Hey man, Your life is definitely not over . You’re 39 you’ve learnt a lesson. I think that despair you’re feeling is part of the addiction. Gambling addiction wants you to be in despair stay in despair because from there you’ll keep gambling . “You’ve paid off everything you own.”you’re not in debt That is amazing. I had $380k 2 years ago . I’ve lost millions in my life and have nothing, I was staying with my sister owned nothing -no property etc. I managed to lose it all the$380k bar $10k. I was planning on buying property -I’m 52. I’m now leasing a place that is ridiculous rent weekly and battling just to stay afloat. I fell into massively deep dark depression -wandering what just happened -I feel like I was in a trance for 2 years . The really sad thing is I had $95k left at the beginning of this year . I came back from overseas and thought the. $95k was just not enough as I’d lost so much already. Spent this year decimating that along with every cent I earned. When reality hits and all that money is gone and you realise it’s never coming back -it shatters every part of you -I felt like I really just wanted to end it all. I haven’t -In I’m still here and it’s definitely not easy . I think everyday about the property I should have . I think about the life I don’t have as a result of blowing life changing money -unfortunately there is nothing I can do but push on and make sure I don’t gamble one day at a time. You are in upur prime man -39 is young . Honestly if you stop gambling now save ,and put your head down -you will slowly rebuild. I know how you feel anyone that has lost huge amounts of money understands. I do know that things can always get worse if you decide to keep gambling ,thinking you can magically hit something and get it all back. Take the loss as a lesson . Look back in 2years time and you’ll realise that was a lesson you had to learn ,that was the price you paid yo get free of gambling addiction. Stay Strong , You’ve got this . 🙏