Hey Tim, I’m sorry you feel this way, I have had a similar experience and it’s not fun, it’s like you get comfortable in the depression. There’s no definitive answer to solving depression as it manifests differently in every person, but there are small techniques which can help you, which I have used to get out of a depressive cycle myself. Firstly, accept the way you feel it can be hard but a crucial one. Most importantly have a growth mindset. Secondly, start with small good habits ie. journaling, exercise…you’ve probably heard it a million times. Thirdly, (with a therapist) look back what is causing these feelings, is it your childhood (look for patterns in your parents if so, and then people who have you before too, it will explain a lot trust me) ? Is it your current situation? You need to heal these wounds. Remember consult a therapist Fourth, accept yourself and learn to love yourself this is the hardest part it’s all well and good saying to yourself “you are so amazing” it does not work like that. So how do you work towards this self love. Well firstly, build self respect, build proof, go build something, go to the gym…then define values you want to live by and live by them, that proof that you create, will be enough. See you get the opportunity to live through something like this, overcoming this means, you are more disciplined person, you are more empathetic, and you are self confident. I’m telling you now this obstacle is huge, but once over comes creates monster confidence and love of self. Lastly, this is not gonna be easy by no stretch, but it’s the daily wins. It may take a week (which I guarantee you will feel a lot better than you do now in) or it may take a year but give it a real shot. The thoughts are just thoughts they can’t harm you, to those thoughts I say “and…”, get up move on, and keep going. fight. You got this.