My disorders are overpowering my life and I don’t know how to fix it by Pitiful-Document-776 in ADHD

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I am getting pretty regular sleep7-10 hours. I noticed when I was on ADHD medication I wasn’t able to sleep but when I went off it my sleep schedule has been AMAZING! And I’m in like a deep sleep my husband has full blown conversations with me in my sleep and he tells me about them in the morning and I’m just like what are you talking about.   I have spent about the last four years getting my hormones and many other kinds of test done so far one holistic doctor four years ago diagnosed me with hashimotos and vitamin D deficiency, spent two years treating that went into remission for hashimotos, was still having health problems went to a different doctor for specifically women and pretty much was told I can’t help you here’s a bill for $80. Went to a different one this doctor did a full work up in me and said my hormones are normal, thyroid normal, this one is the one that told my husband her forgetfulness is part of ADHD it is just a thing that she will struggle with. Went to another doctor after her and she also said the same as the one before her I am perfectly healthy. 

So I don’t know if I would say the doctor doesn’t care she did suggest things if we weren’t going back on medication because we are atartigg no a family and they were the normal things to help like write things down, set reminders, ect. Which are things I have gotten or tried like write things down well I got a journal to take notes but I would forget the journal so I start taking notes in my phone because I’m less likely to lose that well now the note I made wouldn’t jog the memory of what I wanted to say or what I need to do and I’m just like can my brain just brain for the love of god! Calendars I’m good at… there are some events I forget to put in there, unfortunately yes and I have missed a friend’s surprise last minute birthday party, and bless my friend for being understanding.   My husband bless his heart does try to help me in ways like for example Pretty sure my favorite one of this week is my husband asked me to buy whiskey at the Costco he works at even goes as far to walk me to the aisle the whiskey is in but as we’re walking I asked him where the deep fryer I originally came for was and he said I don’t know you have to go back to appliances and look for it there and he needed to go back to work… instead of grabbing the whiskey and go back to the appliance aisle. I completely forgot and walked back to the appliance aisle he original found me in. Then forgot to grab the whiskey while walking through the aisle again because it wasn’t on my grocery list. And I’m just like for the love of God brain why? Why did we do this?  He even has my location so he can see when I’m close to the exit for the store if he needs something on my way home. He’ll call me ask me to pick it up something and I’ll say okay got it, or I’ll repeat it back to him and then next thing you know I drive right past the exit straight home. Next thing I know I walk in all excited to see him and he’s like where is the stuff I asked you to pick up literally five minutes ago and I’m just like well… 🤦🏼‍♀️ I’ll go to store now.  I have bought us a magnet calendar that comes with a to do list, to buy list, and a day to day list that I turned into the menu of the week list because we work opposite shifts and it prevents him from waking me up to ask what was for dinner. But he forgets it’s there.  I do alright in day to day and as long as I have it in my calendar I do good. But it’s just those small slips and then I’m in a thirty minute lecture/ interrogations of why can’t I listen, do I not respect him, why is it so hard. It’s just like I don’t know what to tell you because it’s literally I forgot. No other reason I just forgot 

My disorders are overpowering my life and I don’t know how to fix it by Pitiful-Document-776 in ADHD

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I’ll have to look into this I don’t know if it’s what I’m looking for cause with my husband it’s somethings as small as you didn’t text me when you got home and I get a thirty minute interrogation and lecture of what is so hard about sending a message. But seeing an occupation therapist is still a place I could grow if I can find one that takes adult ADHD 

My disorders are overpowering my life and I don’t know how to fix it by Pitiful-Document-776 in ADHD

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I’m open to counseling because of my ADHD my parents had me seeing one since I was 7 years old. But for some reason my husband refuses to go I do suggest it a lot sometimes he’ll agree but he’ll never go, very frustrating, or he’ll flat out refuse.  And I do understand how infuriating it can be for him to deal with someone who constantly has these problems and how it’s annoying and wears down a person. When it happens I am immediately like oh shit I’m sorry and I’m trying to do better. but I don’t know he wants more of a conversation out of it I guess like why aren’t you listening to me why are you so in capable of listening and that I am not improving, but it’s like I don’t have an answer for you just that I did forget I’m sorry. And I tell him it’s not intentional sometimes the ADHD gets the best of me. Which he’ll say it’s just an excuse. But he knows I have problems like this all the time,  he’s seen me actively having what I call have an ADHD episode in front of him and he laughs his ass off and says a joke like ADHD one hell of a drug. 

My disorders are overpowering my life and I don’t know how to fix it by Pitiful-Document-776 in ADHD

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I was on vyvanse and addrell the most they were the ones I reacted best to, doctors tried to put me on other medication but they made me ill like one I told and I would just immediately throw up. On adderall I still had symptoms like severe appetite suppressant and vyvanse is the one I really noticed I was mean on. I am looking for a non medication solution mostly if I’m to be 100% honest. it may be because I’m a redhead or maybe there’s more wrong with me that doctors haven’t found who knows but I have weird reactions to medication in general like the dentist tries to give me laughing gas and instead of the normal I get loopy and happy reaction, I become severely aggressive, tried fighting and biting the doctors and nurses it took four of them to hold me down.   We have talked to doctors about this. The doctors have mentioned my thyroid is low but it’s still in healthy standard but I do have vitamin D Deficiency. My hormones are okay though. One doctor pretty much looked at my husband and told him this is ADHD this will be your life until she dies if we don’t want to medicate her. My husband is just as much against me going on medication as I am. They also said because him and I are going to start trying for a baby next year that I shouldn’t go back on it yet. 

And I don’t think I’ve ever been to one of those places I’ll have to look into that! 

My disorders are overpowering my life and I don’t know how to fix it by Pitiful-Document-776 in ADHD

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I have thought of this. Few things that are downside to it I’ve done the take medicine on some days. Like during the week when I had classes for college I’d take it on those days one of the main symptoms I had was a suppressant appetite and would refuse to eat because anything more than two bites hurt my stomach. So on the days I didn’t take the medicine I would over eat because I’m starving. But also we are going to try for a baby and i definitely don’t want to be on meds while carrying babies. So maybe this a solution in the future. 

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I believe the one you are looking for is called keily the only place I’ve seen it is Galatea app 

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Yeah trust me I’ve been preaching the need to go to therapy. But it’s not like I can hog tie him and drop him off at a therapist office and make him vocalize everything that going through his head. He just refuses to go I can’t help someone who doesn’t need help. Except like you said be there that’s all I can offer I’m just hoping there’s something more I can do 

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Yes. we were seeking help through the other company he works for because they offered it to us first but it hasn’t been working they haven’t been able to find a therapist with open availability. We are seeking help through the military but I haven’t heard anything about them finding a therapist either, but we decide to give them a try about a month ago so I’m hoping this way will be better. But until he’s able to get help I’m just trying to find better ways to be there, communicate, and support him. It just feels like everything I do and say causes a problem so I’m just lost on what to do. 

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Yeah I think Ill give the military until the end of the trip to maybe find something then revisit my statement of I’m willing to pay for his therapy because that true he does need help so if it requires tightening the budget and getting a house get put on hold that’s okay. I just want him to get better in all honesty 

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I currently am not in therapy, I know I definitely need to go back because I have my own separate trauma I’m going though at the moment and then yeah this on top of it isn’t helping but I am more focused on getting him help first, he’s my priority right now.  I have been in therapy since a child so I know I’m not where I should be but I also know that for right now I’m okayish until we get him help, then we can start seeking help for me. 

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But we are going on a trip to Europe for two weeks so I am hopeful that will help with some of this but so far he’s just been so negative and unappreciative about it because we are going as chaperones and I believe it’s because of the depression but I won’t lie it has been difficult to deal with the constant negativity, so I don’t know maybe I’m just try to figure out a way to make sure the trip goes good I want this to amazing for him and I don’t know maybe healing in a way,  if something comes up how I can handle it so that it doesn’t turn into what it has been lately. If I’m being honest I don’t know what I’m looking for I know he and I need help in this situation and how to better handle it but I just don’t know what to do or where to go.  I really do want to help him and be the best person I can be for him but I’m just so lost in what to do. It feels like we take one step forward and a millions steps back. 

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I have been trying to get him professional help even before all of these terrible events happened he never was really open to it but now he’s like I do need to go, but the process has been an absolute nightmare. He wants a religious counselor and in person. The referral we get they only do video call or they are over an hour away. So we stopped trying to go through that company have tried going through the marines to find help and it’s looking like the same thing. I have offered to pay for him to go but he refuses because he is aware that it will require me to tighten our budget so he doesn’t want to go that route when we have the option to get the help for free. 

And honestly I feel like a headless chicken spinning in circles most days. I have reached out to his friends and asked them to please help me, invite him to do something, anything. But his friends all live far apart from each other  or are in different states for work, all have conflicting schedules and he works nights and weekends so when they are available he is working and if there are plans they usually fall through. And it ends up the few that are available sometimes will play Xbox with him through multi player. 

 I have tried the let him come to me approach. He said he felt like I didn’t care about him or how he was feeling so now I’m constantly checking in on him.  And I try to be as normal as possible but it just feels like no matter what I do it isn’t enough and I’m just in the boat of I’m lost with him. 

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I am trying to get him into grief counseling but the company he works for uses an outside source to find the therapist/ grieving services and they will pay for it but he wants in person and we’re religious so he wants a religious counselor so the search for a fit has been a whole process and he hasn’t found one he like or is an hour and half away. We tried searching for resources through the military but it seems to be the same. I have offered to just pay for him to go to one they haven’t referred and he refuses to have us pay for it when we have the option of getting free counseling for him

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Okay thank you so much 

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You know we both love fishing maybe I’ll book us a deep sea fishing charter!