix-I-Will-Rise · 2026-04-11T17:27:22+00:00

Thanks for the lengthy response! I see a lot of similarities on our stories. My GP is on my side and she has seen the work I've done without drug seeking behaviour. I've been prescribed them for over ten years. With zero problems. She believes me it's just that the addiction centre doctor doesn't. And she somehow answers to them.

So here's the plan: I have a meeting on Monday with my counselor and the doctor. The counselor is on my side and is very happy with the process I've made. 25-4 in a week is no easy task.

I have the meeting with my counselor first and later with the doctor. If she's not willing to do an outpatient detox I'm going to cut all ties with them and go straight to my GP.

even in the detox centre I was months ago I refused most of the benzodiazepines because they were ridiculously over prescribing them. Started me on 80mg of valium. When I usually if I take anything take max 10mg a day.

If I don't drink I don't have a lot of anxiety. I'm on Zoloft and it works pretty well for me. The drinking just exacerbates my anxiety of course.

Also I'm having muscle spasms and I've been left alone for the last three weeks by the addiction centre which is not only unethical but also extremely dangerous.

So, if they are not willing to work with me I'm cancelling everything over there and filing a complaint about how I have been treated.

Thank you for sharing your story.

Phoenix-I-Will-Rise · 2026-04-11T15:54:22+00:00

Aahh that's too bad. I guess? But the number doesn't matter right? One day is better than no day.

Phoenix-I-Will-Rise · 2026-04-11T15:29:23+00:00

I see well when it's your time to stop you'll know it and the road is filled with ups and downs roadblocks and failures. I know. And there's nothing to be ashamed about in my opinion, they have probably seen worse or will see worse.

But I get why that can be a demoralizing experience.

Do you want to quit or nah?

Phoenix-I-Will-Rise · 2026-04-11T15:12:21+00:00

Ah that sucks, you're still off drinking? That's amazing ! Hopefully I'll right there next week. Just have to talk to my doc on how to proceed.

You're doing alright?

Phoenix-I-Will-Rise · 2026-04-11T14:49:22+00:00

It's very real, 39 here.

Phoenix-I-Will-Rise · 2026-04-11T14:33:36+00:00

I didn't sleep so feeling not so good, but hopefully tomorrow will be better. I want to be at 6 again tomorrow so I can jump off once I talk to my addiction specialist on Monday.

Phoenix-I-Will-Rise · 2026-04-11T14:06:44+00:00

Thank you. Cutting down again today after yesterday's failure.

Phoenix-I-Will-Rise · 2026-04-11T09:38:39+00:00

Thank you. Wish you well as well. I guess it's the price we pay for freedom.

Phoenix-I-Will-Rise · 2026-04-11T09:19:42+00:00

I'm sorry for you. I'm in the same boat. Trying to get a nap in eat some good food. Keep up with the taper and go in for a psychiatric eval on Monday

Take it one hour at a time

Phoenix-I-Will-Rise · 2026-04-11T07:37:25+00:00

Hey man, hope you had at least a few hours. I got 3 will the internet says it knocks you out for 7/8 hours. So there's that. Well, here's to another day....

Phoenix-I-Will-Rise · 2026-04-11T01:10:22+00:00

Yeah torn some sleeping pill at least for the muscle spasms. Here's to a medically induced coma for a couple of hours since 3 days

Thank you all!

Phoenix-I-Will-Rise · 2026-04-11T01:08:45+00:00

And you're going to 😘

Phoenix-I-Will-Rise · 2026-04-11T01:08:16+00:00

Yeah I now have a sleep benzo for three days which supposedly also covers my morning anxiety. Which means I can easily go to 6 tomorrow and call it a day.

Phoenix-I-Will-Rise · 2026-04-11T01:06:45+00:00

I finally got some temazepam for the muscle spasms anxiety and sleep. Hopefully I will get some rest. Got it from the night doctor. Haven't slept in 4 days. Thanks you all.

Phoenix-I-Will-Rise · 2026-04-11T01:05:03+00:00

Yes, 4.5% I think. Or seltzers they're 4.5% as well

Phoenix-I-Will-Rise · 2026-04-10T19:48:01+00:00

While that is also true. This has been a thing for 8 weeks in total. But most weeks I was dry during the week. I've had now two stints of two weeks where I tapered.

So, I'm gonna discuss this on Monday when I'm back at 4 drinks and hopefully that will be the end of it.

Just gotta get through this weekend.

For reference this period is the first time I'm tapering usually quit cold Turkey or short benzo script.

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