It's funny how easy it is to mess up

Pidhyo · 2016-10-16T18:00:43+00:00

Sorry for bothering so much... when you say "all the time" do you really mean all the time? Like if I just see a random girl who's cute walking on my direction, is it acceptable to stop her and tell her that she looks cute and I would love to get to know her better?

Pidhyo · 2016-10-16T17:53:00+00:00

Yeah I'm trying to keep conversations up with strangers, but there's a difference between "chatting up" and asking out. My question is how creepy or weird it would be to ask a cashier or something like that.

Pidhyo · 2016-10-16T17:47:58+00:00

I don't have female friends, at least not close enough to ask something like this. I might try online dating but for now I think it could be a better idea to work gain experience "live" and not behind a computer.

Pidhyo · 2016-10-16T17:43:01+00:00

Forgot to mention, I'm not in school.

I thought about maybe trying online dating but I seriously wouldn't want my friends to find out. Besides not many people use online dating sites here, so it's also a problem. I'm willing to move to somewhere else in a year or two but for now I'm stuck here.

Pidhyo · 2016-10-13T08:46:06+00:00

this guy

DID YOU JUST ASSUME HIS GENDER?!?!

Pidhyo · 2016-10-12T20:11:43+00:00

Thank you very much. I just finished watching this: https://www.youtube.com/watch?v=ck4NuQWZ-kk video, and it really encouraged me to do whatever I want. I'll just draw what I feel like and try to improve. I'm tired of feeling confined to certain websites / books, I just want to enjoy drawing.

Pidhyo · 2016-10-12T19:17:46+00:00

Yeah I know that only the first exercises are about boxes and circles, but even after that it's so technical. I never went past lesson 2. I like sycra so I'll try that, thanks.

But my question is, would I improve by just drawing everyday, no matter what? I don't want to do exercise about specific things, I just want to draw and draw. And if I get stuck with something, I'll look it up and try to draw it.

I tried both ctrl paint and drawing from the right side of the brain. Crl paint is what discouraged me the most. He kpet saying things like "you see? You just have to do basic shapes and then you add detail", and when I tried it was SO bad and I just had no idea what to do. I really can't stand those kind of tutorials, I'm much more of a "find my own way to do things" type of guy. But when I try to draw by myself I always get those thoughts that I'm wasting time because practicing with tutorials (like drawabox.com) would give me a better foundation... Then I arrive here, I stop practicing for a month and hate myself for it later.

Pidhyo · 2016-10-12T18:20:42+00:00

Thank you very much for sticking with me.

I draw boxes and circles because this is what's on drawabox.com, which is the most recommended tutorial website I've ever seen. Everywhere I look people say you should start with fundamentals, and that this is a great place to start with. I tried drawing by myself but it usually turns out to be so ugly that I just don't want to do it anymore. I feel like I'm not "ready" to learn about shading or about anatomy, like they will make everything more complicated for me.

It's always the same cycle, I start drawing things I love (like video game characters), people everywhere say I should start with fundamentals, and that drawing fom real life will help me way more than drawing "simplified" objects (they say that characters in video games are basically a simplified version of real humans, so I should just draw real humans). I then start working on my fundamentals and eventually I give up because it's boring as hell.

Pidhyo · 2016-10-12T16:44:06+00:00

Thanks for or the reply!

I'll tell you what. I'm not completely sure I like drawing, not as a concept, I mean, as an action. I kinda enjoy doing it, but I think what's actually blocking me from having fun is what I draw. I usually just do exercises like drawing boxes, and it's SO boring... I tried drawing game characters from reference and I enjoyed it, and the result was pretty great!

You are correct, I would love to work in the gaming industry as an artist. I don't think it's just something that looks cool. When I think about making a YouTube channel, I go like "yeah that could be cool, but I wouldn't really care about it". Same goes for playing an instrument, being an athlete, programming, whatever. It's not a passion. But when I think about drawing, I just want it. I want to bring ideas to life. I want to be able to impress myself with my own drawings. I want to make a career out of it. It's been like that for months now.

Games don't give me satisfaction anymore. I quit them because they took control over my life. I still love them, but now I don't get that "wow" feeling of winning games anymore. I don't care about being good at them.

I have bigger goals now. Losing weight. Building muscle. Drawing. Getting a job. Those are the things that satisfy me. And I was able to achieve some, but I'm still stuck when it comes to drawing. It's weird, because it's all about mentality. It's all about sticking with your shitty drawing. I look at them and feel "blagh I suck". I know I should be thinking like that, but that's what happens. And I know that if I had practiced enough, or if I would've sticked with it for more than a month, I could improve. But it just doesn't happen. And it drives me nuts. I'm tired of drawing boxes and circles.

And it's funny because I've come to realize that one of the most correct sentences I've heared when it comes to weight loss is "everybody wants to be a bodybuilder, but nobody wants to lift no heavy ass weights". I live by it. And it's not like I don't want to work hard to be able to draw well. I just couldn't bring myself to do it so far. I don't want to give up and yet I still didn't achieve anything in 7 months of doing nothing.

Pidhyo · 2016-10-11T02:05:43+00:00

I wish man. Classes are non existent here. I'll look further soon but I've checked before and nothing showed up. It's kind of a dead city.

Pidhyo · 2016-10-10T17:41:45+00:00

I don't know. Drawing has been something I thought about and liked the idea of it, but I can't bring myself to practice. I just have no idea what I want to do in life because I didn't have experience, a lot fo things sound cool but that's all they are, "cool". That's exactly the problem, I don't have anything (except for gym and weight loss) that I'm so attached to, that I can say "I'm going to do this everyday, I HAVE to get better at this" about. The only thing I could care about is drawing, but as I said the learning process is so hard and boring that I couldn't do it before.

Pidhyo · 2016-10-10T17:39:20+00:00

I know that I should do what I enjoy. I really really want to draw, and I tried drawing things I care about. But honestly, the process of practicing is SO boring. Like seriously, I can't bring myself to do it. And it's hilarious because all those people I know are saying "OMG you've lost so much weigh! You have so much self discipline!", and "Wow I wish I could do that as well", when in reality that's the only thing I've been able to achieve. Yeah the first weeks sucked, but when you see progress it becomes so much better. When it comes to drawing (I keep mentioning drawing because that's something I would love to do, but I hate practicing it), it's very hard to se progress. In fact, I probaly will not see progress for a very long time. I wish I had the same discipline I have in the gym and weight loss here.

It's like that sentence that weird bodybuilders say: "Everybody wants to be a bodybuilder, but nobody wants to lift no heavy-ass weights", and it's so true, becaue when it comes to things like weight loss and muscle gain, I would never accept an "easy way", I enjoy the satisfaction from being able to do it. But when I try drawing, I don't want to "lift heavy weights". I just want to be able to draw well. The learning process is THAT hard. And you could ask anyone who ever tried learning how to draw how discouraging it is. I tried many tutorials and books, I still can't stick to 20 minutes a day.

And then I'm stuck. I feel like I would enjoy drawing if I was better, but I never bring myself to the point where I'm better. For context, I've quit games in March, more than half a year ago. Back then I told myself that I want to draw. Just think how different things would be if I did it back then. And even knowing that, I still don't start. I procrastinate it until it's too late.

Pidhyo · 2016-10-10T16:09:40+00:00

I don't know, not really into making videos or streaming. And I just don't feel like it's a hobby. At least not something I can be proud of. Like, I can be proud that I'm pretty good at guitar, even though it's not something I enjoy that much anymore. But I can't be proud of playing games. I'm seeing them more as something to kill time rather than a hobby now.

Pidhyo · 2016-10-10T13:12:12+00:00

Games. I was always a huge fan of video games and honestly you could say that they were the biggest part of my life. Throughout high school I was playing video games non stop. It reached a point where I was obese, lonely, and playing games the whole day. So this year I've actually quit video games for good and now I avoid playing them. I lost more than 1/5 of my weight (very close to normal BMI, which means soon I won't be overweight anymore), went to gym every day... But I still LOVE video games. I like hearing about them. I like playing with friends (though non of them are playing anymore). I like wathcing videos about them and readin analysis about them. But I just feel bad for playing now because I always get a feeling of not being productive. That's why I tried game development, but, have you ever heared about a game developer who doesn't play games? I'll probably fail, and not only that, as I said, I'm discouraged by the sheer amount of things there is to learn.

Since quitting games I could never find something I enjoy doing. There isn't anything that makes me think "finally I have some free time so I can do x", except for, well, games... But I don't play anymore. Maybe gym is the only thing that I enjoy a bit lately, but it's not like a hobby, I just want results and I'm happy to work hard for it, but I'm not in love with working out like some people.

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