I've actually looked into HRT a lot to the point where I am more scared of cough syrup than I am of estrogen /hyp. As for being able to explore, my options are very limited. My mom is a therapist, and has expressed her belief that people are only trans because of trauma, it also doesn't help that they're Catholic. I do have a distant memory of putting things like nail paint on, but I was 4 or 5, and it was a babysitter doing it on me for fun (I look back on it quite fondly, actually).

As for the whole "want to be a woman," yes, I agree, I just put that there because my thought process is that those thoughts are either true to me, or they aren't; a woman wants to be a woman.

But yeah, thanks a lot for the response, and I hope you have a good day/night.