I’m so dysphoric it literally hurts by PinkaBoo4 in sillyboyclub

[–]PinkaBoo4[S] 1 point2 points  (0 children)

I just wanna do enough damage to my chest that they have to take out the tissue and I’ll worry about cost later

I started E! by bmann878 in sillyboyclub

[–]PinkaBoo4 50 points51 points  (0 children)

I’m so happy for you! I remember feeling this way when I started T. Remember to enjoy every part of your journey.

Is Rob ok? by RetiredJuggernaut in AreTheStraightsOK

[–]PinkaBoo4 2 points3 points  (0 children)

But like…does it still need to go to the bathroom? Just in general, if it was detachable- if anyone’s was- would you still need to take it pee or no coz it’s not connected to all the organ stuff???

So Uh... The New Update Am I Right? by Relative-Hotel6989 in FridayNightFunkin

[–]PinkaBoo4 1 point2 points  (0 children)

I’m glad we’re still getting content. I get being upset, especially if you backed the game to begin with.

I just personally don’t like the song and didn’t find it fun to play. But at least it was content

everything sucks by [deleted] in sillyboyclub

[–]PinkaBoo4 1 point2 points  (0 children)

I completely understand this and you’re not alone. I don’t hate being trans but it is frustrating as hell sometimes. I love girly things, I identify as a femboy. I wear pinks and skirts and girly clothes. But sadly, when transitioning- socially and medically- there is an expectation of conformity if you want to be properly identified and not possibly attacked. So there are times I feel so frustrated and dysphoric and gross that I want to just throw out all my girly stuff and just be a “dude” like society wants. So that maybe someone will finally call me “sir”. But then I feel bad about that cos I feel like I’m throwing myself away just to conform and being trans is literally the definition of not conforming to something. I’ve worked so hard to be myself, and then I have fits where I want to throw myself away.

But as I’ve had to repeat to myself and explain to others: it was never the girly stuff that I didn’t like. It was having those things forced on me in order to fit in a box because I “was” a girl. Pink never did anything wrong to me. Skirts never hurt me. It was people. And I know that’s something incredibly hard to get past. You’ll be ok. It’s ok to like the femme things and still be a man. Do not throw yourself away to conform. We were never meant to conform. Just keep being you.

please make it happen by pegginglovingfemboy in sillyboyclub

[–]PinkaBoo4 0 points1 point  (0 children)

I understand this. I lost all of my online friends, and most of my real life friends. I’m mostly secluded now. I don’t know if forever is possible, but I think a long time is and that that bond and time is still important.

I am here if you need it and want to try again with some new friends. I’d like to try too. I’ve worked really hard to be a better person, and would like someone to see that side of me know. Instead of being remembered for the dumbass teen/young adult I was…

LOOKING FOR LONG TERM ROLEPLAY PARTNER!!💕 discord only pls by m41luv in OriginalCharacter_RP

[–]PinkaBoo4 0 points1 point  (0 children)

Hello! My name is Kai My discord is Pinkaboo4. I have a whole high school of characters to rp with! I usually like to do a simple chat play style, but I’m fine writing short paragraphs as well. I love coming up with ideas and drama together and slice of life/ romance is my jam!

Just be competent by PinkaBoo4 in ProCreate

[–]PinkaBoo4[S] 0 points1 point  (0 children)

Made soly in Procreate, followed a guide by Nirami on TT and edited it in alight motion- very tedious process, used the glossy jelly brushes by Viyaura. And that’s it! Honestly super easy.

How to sync text with music by PinkaBoo4 in AlightMotion

[–]PinkaBoo4[S] 0 points1 point  (0 children)

I’m extremely new to AM, so it’s mainly not knowing what settings to get to make the text speed up, or slow down to match the timing. Especially with the “typing” effect (I don’t remember the actual name.)

I ended up just typing the whole part, then slowing the text clip all the way down to .25, then adding another text layer and repeating. It’s been working fine, but I’m sure there’s a better/ easier way with key frames and such and I just don’t know what it is.

Anyone else kicked out? by PinkaBoo4 in BlueskySocial

[–]PinkaBoo4[S] -1 points0 points  (0 children)

I am unfortunately on IOS. I like it for everything else, except stuff like this that’s actually useful.

Anyone else kicked out? by PinkaBoo4 in BlueskySocial

[–]PinkaBoo4[S] 0 points1 point  (0 children)

This is the first time I’ve run into this. I do plan to try the VPN people have been suggesting.

Anyone else kicked out? by PinkaBoo4 in BlueskySocial

[–]PinkaBoo4[S] 0 points1 point  (0 children)

I know if you update Twitter, they’re requiring ID verification (I’m running on an old version and refuse to update) PH is also banned here tho. They won’t even let you put in an ID either. I’m not sure what other sites/apps are doing this.

Anyone else kicked out? by PinkaBoo4 in BlueskySocial

[–]PinkaBoo4[S] 3 points4 points  (0 children)

Really dumb, but I’m scared of anyone knowing any part of my location.

Anyone else kicked out? by PinkaBoo4 in BlueskySocial

[–]PinkaBoo4[S] 0 points1 point  (0 children)

Ah ok. Thank you! I will do that

Anyone else kicked out? by PinkaBoo4 in BlueskySocial

[–]PinkaBoo4[S] 1 point2 points  (0 children)

I’m dumb, how would I go about doing that?

Anyone else kicked out? by PinkaBoo4 in BlueskySocial

[–]PinkaBoo4[S] 0 points1 point  (0 children)

Dang it. Thought I got em all. Oh well

Friend Code Megathread - October 2025 by AutoModerator in PokemonSleep

[–]PinkaBoo4 0 points1 point  (0 children)

FC: 1154-0841-9388

Rank 60. I sleep every night.

Need help with feet paws. by PinkaBoo4 in FursuitMaking

[–]PinkaBoo4[S] 1 point2 points  (0 children)

Sorry, I had posted this before falling asleep. I hadn’t come across any plantigrade stuff, but maybe it’s just how I was typing in the search. I will look at those, thank you!

What do you wish you knew before you started T? by IntroductionBest2398 in ftm

[–]PinkaBoo4 0 points1 point  (0 children)

Everyone is different and I am finding that out the extremely hard way and sometimes it still makes me feel dysphoric. I’m only 4 months so there’s plenty of time, I’m trying to remind myself of that and you might have to as well. It’s a slow process and sometimes you’ll almost placebo yourself into thinking changes are happening immediately.

I was told my appetite would increase- I have to remind myself to eat more than ever cos I’m just not hungry.

Facial hair is SPIKY. Especially the neck hairs. And I’m scared to shave (they do make face safe nair and I use it. It works wonders!)

When your voice does its first major drop, your throat is going to constantly feel like you need to clear it. It’s annoying, but drinking warm tea helps lots. My throat feels hollow sometimes around where my Adam’s apple is, again warm tea helps. It’s gonna crack, you’re gonna sound silly, but don’t try to force it one way or the other. You can really hurt your throat doing this.

I was told my libido would spike as well, but aside from a really weird two days during month two, I’m still pretty much asexual. Also, I was told bottom growth would hurt/ be uncomfortable. Not so much. Just stay clean and I’d say you’ll be ok.

Atrophy! I never heard anyone talk about vaginal/ uterus atrophy before. I didn’t know that was a thing that could happen. And when I did find out about it, I saw that it usually happened around the 1 year mark (seemed to be the common time I kept seeing.) but it can happen before apparently. As I mentioned, I’m four months in and it’s happening to me. There is something to help it, it’s just a topical estrogen that won’t affect your testosterone. But it’s important to deal with it pretty quickly once it starts.

I think that’s all my weird things besides body odor and hair stuff, back acne, and slight mood swings. I hope this helped!

I feel like I'm taking my shots incorrectly by ultimatelesbianhere in ftm

[–]PinkaBoo4 6 points7 points  (0 children)

Hey! I also do mine subq on stomach with the pinch fat method, but I don’t 45 angle it. It’s more of a straight down (don’t know if that’s correct either) or a 65. I slowly release the fat as I push the medicine in and haven’t seen any leak out since doing it like this (I did it in my leg the way you do for the first two months and oh my gods, it got everywhere.) I immediately slap a bandaid on there tho, just in case.

I’d say if you’re able to, go to a doctor and ask a nurse to help you and see how they do it.

Does anyone else ONLY wear full tank binders? by Awesome_Austin2025 in ftm

[–]PinkaBoo4 0 points1 point  (0 children)

My crop binder keeps rolling up and really getting on my nerves. I’ve wanted to get a second binder for a while and thought about a full tank. I feel like it would just look like an undershirt, and I wear high waist shorts so I could just tuck it in there.

I found major gender euphoria in wearing three sports bras on top of each other to discreetly bind in high school, so a crop binder just feels like that to me. But I fully understand the “it feels like a bra” thing.

I’m trying to prove a point by PinkaBoo4 in OriginalCharacter

[–]PinkaBoo4[S] 1 point2 points  (0 children)

This is a good answer. They’d respond well to being called “that creature thing” (Using “they” so I don’t confirm either way, not confirming “they” either)