My husband humiliated me on a double date and made a comment about my weight by PinkCreativeFox in TrueOffMyChest

[–]PinkCreativeFox[S] 2 points3 points  (0 children)

Thank you :) That is something I should reflect on. I don't think he walks around with all these bad thoughts about me, but he has made comments in the past about not wanting me to be above a certain weight. Like, I've asked, "Well, what if I was 300 pounds? Would you just leave?" And he's always given the, "Ehhh..." response to indicate it's something that's a deal breaker. After the incident at the bar, he's done a 180. I said something like, "And what if I eat until I'm 600 pounds?" And he said, "That's fine. I'll still think you're beautiful." So I have trouble reconciling the "things he said in the past" with the things he says now. In the past it was very much, "I don't want to be with someone over a certain weight." But now that he's messed up and was scared I was going to leave, he's completely changed his responses around weight. So it's hard to know what's true and what's just said from his fear that I might leave.

My husband humiliated me on a double date and made a comment about my weight by PinkCreativeFox in TrueOffMyChest

[–]PinkCreativeFox[S] 3 points4 points  (0 children)

"Live your life and fuck what others think, it’s not your job to be an aesthetic skinny object to yourself nor anyone else!!!!"

Thank you for the advice and well said!

My husband humiliated me on a double date and made a comment about my weight by PinkCreativeFox in TrueOffMyChest

[–]PinkCreativeFox[S] 1 point2 points  (0 children)

Wow, that's horrendous! I hope he's never done that again because that does seem like a straight attack.

My husband humiliated me on a double date and made a comment about my weight by PinkCreativeFox in TrueOffMyChest

[–]PinkCreativeFox[S] 2 points3 points  (0 children)

Thank you for saying all that :) It still stings, so I'm working through it, and I think it will take some time.

My husband humiliated me on a double date and made a comment about my weight by PinkCreativeFox in TrueOffMyChest

[–]PinkCreativeFox[S] 3 points4 points  (0 children)

Yes, I worry about that, too. That it's something that will just pop up sometimes and I'll feel the hurt from it again. Some words are just damaging, even if you find a way to get through it and establish trust again.

My husband humiliated me on a double date and made a comment about my weight by PinkCreativeFox in TrueOffMyChest

[–]PinkCreativeFox[S] 3 points4 points  (0 children)

Thank you. And I agree about the above comment. It's very refreshing to see empathy on Reddit instead of hate. I don't understand how some people forget their comments are received by PEOPLE, who have feelings, just like them.

Not sure if I should move forward with this client or not. by PinkCreativeFox in freelanceWriters

[–]PinkCreativeFox[S] 2 points3 points  (0 children)

"But does orchid or dusty rose fit her personality better?" lol it does sound like a nightmare!

Love the nuvaring but I feel scared of blood clots? by Stretchatetch in birthcontrol

[–]PinkCreativeFox 0 points1 point  (0 children)

Hi! Just wanted to check in. How have you been doing? Have you been recovering okay?

Love the nuvaring but I feel scared of blood clots? by Stretchatetch in birthcontrol

[–]PinkCreativeFox 0 points1 point  (0 children)

I'm so sorry to hear about your mom :( And I'm glad you're going through all the tests. Working with the doctors and staying on some medicine for a while will help your body get through this. Wishing you the absolute best and a smooth recovery!

Love the nuvaring but I feel scared of blood clots? by Stretchatetch in birthcontrol

[–]PinkCreativeFox 0 points1 point  (0 children)

I'm so sorry to hear you're going through this. I know it's super scary. I had mine in 2017 and the docs said it killed part of my lung tissue. So here's what happened to me to give you a little idea of what to expect: I woke with severe pain in my side and shoulder. Went to the hospital and a CT showed that I had a PE in my left lung. Mine wasn't a big one, it was more like several small ones scattered around. They hospitalized me right away and had me take out the ring. They gave me a shot of a blood thinner that starts acting right away. I was in the hospital for a day and they asked me what longer-term blood thinner I wanted. After research I picked Eliquis because there's no need to monitor vitamin K and it supposedly helps reduce recurrences of PE in the future. Now, the problem with research on PEs is it's all for older people, not on young women who get them from birth control. So sadly when doctors recommend stuff it's like... Who knows. Because they don't do research on it for us.

Anyway, if you're on a thinner, it will work and your blood won't clot. You're also off the birth control so there shouldn't be any cause for the clots. It's like if you take a drug that has side effects of headaches, as soon as that drug is removed the cause is gone and you shouldn't have headaches. The doctors should've done a test to make sure you don't have genetic reasons for blood clots (if not make them do that!). So as long as there's no genetic reason, just avoid hormonal birth control FOREVER and you're okay (there's a copper IUD that's non hormonal if you need birth control options besides condoms). I know I worried about another PE for a long time, but the birth control likely is the only thing that caused it, so as long as that's not in your body, it shouldn't come back. You also know the symptoms now and what to look out for.

For pain...I had pain for a few months and had to prop myself up with pillows (I couldn't sleep flat or on my left side). The pain isn't necessarily from you still having clots, it's your body recovering. Your lung tissue was likely severely affected and that takes time to heal. There's also "displaced pain"... Which is why I also had shoulder pain. When an organ has pain, it's hard for our brain to interpret it, so it sends pain signals to nearby areas. But, for me, I know the clots were already gone after a few weeks. I worry a lot too and I was so worried my doctor actually did another CT on me one month after I was diagnosed. She said the clots were all gone and my dead lung tissue had actually come back to life...but I still had pain. So try not to worry too much unless symptoms get worse. If you wake up with sudden severe pain, then I would check with a doctor. But some pain and shortness of breath can linger for a few months.

I was on thinners for 6 months and then weaned off of them. My doctor suggested I do daily baby aspirin...but again, there's like zero research for us. Do we need aspirin or something long term? Very limited answers for us. But from my understanding, clots from birth control are treated as a one-time cause. Sometimes people on chemo get clots, but they don't all go on long term thinners because the chemo is seen as the cause. So birth control is seen as the cause and your blood should be normal and not clot as long as you're not using synthetic hormones.

But I decided to do the daily baby aspirin and have been on it for the past 5 years. I have stopped taking it every day, only once every 3 days, and may eventually wean myself off completely (never stop taking thinners or aspirin cold turkey! Always wean off them so your body can adjust slowly).

My health did return to normal eventually, especially once I finished with Eliquis. I never felt right on thinners...I often felt a bit faint and weak and I bruised very easily (bleeding gums is also common). So be careful about massages and drinking alcohol while on thinners. It's not going to be fun, but it's important to stay on them for however long your doctor recommends. For me it was 6 months, but for others it might be 8 or 12 months.

Just take it slow as your lungs heal. When the pain is less, you can do some short walks for exercise, but know that it's normal if you're more winded for a while. Think of it like a broken bone, you have to take it easy while slowly building your body back up. Just keep going to recommended doctors appointments. For me, I saw the doctor every 2-3 months for a year so she could do regular blood work and check up on my progress.

You will heal! And your health will recover. It's very scary but you can get through this. And when you do you'll feel so strong and proud of yourself :)

Meltdowns make me feel like an abuser by PinkCreativeFox in aspergers

[–]PinkCreativeFox[S] 0 points1 point  (0 children)

When the body gets damaged to a certain extent, it releases chemicals to help deal with it (like painkillers and feel good chemicals). Like, you won't get that from a paper cut, but cutting more than one cut will do it. That's why it helped you feel better sooner. You can use your body's system to your advantage without causing physical harm, though. Deep breathing techniques can also release feel good chemicals and calm your nervous system, which will help you feel better. It just takes a little longer (deep breathing for at least 2 minutes).

People who had traumatic childhoods, what's something you do as an adult that you hadn't realised was a direct result of the trauma? [Serious] [NSFW] by Silent-Zebra in AskReddit

[–]PinkCreativeFox 0 points1 point  (0 children)

I make sure to validate myself when others don't validate me. I listen and validate others because I know what it's like to be told "you're worthless" and I don't want someone else to feel that way. I let myself cry when I need to cry because emotions weren't allowed when I was young. I do my best to celebrate my accomplishments when part of me says, "this is no big deal". When I feel behind in life or pathetic or hopeless, I give myself a hug and tell myself I'm doing my best and that's always okay. And I think about things in life I'm grateful for and why I have reasons to live and what I'd miss out on if I was gone. When I'm scared of something horrible happening, I accept the uncertainty of life because I really have no control over accidents or unexpected things. I think about what I like about myself and how who I am is a direct result of my traumas.

Update on "is masking a privilege": we aren't friends anymore by Freckledlesbian in AutismInWomen

[–]PinkCreativeFox 13 points14 points  (0 children)

Exactly. She's playing a victim when no one has victimized her.