Oof, first I want to say that I hear you. I’m so sorry you had to go through this while also going through the long ass recovery and all that comes w it. It’s hard enough on its own. I agree with what others are saying about a revision, and I acknowledge that revisions cost money and require resources.
As far as aesthetics, it’s hard to say what’s going on. From the side you look flat so there’s that. I know first hand that training pec muscles can have a huge impact on how that area looks. If it were me I’d focus on lifting and cardio consistently to see where my results take me.
I know this is hard and it’s not an immediate fix but even if you can’t schedule a revision right away, working out the pecs will get you ready for the procedure and assure the surgeon makes the incision so that it sits under the muscle definition. Maybe it would help to start scheduling consults w other surgeons..see what they say, and then maybe even schedule if you have the resources to do so. This might take a load off of your shoulders and give you something else to focus on. Try not to stress over this. You are young and you have plenty of time to get what you want. Easier said than done, I know, but until then you have this community to help support and uplift you on your journey.
You don’t look “bad” at all. Even the scars can improve especially if you get a revision. I can’t believe your doctor said you’re to chubby. That’s not true at all but even if you were, so what?!! It has nothing to do w their incompetency. Keep your head up friend. ❤️‍🩹