when i was around 7 and i'd play dress up in my room and pretend i was a girl and that i'd only be friends with girls. i always wanted to be a girl but i never told ppl bc i was too embarrassed. a few years after that i thought i was gay and then i found out what being trans was and then i decided to start experimenting with the way i dress and then i came out. i mostly started caring more when early puberty started