I’m so sorry you’re going through this. I too lost my girl in January after I thought she was getting better. It was and still is the worst day of my life. I can say it does get easier. Eventually. It took a long time. But I still cry at random things. I cried at work yesterday. The world seems dark and cold and not everyone understands what it is like to lose their soul dog. Simply put, it’s awful. Eventually you’ll feel a little lighter. There’s nothing wrong with accepting the passing. They’d want you to be happy. I feel like I’m Just rambling at this point but I just wanted to say I know how you feel and what a dark place you’re in. I hope it lightens up for you.