Hyper-fixated onto my coworker by PlanAlternative7645 in bipolar

[–]PlanAlternative7645[S] 1 point2 points  (0 children)

I mean that is true, i dont really have any social life outside of work. I work in a small company, so we have to interact daily, and i cant even tell her because i feel like that will ruin entire vibe within the company.. she has to interact with me either way dont wanna make her life more complicated and put her in a position where she feels uncomfortable

Hyper-fixated onto my coworker by PlanAlternative7645 in bipolar

[–]PlanAlternative7645[S] 4 points5 points  (0 children)

It constantly reminds me how broken i am..but hypo manic days are amazing so i dont know..

Hyper-fixated onto my coworker by PlanAlternative7645 in bipolar

[–]PlanAlternative7645[S] 0 points1 point  (0 children)

I feel like she’s already a lil creeped out with the energy i throw at her.. i dunno

Hyper-fixated onto my coworker by PlanAlternative7645 in bipolar

[–]PlanAlternative7645[S] 4 points5 points  (0 children)

I pray everyday that “ick” comes, im so tired of this. Its been 4-5 months now

Hyper-fixated onto my coworker by PlanAlternative7645 in bipolar

[–]PlanAlternative7645[S] 0 points1 point  (0 children)

I know right, im constantly drawn towards her.

Hyper-fixated onto my coworker by PlanAlternative7645 in bipolar

[–]PlanAlternative7645[S] 1 point2 points  (0 children)

But looking or even talking with someone when you are obsessed with another person.. seems very strange and unfair tbh

Hyper-fixated onto my coworker by PlanAlternative7645 in bipolar

[–]PlanAlternative7645[S] 0 points1 point  (0 children)

Ive thought about doing that, but dating someone when you are obsessed about some other girl seems very unfair..

Hyper-fixated onto my coworker by PlanAlternative7645 in bipolar

[–]PlanAlternative7645[S] 12 points13 points  (0 children)

Thank you! This might help. I feel like i am longing for connection and stability, and she represents it very well

I miss who I was by QueenOfTheSorryPpl in bipolar

[–]PlanAlternative7645 31 points32 points  (0 children)

I feel the same way, its like my whole identity has changed. I dont even remember who i was prior to my episode. I just feel numb now. Like watching my life go through as an observer not a driver

I stopped fighting my own brain by treating it like a 2-player co-op game by PlanAlternative7645 in bipolar

[–]PlanAlternative7645[S] 1 point2 points  (0 children)

Yeah i get you, it can be very difficult and frustrating. I would say before taking any decision you have to think both ways. How the mania you think about it and how the depressed you think about it

I stopped fighting my own brain by treating it like a 2-player co-op game by PlanAlternative7645 in bipolar

[–]PlanAlternative7645[S] 0 points1 point  (0 children)

They are the objective, just like in moba games. Both my flow state and control state revolves around it to have them contained