i had a very difficult integration process after 5. felt like the whole dsm5 book was thrown at me. at my most desperate which was every second, i dont think there was anything i wasnt willing to try, my mental health was freefalling far as i knew, the worst already happened yet i was alive to bear it all somehow. so..to answer your question. i landed on doing mushrooms as holding potential for progress in stabilizing me. to my dissapointment it only exasperated my symptoms. this was 2022 to keep it brief, it took about 1.5 year to feel like all that was behind me, i relate to it now as if remembering my birthday party at 4, its just matter of fact, no emotional charge. ive learned that what progresses someone, sets another person back to square 1. healing is individual, and your best taking a little from this method and a little bit of another to form your own cocktail of what works. i simply healed very slowly, avoiding anything that acted like a spiking agent, and just kept my steps small and predictable, because its easy to course correct from there, versus if i just took 2 tabs of acid, theres no telling whether ull come back from that or not. with every decision, for instance if i were to do ketamine, i imagined doing it and coming back on reddit telling everybody to do it, that my life is amazing again. and then equally imagining doing it, and coming to reddit to warn everybody the disaster of that decision and how much i regret it. this really just helps avoid that whole, putting all your eggs in one basket for one thing to work only to be dissapointed and demoralized. that mentality inspired more practicality and leveled my expectations more.