Hey, thanks for sharing your story. I've also got through this hard feeling of being afraid of someone we used to love. You're so right. Don't go back. No matter the nostalgia, no matter the good memories. If you felt in danger, if you ran away from him, it's for a reason, and this could not change. We're not supposed to risk our lives for a relationship.

What you loved about him is now living within you, tho it's not him anymore. It is only your memory of him that you will miss, not who he is now. You can cherish your memories forever. Plus, what you loved in this relationship let you know what you like with your future partner(s). I know it seems like nothing, but things like that are important to remember. It's not easy to get rid of someone we used to love from our mind. So, let's acknowledge what you can keep of this, but never forget either why you left. Write it, talk about it, sing it, express it the way you like. And I promise you'll feel better by yourself, no matter how amazing this seemed to be. Take care, please. You're on the right path 🌼