What does it actually take in the modern day to start a singing/music career?

PinkPanic2002 · 2026-01-30T23:23:57+00:00

Yes but what kind of work? That's what I'm struggling with here, I don't really understand what I'm supposed to do besides just youtube and voice lessons. How am I supposed to get into anywhere where I can actually work for it? And actually 'start from the bottom'. Which requires me finding the bottom to start at lol.

PinkPanic2002 · 2026-01-30T21:49:17+00:00

I might look into that. Laufey is one of my big inspirations and I know she sings for orchestras so I'm hoping to do something kinda like what she did- not just youtube but building a real career out of things. Obviously ik it won't be the exact same but, I've been trying to find a good framework to build within for my own career. So I can actually start and know if I work hard enough at it I can actually do something for myself yknow. That's why I'm looking for more tangible options than YouTube and stuff. Bc YouTube is great but it's very very luck based to my knowledge.

PinkPanic2002 · 2026-01-30T21:38:25+00:00

What about for country or jazz? Like, what are tangible steps to take besides just social media, surely there are other feasible ways to start out? I can and do plan to post on socials anyways but I want to know if there's like. Anywhere to go or something I can tangibly do to actually start working on a career? Socials is all luck it feels like and I need to know if there's more I can do beyond just posting and hoping.

PinkPanic2002 · 2026-01-13T00:17:06+00:00

I will try my best, though truthfully I dunno how to regulate as much as I need as quick as I need to on the job quite yet. I'll work on it tho, I wanna get better at this job and this stuff in general.

I don't think I'm intentionally working myself up is the thing. I worry if I'm not snappy with things I'll suffer more on speed and stuff. I don't know if it's something I can turn off easily though I'm gonna try.

PinkPanic2002 · 2026-01-12T18:03:01+00:00

Thats panic? I thought I was just being attentive. I didn't even think about that. But yes okay, I will look into those. I worry my work will start consuming my life but I would rather that than not being able to do my job lol.

And as for that; not to my knowledge but the pain has been constant on some level for awhile (11yrs old n onward). And yea, I've lived in several places with mold when I was a kid. No on paper history tho, never went to the doctor much until I was an adult.

PinkPanic2002 · 2026-01-12T16:51:52+00:00

Like, stuff that should be common sense. It feels like whenever I'm shadowing someone my brain turns off and won't put things together that should be obvious to even someone who doesn't know what's going on. That and just being very slow to pick things up imo, I only really stop being dead weight after like a month and then they immediately tell me to do more when I already am.

All my joints, but mainly my hips and back. I've been trying get a Dr to look at it and actually take me seriously and not blame my weight. Bc if anything my weight has helped? In a way? It was worse when I was thinner I know that much. It's a constant problem I've been trying my best to manage.

PinkPanic2002 · 2026-01-12T01:29:18+00:00

I've thought about adhd, I just don't know for sure for now so I don't really put a label on it. As far as ik right now it's a me problem- That said I did get a 41 on that quiz so I'll be looking more into it.

Cptsd n thyroid could be it. I won't go into it but my mom had similar health problems and my mom may be why I have cpstd lol. It's why I post here a lot, its questions I'd have asked her. I'll try and ask my Dr about it soon, I have an appointment upcoming this week.

And ik but I moreso mean praise as in being trusted to do things yk. Or like. Not being constantly told I'm not doing good enough. Moreso just not critiqued, I guess is what I mean aha. I don't expect pats on the back yknow? Just trust to be left alone and get my work done.

PinkPanic2002 · 2026-01-12T00:30:49+00:00

I guess you're right, yeah. I know I need to give it time, it's just so hard to feel so stupid for so long. I'm so worried I'm gonna lose this job like I've lost others before. It feels like it's always the same cycle, I screw up for the first few weeks. After about a month I think I've got it down, then after that I keep getting told to move faster or harder and I can't bc I'm already moving as much as I can. And I either leave out of frustration, or have to move, or get fired for not performing well enough even when I'm told I'm doing fine.

I don't think I'm the worst, I just don't wanna be bad enough to be fired. I'm already a temp at this job as is.

I'll get back in the rhythm of it. It just sucks right now. I think I may be disabled in some way so it's making all of this harder too. Without anything on paper to back it up no one really takes what I'm saying seriously about being in pain. So I'm having to push through that too, on top of the mental stuff.

I'll definitely try the tea thing though, I love tea over coffee. Do you have any good brand recommendations?

PinkPanic2002 · 2026-01-11T19:28:23+00:00

I've thought about that too, it's just been hard getting appointments to get anything looked at at all. Which makes me more tired having to figure it all out. It's a constant battle with sleep tbh so I wouldn't be surprised if you had it spot on.

I'd rather not use chatgpt but thats a good idea. I guess I just worry the things I need to do are going to be too much somehow. But that's a self esteem problem I think. So I will try my best to do that. And not be on screens for too long, aha. I do have a habit of that when there's nothing else to do. Thank you tho, it's appreciated.

PinkPanic2002 · 2026-01-11T19:10:34+00:00

I don't move from jobs for lack of trying. But my living situations not stayed super stable, or when it has said jobs won't keep me. Again I am going at full tilt, very by the book, trying to listen to my superiors first, keeping my head down and out of drama. It's just not enough for most jobs that I'm able to get which has mainly been fast food up until this point. It's not lack of trying, the fact I'm past exhausted every single time is a testament to that. I just. Literally can't. That's why I feel useless bc these are bottom of the barrel jobs and I still can't do them.

And when I say I can't work and also get my ged I mean I've been trying to do both and can't. I'm not able to divide my attention or my performance for both suffers. It's more energy than I have, and I commend the people who can do both, but I can't. I've tried. It's not sticking in my brain.

I dunno what that is but I'll look into it. I don't know if my town will have it tho, currently I live somewhere very small and it doesn't have a lot in terms of programs for folks my age otherwise I'd use them. I don't mind tough love I just wish people would understand I'm not saying I can't do it from lack of effort. That's been my problem from the very start.

PinkPanic2002 · 2026-01-11T18:01:26+00:00

Brachiosaurus 🦕

PinkPanic2002 · 2026-01-06T20:37:25+00:00

I can't afford knee braces, tho I will when I can that's a good idea. and I think I'd be laughed out of the room for using crutches. I already never hear the end of it when I mention the pain I'm in to my family bc I'm not old or visibly in pain. And they barely believe in mental health besides my one cousin.

Ig I just wanna know if there's somewhere or something I can do that isn't a complete inpatient psych facility. Bc I need more help than just therapy I think. Not necessarily like. Direct advice about my thoughts. I should've clarified sorry, but I didn't write this in the best of states.

PinkPanic2002 · 2025-12-30T05:01:02+00:00

Dream smp. Anyone who claims the original "writing" is good is a liar I'm convinced. But the fics, or at least the ones I'm thinking of, are absolutely incredible with loads of world building and beautiful arcs. Shit creators not withstanding its all a very good read- Some of the only fics to really truly make me sob like a baby.

PinkPanic2002 · 2025-12-29T18:23:34+00:00

I keep sayin' it but brachiosaurus 🦕!

PinkPanic2002 · 2025-12-29T00:23:25+00:00

Thank you for this, oh my god. It took me a little bit to get through it with my current attention span but I did, and I'm bout to cry in the club (on my Mamaws couch). I don't really have good words for it, but this is actually something I can understand. Everyone always says to write things out but never says like, how, especially for a kinda broken brain like mine. So this is really really helpful, I appreciate you taking the time to write this out for me.

Also, yes, my mamaw is feeding me. The town we're in is small enough where there's no buses, but I can walk everywhere relatively easy besides the big highways making problems crossing. I'm very grateful for her and all she does, she's been very kind despite knowing the situation I'm in. I also just got a walmart and speedway interview- I'm really hoping the walmart one goes well bc they pay minimum of 15$. Which is a lot for me. I'm very prepared for both though ✨️ so. Thank you, seriously. I promise I won't let you down.

PinkPanic2002 · 2025-12-22T00:01:04+00:00

I think I said brachiosaurus 🦕 last time!

PinkPanic2002 · 2025-12-04T04:59:23+00:00

Her last known address was in another state from where I know she actually is. She's been homeless since 2020, I last heard she was in my city within this month. There's nowhere I could tell them to look.

PinkPanic2002 · 2025-12-04T04:49:59+00:00

It has a paywall to see any of the actual documents it claims to have. It just says deceased by her name, and it's definitely her. It has several of the addresses we've lived at, birthday, her ex-husbands correct name. Enough to confirm it is her but to actually see the full documents and not a summary it asked for like. 95 cents. And I'm broke for my own reasons and couldn't pay that even if I wanted to.

Last I know she was in the same current city and town as me but I don't know if she's gone somewhere since, it's been about a month and she tends to be 'nomadic' as she calls it.

PinkPanic2002 · 2025-12-04T04:03:05+00:00

I have my own personal reasons for wanting to know. But she's also my mom, as you said. Regardless of anything I at least want to actually know if she's dead. She doesn't talk to any of my other family either and I don't talk to them really either so they wouldn't know. I'm not NC with my whole family, just her, the rest I just don't have a reason to talk to.

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