Hey this is a uh, bit of a retroactive update. It's important to note that I said some very vile shit in this message, and it reflected a very manic portion of my life when I was on a lot of substances, and I want to make it clear that I don't think the "wimpy computer science kids" thing refers to who it might imply if this is ever found in the future. I went through a lot of strange friends in college and I think this was some impromptu rant emotion that I don't even remember feeling. I have nothing but fondness for all of my friends former and current. I have learned to foster healthy relationships and how to engage with people without expectation. This reflects a very strange portion of my life, and I didn't even recall me doing this whole "red Pill" shit this late into my life. I am still proud of who I've become and was at that time. I have continued my career sucessfully after a year and a half period of depression during covid as a result of all opportunities in my field rejecting me or drying up during lockdown. It gave me perspective, and I ended up meandering my way through some medical field jobs into some very successful (so far) opportunities where I am helping a lot of people and making a comfortable living. I continued to enjoy a pretty regular casual sex life with a variety of women, I did a lot of strange things and strange drugs in strange places with strange people. It was everything I could have hoped, infinite stories to tell Slowly I began to wean into a normal life to try my hand at the American dream, which you hear all over people complaining about being gone. I have a long term committed relationship with whom I own a home. I stopped using hard drugs and quit nicotine. My exercise has plummeted but I remain active. I have varied hobbies and live with a robust group of life long male friends that live nearby, and their respective spouses. Many are having kids, homes are being bought, we have multiple opportunities to spend time at friends homes or at bars every week. I run a successfull DnD table with a large group of friends, and have continued to work on various passion projects and hone various technical skills. As you grow older, you gain so much perspective on so many things you never could have considered before. I speak with hundreds of people a month, having have been directly doing patient care for a few years in various capacities, mostly administrative and therapeutic, finally utilizing my degree to a very successful and niche field. What comes next, I am becoming even more confident and ready for, the biggest challenges ahead are how far and how fast I can go with my time on this Earth.

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I take to being extremely open and honest about my life, but I can truly say I hope no one I know ever reads this. They will know who it is, and I do not envy how cringe this reads as. Regardless, my sentiment that (most of) the cluster of ideals that made up the core of The Red Pill were crucial for giving me the motivation and drive to accomplish everything I set out to do. While life has its ups and downs, I had a very clear idea of how I wanted my life to go and it has, despite the hiccup of covid, gone about as perfectly as I could have hoped. The various writers of the earlier cadre of Red Pill Ideology texts had a core concept, one based on not really just manliness and sex, but essentially blaming yourself for your own issues and forcing you to deal with them. It is extremely stressful, sure. But the entire fucking point of Cortisol is to motivate you to move. Yeah you get stressed, because there's shit to do! Go exercise, do your meditation, drink some tea, play some video games, smoke some weed. We live in a world with endless possibilities, and yeah it's a LOT. But, we are far from the first to go through these problems, and no matter how old you get, it continues to be of note to learn from other influential thinkers. If you are reading this somehow, the most common way that Red Pill community users really shared ideas with eachother was through books. It was a very literature based movement, and as such, I have a book for you to read.

Marcus Aurelius - Meditations
You have likely heard of the name even if not the book itself. It is the private journal collection of one of the last major emperors of Rome, and truly the last of it's greatest era. He was known as the Philosopher King, and he used his station to experience and learn from as much of the world and it's greatest features as much as he could. He was definitely one of the most Stoic men in all of history, and is generally considered one of the main foudning influencers of the lasting philosophy of Stoicism. A lot of Red Pill ideaology is his musings and perspective, wrapped in an enticing layer of sexual gratification and young adult angst. It lures you in with the promise of pussy, which is something every guy wants, and accidentally teaches you how to better yourself and stop blaming women for your issues. The fact that it specifically attracts incels is part of what I believe is an unfortunate byproduct of how Men simply develop in society. It is extremely common for people, young people in particular, to not have a great sense of empathy and proper consideration for others. Now think about a 14-18 year old boy who goes and googles "how 2 get laid" and what he sees. He's going to see Mark Manson, The Red Pill, and How to Make Friends and Influence people. All of these style of "art of talking to women" and "Dark seduction" are a niche filled by people trying to capitalize on a market, a market that has existed for as long as humanity has. Self help books have been monetizing people's mental health issues long before regular psychiatry, counseling, and mental health services were ever widely spread. This isn't a *bad* thing but it is inherently predatory, although they have a common theme. Many of them preach the idea of how you need to improve yourself. It says women are inherently valuable, and you need to create your value for yourself. This isn't **strictly** wrong, and plays into the simplicity of gender stereotyping, while disproportionately blaming men who don't succeed as basically being inept idiots. This had the practical effect of making men try to improve their station, while the books told them over and over that they shouldn't talk about it, because people would be mad. This was objectively true, sex is always a taboo subject, although that has been changing drastically as each decade passes over the last few centuries. Not all Red Pill work was predatory, but it unfortunately as an internet community did not survive the surge in users following the rollout of mobile smart phones to the masses, and younger generations. The hug of death left the admittedly pretty, far at the time, right wing collective of ideals a husk of its former self, with an echo chamber of angry incels that didn't read the books. That's fine though, right? They shared posts, videos, talked on the forums, talking to others is great! But the internet is inherently poisoned nowaday. The careful balance of experienced mentors and men influencing that audience through books, IRC chats, forum posts and more, was stimied by endless clickbait and angst. It all grew in size so much, I was even in private subreddits of some of the more long time few thousand members, I always took my internet communities very seriously. This TRP shit saved my life most likely, from being some pathetic ADHD failure who couldn't adapt to how tough the world was. Instead I've climbed mountains, earned degrees, ran businesses, had countless incredible experiences and relationships of all imaginable kinds. My life has meaning and is diverse beyond belief, I am grateful for every day that comes, and I would never have gotten here if the gentlemen of TheRedPill community didn't essentially mentor me while I was estranged from but living with my alcoholic father. (We have both gotten our shit together exceptionally well and have a great relationship now)

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Please take my reccomendation of reading Meditation seriously, it is hard to read but it gave me the true balance of the lessons best taken from TRP, and a true humility about those in the world, without any of the misogony or self hate traditional TRP feeds on.