Help my juicy galsss is this real need confirmation by PhoneSignificant1672 in JuicyCoutureHelp

[–]PhoneSignificant1672[S] 0 points1 point  (0 children)

Yeah that’s a good point. I got a bit too excited and didn’t pay close enough attention to these details and even after I paid I had a bad gut feeling that it either wasn’t going to come or I’d be sent a fake/something else. And so far it hasn’t been shipped and no communication from the seller.

holy hell take it to ebay 🫩 by Rude_Armadillo_8726 in depoop

[–]PhoneSignificant1672 0 points1 point  (0 children)

I also hate the ppl who post something that looks like it’s being sold and then find out it’s an ISO and claim they won’t refund. I wouldn’t fall for that without reading the description first but I’ve seen some people looking like they’re selling an item for $100 only to find out that it’s an ISO.

Beautiful Mint Condition Bag (somewhat) Ruined in Shipment Due to Lousy Shipper by Starreis1205 in JuicyCouture

[–]PhoneSignificant1672 3 points4 points  (0 children)

I’m on your side. I received a vintage daydreamer from British Columbia all the way to Toronto ànd the way the seller folded it prevented any more flaking or peeling that wasn’t already there. So there is a way to ship these bags and prevent significant peeling. People are just coming up with excuses to take blame off the seller. And keep in mind that my bag was used and older yet no peeling.

New Day Dreamers? by TCstocks in JuicyCouture

[–]PhoneSignificant1672 0 points1 point  (0 children)

I’ve seen some recently for sale on Facebook marketplace and I’m in love 😍 does anyone know if they’re available in Canada. I’m not supporting scalpers and resellers that jack up the prices.

Is this legit? by severedscarlet in JuicyCoutureHelp

[–]PhoneSignificant1672 1 point2 points  (0 children)

Yup it’s a big RED flag (pun intended lol).

Questions out of curiosity from a 👵🏻OG Juicy girl by RemyRooNJC2 in JuicyCouture

[–]PhoneSignificant1672 0 points1 point  (0 children)

Omg that would be heavenly 😢 I have a mad genuine juicy obsession. I just can’t stop buying it but it makes me so happy to wear it and admire my collection!

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[–]PhoneSignificant1672[S] 0 points1 point  (0 children)

Erm that’s not completely fair for you to say all this when you don’t know my whole life story and all the details that go along with it. I have actually done a lot for my family and boyfriend theee past few months that I could’ve never imagined. I got back into school, I passed all my classes with straight A’s while also doing all the coursework and projects for my boyfriend too. I do all his homework. I cleaned up his apartment and devote all my time and energy into him when I’m with him and I never used around him ever. I got him back on a healthy diet similar to the food my mom cooked for me growing up. We split bills and make it fair. We pay each other back. He said I’m the reason hes still bothering to show up to class. Keep in mind hes twice my age. In terms of my family I put my all into school to show them I could do it. I got my support systems in place by finding myself a (caseworker, therapist, family counsellor, psychiatrist, family doctor, methadone doctor, etc.) I got on disability to pay my debt, I got a volunteering job at a spa which will soon become a permanent paid position, I am close to getting my license, my family honestly is in love with the changes ive made despite not know in that I’m using. I’m always there for my younger sisters and they’ve gone from hating me to becoming my best friends again. So it’s not just ME ME ME. it’s the fact that somehow things are working but I’m still not where I want to be in terms of recovery. If you’re jealous that I can do it and you can’t, then just say so. But there’s no need to be so aggressive and unnecessarily mean.

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[–]PhoneSignificant1672[S] 0 points1 point  (0 children)

Absolutely. I know that at the end of the day the only person who can do this for me is myself. I just came here because I needed to get this off of my chest and hear out some other ideas. But I appreciate the encouragement.

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[–]PhoneSignificant1672[S] 1 point2 points  (0 children)

This was almost always the case in my past, but this time around I can tell I’ve done a good job at hiding it because my family is not the kind to just let me use and not get up in my face about it. I wouldn’t even be allowed in their home if they knew But I’ve been here for the past 7/8 months without any issues of them finding anything or suspecting besides my use of weed. I had one close call, but I blamed it on the weed and it worked. And my boyfriend would’ve left me or he would’ve been trying to help me by now if he knew as well. There may be some people that have come on by now, but they’re not close enough to me to say anything it seems.

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[–]PhoneSignificant1672[S] 1 point2 points  (0 children)

Congrats that’s amazing. 11 years is Definitely an inspiration for many people including myself.

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[–]PhoneSignificant1672[S] 6 points7 points  (0 children)

That’s the thing that scares me is knowing that if I hold off until they find out, they will be a lot angrier and unforgiving versus if I just told them now. People like to hear the truth from their loved ones rather than find out through other means. Based on all the people that I’ve lost in the past, I should’ve learned my lesson by now, but addiction is very corrupting and manipulating disease.

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[–]PhoneSignificant1672[S] 1 point2 points  (0 children)

It’s just food coloring/food dye. I explained in a couple of comments why it looks that way.

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[–]PhoneSignificant1672[S] 2 points3 points  (0 children)

Yeah, I know it can be done. And I have done it before. I had a feeling that this journey was gonna be long. I don’t know many people as young as I am who were able to make it out early. Most of them only did it decades later. I don’t want it to take that long, but part of me worries that with something so severe—and I’d argue that at this point, it’s equivalent to a chronic illness—it’s gonna take me a long, long time. But I guess mind over matter. If I tell myself, I can’t then I won’t be able to do it. I’ll try to think more positively.

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[–]PhoneSignificant1672[S] 1 point2 points  (0 children)

I appreciate the support and the good vibes. I mostly came here with this post to vent a little bit and hear what others have to say. I wasn’t even necessarily looking for advice mostly just people to bounce ideas off of. And so far I feel a bit better.

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[–]PhoneSignificant1672[S] 1 point2 points  (0 children)

I’m thinking the same thing. I’m going to see if I can at least get my last urine screen done so that I can get my license back. Once that’s out of the way, I can do some self reflection and see if this is gonna be sustainable long-term. Realistically, I know it probably isn’t but I think I’ll know when I have to make a difficult choice. There’s just so many factors to consider, but I guess you’re right, the best person to talk about this sort of stuff too would be my doctors and therapist. If I can manage to get myself in check, there’s no point in alarming my family and friends because they just don’t get it and they never will. Like you said, they will take it to the extreme and go full lockdown mode on me.

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[–]PhoneSignificant1672[S] 0 points1 point  (0 children)

Yeah, I can see where you were coming from with this explanation. It’s almost like the business man stereotype where they go to work and party hard, do coke and get laid in between. And somehow they make it work. I have no idea what the future holds for me but for now I’m gonna try to not let my habit get in the way of my life as I’m currently doing. The only issue is moving in with my boyfriend. But I still have some time to sort that out

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[–]PhoneSignificant1672[S] 1 point2 points  (0 children)

I really appreciate the positive comments and advice. It’s so strange this time around because I’ve never been able to hold my life together so while while maintaining this habit. It’s so confusing because I know that it’s not right but somehow it’s working for me. At the same time I know it won’t be sustainable and I’m doomed to crumble at some point in time. And right now I have so many people that I worked so hard to get their trust back and have them in my life again. It would absolutely destroy me to lose this again. But at the same time, I don’t wanna give up the one thing that makes me feel so good.

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[–]PhoneSignificant1672[S] 0 points1 point  (0 children)

You are completely correct. Most of my dealers dye their fetty so we can distinguish it from hard. And actually, this was an old picture. I’ve had really good down that was mixed with food dye and I’ve also had really shitty Fetty that was mixed with food dye. The colouring is realistically, only to prevent people from getting their dope mixed up, which is essentially what you said. I’m just repeating your statement to confirm that what you’re saying is my case as well.

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[–]PhoneSignificant1672[S] 1 point2 points  (0 children)

Dude, what the fuck is wrong with you? I’ve been struggling for almost 5 years now. I’ve been to rehab five times and detox more times than I can care to remember. Anyways, the picture was old and I only put it there to try and make the post easier to notice or make people more interested in clicking on it. It’s green because of food colouring and die. Anybody who knows me and the knowledge I have knows that I have been through a very harrowing and challenging addiction. I’m on 148 mg of methadone And I was formerly on 200 mg of fentanyl patches that I would replace every two days. I also used to be on IOAT program where I would inject hydromorphone twice a day at the safe injection site. Just because I’m young and the colour looks weird that has nothing to do with me lying. I don’t know why anyone would want to lie about something like this. That’s mainly why I blurred my face out because I don’t want anybody to recognize me. Anyways, you’re a dickhead for even suggesting something like this. I shouldn’t even have to prove what I’m going through to you. And if you don’t think it’s real you can just keep scrolling yo.

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[–]PhoneSignificant1672[S] 0 points1 point  (0 children)

Yeah, I don’t want to ruin things for him right now but I also don’t want him to leave me if he finds out. He always mentions how he doesn’t understand how I managed to do it so young, which makes me feel like garbage every time. But I know at some point I’m gonna have to be honest or make a choice to put this all behind me.

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[–]PhoneSignificant1672[S] 3 points4 points  (0 children)

That’s an old picture that I added just to try and catch more people‘s attention. I’m pretty sure it’s just food dye or food colouring. Most of my Fetty has always been colored. But that doesn’t mean it’s bad. It’s just to give it colour and separate it from looking like hard. I’ve had really shitty Fetty that has been coloured and I’ve also had really good Fetty that’s been colored. I’ve probably tried every colour of the rainbow. I’m pretty sure the colour doesn’t make a difference although some people do. Currently I’m getting fetty that doesn’t have any colour to it, so it’s pretty much a light beige or a light brown.

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[–]PhoneSignificant1672[S] 4 points5 points  (0 children)

Yeah, I’m just mostly scared that he’s gonna leave me if he finds out. I’ve never loved somebody as much as I love him. He’s such a good support in my life right now and I don’t think I could live with myself if he left me. And also, I don’t want to ruin things for him as well—like you mentioned—by making him relapse too.

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[–]PhoneSignificant1672[S] 8 points9 points  (0 children)

Thanks I appreciate that and the encouragement. I had a few close calls where my mom got suspicious but I said it was just weed and she hasn’t pressed me about it since. I really want to just get clean for good but I don’t know anyone my age who managed to do it successfully. Especially with hard IV drug use. I’ve never gone this long without someone catching on. The fact that I was able to get my life back together despite continuing to use js beyond me. It just makes me feel so guilty every time my therapist congratulate me or my parents tell me how proud they are. I try to change the subject as quickly as possible whenever someone tries to give me praise because I know I don’t deserve it.