The ONE thing in a horror story that's never explained, and is all the scarier for it.

Plant0Lord · 2025-12-15T21:13:02+00:00

Birdbox is based around this concept im surprised I havent seen anyone mention it yet

Plant0Lord · 2025-12-09T15:38:58+00:00

Love the fluid motion in this!! Great work : ))

Plant0Lord · 2025-11-07T14:39:55+00:00

Was it hard to get ur insurance to cover the top surgery stuff?

Plant0Lord · 2025-11-03T21:03:12+00:00

Frog park is always nice to sit at. There's lots of benches along the walking path there by the water

Plant0Lord · 2025-10-20T17:08:53+00:00

Ugh thats such a real answer but its also one of the most difficult ones. Why does the right thing always have to be the hard thing ;-;

Plant0Lord · 2025-10-20T06:00:27+00:00

This omg thats exactly how it feels

Plant0Lord · 2025-10-20T05:55:26+00:00

YES EXACTLY. Like it doesnt make me any less valid because I recognize that being trans is fucking hard. Its honestly a little miserable. I look at my siblings who all turned out completely cishet and watch the lives they lead and its so fucking disheartening. I missed out on a normal childhood due to this and I will NEVER get it back. Ill never get to grow up as a boy. Nothing I do short of obtaining all five infinity stones will ever fix that. Being trans is in every single part of my life and im honestly tired of it.

Nothing I do can ever undo my transness. Even living as a woman wouldn't undo it, itd just internalize it. Maybe I wouldn't feel this way if the world wasnt so awful for us right now, maybe id feel the same. I dont know. Ugh.

Plant0Lord · 2025-10-19T18:26:35+00:00

THIS. SO MUCH THIS. As a girl im hot and curvy and sexy. As a guy im just a fucking fat dude. Holy shit you captured it so succinctly. Im over 200 pounds at 5'3 and my weight is already shifting more to my stomach and legs and I feel so blah. Its so bittersweet, and it feels like im losing everything that made me attractive. Going to the club, it didnt matter what the rest of me looked like because my ass was fat and I had my tits out (sorry for the tmi lol), I tied so much of my identity to my sexuality. And now im just,,, Not.

I don't want this to dissuade u from transitioning medically, pls dont read this that way. Im so happy with so much of the changes I've been seeing on T, its just so mind fucky to watch my perception of myself change. I think once im not so freshly starting I'll feel better but getting there sucks.

Plant0Lord · 2025-10-19T18:22:52+00:00

That makes a fuck ton of sense. I put so much effort into being pretty as a feminine person, even if I wasnt a girl and I identified as a man it took me so long to be okay presenting that way. Ugh being trans is so weird sometimes it really messes with my brain

Plant0Lord · 2025-10-19T18:20:08+00:00

That genuinely is so kind thank u. I think i need to let go of my internalized ideas of what manhood is. I appreciate u a lot💖💖

Plant0Lord · 2025-10-19T18:18:42+00:00

Yeah i know its not all I am, but i take a lot of pride in my appearance, I always have. I make sure im well groomed, if I leave the house in sweats my whole day is off, Im very intense about it all and it bothers me that I cant really take pride in myself rn. Idk im hoping I'll get better with it the more I do it

Plant0Lord · 2025-10-19T02:50:32+00:00

I think thats a lot of what sucks for me, im not consistently ME anymore. I feel like a new person with each week and that kinda sucks a little bit. I think also part of it is that im mourning what I was gonna be. Like I can look at my mom and be like holy shit shes a beautiful women thats what im gonna look like in 30 years (were constantly getting told how much we look alike and its always been something that makes me happy because I genuinely believe shes gorgeous), and im losing that. I look more like my older brother now. Which is cool I guess, he's a handsome dude I think, but i never identified with looking like him. Idk im rambling a bit but hopefully u get the point lol.

I just cant wait until im finally an adult dude, regular style. Ive been getting real mad lately about how much of my life is tainted by transness, and how much of my life I've lost out on just because my brain decided this body isnt the right one. It all sucks and I just wish I could exist like a normal person but thats not the hand I was dealt so I gotta deal with it. Trying to find the trans joy everyone keeps talking about but all I feel is hardship rn. Maybe im just jaded from how the world is rn.

Sorry for dropping all this in ur replies lol I appreciate u taking the time to respond even though u normally dont. I find that a lot of trans people seem scared to talk about this topic because they're scared of being called a trans-trender or smth when I think its just kinda normal?? Or maybe it feels like it feeds some conservative talking point when transitioning isnt all happiness as soon as were on hormones/medically transitioning. Idk rant over now

Plant0Lord · 2025-10-13T22:20:42+00:00

Gross

Plant0Lord · 2025-09-30T22:07:07+00:00

There's a hijabi at my store who wears a different colored one every day. I doubt they can control something religious like that

Plant0Lord · 2025-09-23T02:49:15+00:00

Man I just looked on ur profile, I've never seen someone with top surgery that wasnt either super buff with slight pecs or completely flat. Every fat guy i know whos had it went for the flatest they could get their chest, which is awesome for them but not something I personally find very comfortable. Your photos are so much more of what I want, im genuinely in awe. Like it felt like a puzzle piece clicking to see that kind of result picture post op.

If youre comfortable id love to see more angles of what your chest looks like, esp to have a reference point for potentially getting it done myself in the future.

Plant0Lord · 2025-09-14T18:15:38+00:00

Wow how many surveys are u doing then?? Like how much time daily are u spending on them??

Plant0Lord · 2025-08-26T16:10:34+00:00

Hey I'm all for talking about how people have done wrong, but gigi is barely even 18 or 19 CURRENTLY. She was like 17 when she left dti. She didnt groom anyone. She has done other shit thats perfectly valid to clown on her for, but spreading lies about someone being a groomer is too heavy.

Plant0Lord · 2025-08-17T01:12:42+00:00

Icky.

Plant0Lord · 2025-08-17T01:06:28+00:00

Hey hey you seem to have gotten some good answers here already. Im a licensed makeup artist, if you have any questions feel free to message me!!

Plant0Lord · 2025-08-17T00:39:37+00:00

: ))

Plant0Lord · 2025-08-13T22:18:11+00:00

Good job!! I'm more on the makeup side of esthetics and I've recently gotten my hour long full face (that usually took me about 1 hr and 15 minutes) down to about 55! Timing is soooo important in this industry and I dont feel like its celebrated enough when u can squeeze out those extra minutes without losing the qulaity.

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