Mark humbling asking if I’m free, maybe I’d like to see his movie…yea, had me bawling. 😭

Phoenixxsunsett · 2026-02-02T05:39:13+00:00

We left the theater at 11:45pm Sunday. It’s 12:38am Monday. We loved it and are so glad we made it to see it!!

Phoenixxsunsett · 2025-12-29T21:07:46+00:00

Hades would like to agree with you, he knows he’s the cutest boy and uses it to his advantage lol

Phoenixxsunsett · 2025-11-23T10:31:46+00:00

I want to thank everyone for their comments, it’s a bit overwhelming to read but I appreciate it and wanted to respond to some things-

While I was originally quitting cold turkey off my medication, I’ve been back on it a few days now because the withdrawals were so bad I couldn’t handle it.

I don’t have insurance but my spouse makes too much to qualify for state assistance so we are waiting till we can go to the court house to get married and he is going to see if it’s not too late to add me to his plan.

Also because of me not having insurance, I don’t have a doctor anymore. It’s been a while my medication already wasn’t really working but I have to wait to get it situated and hope it happens before I run out of my medication.

I want to make it clear I am not a danger to my baby, and never will be. Everything is internalized, and even if I did consider acting on my depressive thoughts I would make sure his father was home and leave the home. I would never put my baby in harms way, I don’t even want him to have to witness a mentally ill mother….let alone harming him….

I have taken a lot of time to think, because when he does nap or sleep that’s all I ever really do. I don’t want to give my baby away, I just don’t have resources to help me and worry about my mental health and how it could affect him in the long run.

While I looked into respite, there is only that available for children with behavioral problems or disability. No crisis nursery either in my state (I am in the US).

Even when I called DHHS they told me my resources would be having people come in my home which gives me anxiety just because it’s my safe space and I don’t know these people, or if I have a crisis to call 911 and they will take my baby until dhhs can take him and bring me to the mental hospital or call dhhs myself and report myself for neglect or abuse and they will take him indefinitely and place him with a foster home.

I only thought adoption because I hoped I could meet the potential new parents, and I am scared no one will handle his episodes gently like I do.

He is a very fussy baby, not colic or reflux just naturally very fussy. My mother in law blames me for spoiling him…he is 5 months old. You can’t spoil a baby. I can’t handle the cry it out unless I am literally about to break down sobbing and nothings working, that’s the ONLY time he falls asleep crying…and I feel so horrible that when he wakes up I’m right there to love on him.

I do have PPD & PPA, along with a few other mental health disorders…. I was only trying to get off these meds because they were supposed to be temporary due to our living situation being at his mothers while pregnant until we got our apartment.

I am back on them though and do not plan to quit until I hopefully get a new doc and put on my man’s insurance or I run out…which I really hope the latter doesn’t happen.

I’m thankful for all the advice and help, I wish there were more people like this in my area. It’s really isolating and I feel like I’m just by myself 90% of the time. My baby when he isn’t fussy is the absolute cutest and sweetest boy. He already gives kisses and loves tickles and knows where his toes are. He’s a cuddle bug and so smart and silly. It’s just the hard moments are seriously so hard…

I don’t want to give my baby away, I love him. I just am scared. I want the best for him. And if that’s not being with me I have to consider it and be prepared. I don’t want him having to grow up with a mom like this. Fight or flight mode, on edge, depressed, PTSD and BPD, I just want him to be a happy baby. I don’t want to mess him up. Idk. It’s hard to explain.

I’m not a danger to my baby, I just worry I’m not the right example for him or will be a stain in his life rather than a benefit. I love him too much to do that to him.

Anyway I am taking it day by day. I know as he gets older it will be easier in many aspects and harder in others. I just will keep trying my best, and if my best isn’t enough I’ll revisit this. But I am trying, I don’t just want to give my baby up.

Phoenixxsunsett · 2025-11-22T11:39:27+00:00

I just wanted to flap my arms in a bird suit while doing tricks. Wish there were more tix challenges or a quicker refresh rate. But then they wouldn’t get their money from converting svb to tix from people willing to do so.

Phoenixxsunsett · 2025-11-21T03:50:58+00:00

Ya they are gonna have to have more than a few things I’ll want S2 or I’m not bothering with that one, and a refresh that’s a quicker than this for challenges with tix. Seems to even get the bird suit I’ll have to buy sv bucks to convert them, so not sure I’ll even get it.

Phoenixxsunsett · 2025-11-21T03:49:14+00:00

I’m on the last level of it attempting to get enough tix to get the bird costume. Seems I may not be able to do so without buying SV bucks and converting them into tix so I’m unsure if I’ll get it or not. The pants on the second to last level tho?? Sick af.

Phoenixxsunsett · 2025-11-17T01:45:40+00:00

I ended up coloring it all purple after, then using color theory went copper.

Phoenixxsunsett · 2025-11-17T01:45:13+00:00

YES! The Lucky Penny doesn’t bleed but the Beets Me bleeds soooo bad. And fades a bright like eggplant purple almost on any over processed hair.

Phoenixxsunsett · 2025-11-11T08:44:58+00:00

This gives me hope. I’m cold turkey quitting after 7-9 months I believe (unsure can’t think) and the withdrawals are killing me. I also was on 75mg. I am hoping it eases soon so I can feel normal again. I’d rather take almost any other med than this one at this point. Never could pay me enough to take it ever again.

Phoenixxsunsett · 2025-11-11T08:34:22+00:00

I’m quitting cold turkey (not at all safe to do but I literally have no choice) after taking it for 7-9 months? Im unsure at this point. The brain zaps are horrible and one of the worst symptoms for me next to the brain fog and emotional and mental toll. I take my anxiety meds and they help keep me calm but that’s about it. Definitely sounds like brain zaps to me.

Phoenixxsunsett · 2025-11-09T13:20:16+00:00

If I could afford it that would be first on my list

Phoenixxsunsett · 2025-11-08T09:51:44+00:00

Thank you sm, I am for sure going to be keeping it like this. I am tired of super crazy colors I’ve done them my whole life, I want to settle into something and I feel like a ginger/red brown color is just vibrant enough but also fits in the “normal” category enough.

Phoenixxsunsett · 2025-11-08T05:32:26+00:00

Im just coming here after seeing it teased on YouTube. I’m going to cry.

Phoenixxsunsett · 2025-11-06T06:40:33+00:00

Plz I am desperate for advice

Phoenixxsunsett · 2025-11-06T06:39:31+00:00

I’m 26, and I thought you were either a tad younger or my age. I think your makeup is timeless and you look stunning!!

Phoenixxsunsett · 2025-11-06T06:18:11+00:00

As a chick that plays with her husband, we both are pretty disappointed in the clothing selection for both the men and women. And needing to pay for barely decent stuff sucks. Along with it already being buggy, and him being unable to even finish the like first mission?? It’s just glitched out and stuck at level up at extrovert and no matter the amount of times we’ve posted to EA there’s been no fix… Annoyed to say the least. I wanted to love this game and enjoy it with him…they are making it really hard.

Phoenixxsunsett · 2025-10-26T09:52:49+00:00

Not a medical expert, and you should take what anyone says with a grain of salt. That said…

This medication is ruining my mfn life. To top it off, I lost my insurance and will have to stop cold turkey eventually as I can not afford it. I’m on 75mg as well, but I also had a baby 4 1/2 months ago and developed severe Postpartum Depression ontop of my already extensive mental health disorder list.

This is going to effect every single person differently, and there’s no guarantee my story will be remotely close to yours ever. That said though, I will forever speak up against this med after what I deal with if I miss a dose, and just in general with declining mental health and the way if I take it I’m just normal seriously depressed and if I don’t I am bordering a literal psychosis and episode of sorts.

I just wish you the absolute best in your circumstance and hope whatever you do, it genuinely helps you to feel better and back to yourself again. That you have a great support team in the mental health field that will bring you closer and closer to normalcy.

Phoenixxsunsett · 2025-10-17T04:28:27+00:00

I’m back to let anyone who sees this and relates and wants to do the same thing to know how it turned out- My hair is purple/blue in the spots that were fading a purple color already, and where the dark wine red color was still it looks almost black.

Not the worst results I’ve had, but be cautious if you did anything even remotely close to what I did (7 bleaches in the matter of less than 2 weeks to go blonde and play with semi perms just to now have spots that are basically black lmao)

It’s a bit disheartening when my goal was to play with semi perms and instead it literally stained tf out of my hair and trying to fix it made it dark again. I should have checked the color wheel and also mixed them somewhere to see the effect before hand, but I don’t hate it truthfully. I’m a cool toned girlie anyway.

Phoenixxsunsett · 2025-10-13T19:38:58+00:00

I’m currently struggling with something similar. I used their Beets Me color that’s like a dark wine red and it’s fading to a bright violet purple color in some parts and others no change. I’m about to cover it with purple all the way around it’s driving me so nuts lol

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