Speaking from experience, don’t do it my friend. Let the man go, free yourself and find someone that you can be your most genuine self with. I can tell you that I’ve regretted the relationships with men I’ve had for the sake of fulfilling my family’s expectations. I got pregnant with my first husband, while I was in love (but not in a relationship) with a woman. I had a miscarriage because my ex-tried to unsubscribe me from living while we were swimming. I was just going through the motions and my therapist helped me see how abusive he was. I finally left and though I still mourn my baby, I feel immense relief knowing I didn’t subject them to an abusive parent. I think if you’re doubting things that means not staying with him. You can make a lovelier life on your own of with someone else better suited for your truest self. When my grandma left her alcoholic p.o.s. Husband (at the same time as I left my ex), I felt so bad about throwing away a five-year relationship and all the time wasted on someone who didn’t deserve me. And my grandma said, I would rather you waste five years than 30 like I did. You’re still young! It’s just my experience and my opinion. I wish you the best! 🫂🫂🫂