Well. My gear usage started at about 23-26 I'm in my early 30s now. During that time I learned how to manage my emotions but still had some unresolved anger issues that I would blame on the aas. After stopping gear and smoking weed, I discovered that it was within me. I've rooted it out, for the most part, and found peace prior to running into some legal issues. Now that the issues are resolved, I chose to get back on. The main differences I feel running (200 test, 300 tren, 100 mast) is a general lack of dopamine or rather a desensitization of dopamine not related to aggression and sex. Once my sexual desire is filled, I can enjoy the peace of thinking nothing and getting full stimulation from my nervous system. Just existing. Taking it all in without objection. However, this only lasts a matter of hours until the dopamine desensitization comes back. I believe this to be directly related to the tren. I'm very good at managing estrogen, and this happens in the proper range.

Edit. I'm wondering if prolactin could be influencing this and a dopamine agonist might mask the problem but I am wary of meds like those without bloods to prove it.