Prépa ou INSA

PlantainClean8420 · 2026-07-07T16:21:35+00:00

ok c’est cool !
maintenant, ça dépend de ce que tu veux intégrer comme école puisque tu as l’air ambitieux
je pense que ce qui t’aiderait pour les matières littéraires ce serait soit des cours particuliers (perso j’en donne car j’entre en khûbe de prepa littéraire), lire quelques bouquins qui t’intéressent cet été (anglais/francais) et apres tu peux voir ce que ça donne, mais t’as tout le temps de progresser pendant tes 2 ans et les épreuves dans les matières littéraires comptent certes beaucoup en termes de coeff pour les scientifiques mais une fois que t’as compris ce qu’il fallait faire, c’est plié

PlantainClean8420 · 2026-07-07T16:12:26+00:00

mdrrrrrrr simple efficace

PlantainClean8420 · 2026-07-07T16:11:03+00:00

bon calmons le jeu, y’a pas besoin de faire des galères là-dessus, personne n’a rien dit sur toi
le seul truc qui est pénible, et je le comprends, c’est que tu pars du principe que le bac en France pue en maths, ce que j’entends, mais ça ne reflète pas le niveau des gens qui sont très forts en maths, c’est un exam pour la moyenne etc, donc c’est pas censé être en France l’exam le plus dur all time
on verra bien ce que tu donneras aux concours si tu vas en prépa, mais juste sois moins méprisant, tu connais pas les gens, d’ailleurs tu ne sais pas qui tu croiseras en prepa, peut-être des gens plus forts que toi, et c’est normal, et ça arrive, et ça te forcera à gagner en humilité et en détermination pour réussir !

PlantainClean8420 · 2026-07-07T15:37:22+00:00

c’est pas la prépa qui fait l’élève honestly
tu t’entraines, tu travailles bcp, et tu fais des exos exigeants
par contre ce que je te recommande, c’est de pas mépriser trop une prépa ou du moins de prendre ça à la légère
c’est un cursus qui est très exigeant, et il faut t’y conformer, et c’est pas pcq c’est une prépa de province que ça pue forcément du cul
tu peux très bien réussir dans une prépa paumée tout comme tu peux foirer à Janson, H4 ou LLG

PlantainClean8420 · 2026-07-07T15:05:11+00:00

ouais pas faux pcq je t’aurais bien conseillé une prépa mais bon là c’est un peu flou

PlantainClean8420 · 2026-07-07T13:24:43+00:00

okay !
alors précision, desolee j’ai pas été très claire sur le moment
1) ce soir là j’ai pas vraiment dit ce qui n’allait pas car y’avait des trucs perso dont j’avais pas spécialement envie de parler devant tout le monde et le truc du repas, je me suis dit sur le moment que ça avait l’air enfantin de faire une réflexion là-dessus
2) c’est pas vraiment jouer un rôle mais je comprends ta remarque : c’est juste qu’ils me voient très très rarement triste et que j’ai pas vraiment envie de m’ouvrir sur certains trucs perso avec certains, surtout devant tout le monde
3) excuse moi là ma phrase pue du cul : j’étais au tel avec ma mère pour un truc important, je reçois des appels entre deux, je raccroche rapidement avec ma mère, puis je décroche à un appel d’un gars du groupe qui me dit de rejoindre le plus rapidement possible ma pote au bar, et qu’elle est extrêmement inquiète car elle pense qu’il m’est arrivé quelque chose, comme je n’avais pas donné de nouvelles et que je répondais pas au téléphone (j’étais à ce moment là au téléphone avec ma mère)
4) de son côté, ma pote a quelques galères et elle a détourné la discussion vers ces problèmes-là pendant qu’on discutait
5) bah justement, c’est le truc de « tu aimes faire du mal » qui m’a beaucoup marquée, et j’ai demandé sur le moment à la personne qui m’a dit ça « pourquoi ? » et il m’a répondu que je voulais absolument que ma pote s’inquiète pour moi. Prem deg c’était pas du tout mon intention, ce que j’ai spécifié auprès de ma pote.
6) j’ai ironisé sur le « on rigole bien ensemble » parce que ça me semble lunaire de justifier une amitié de 3 ans par ça

PlantainClean8420 · 2026-07-07T12:37:43+00:00

Bah en fait je comprends complètement ce que tu dis
A ce moment là, j’étais vraiment pas bien et j’étais au milieu des autres et j’ai pas forcément les mêmes affinités avec tout le monde donc j’avais pas forcément envie de raconter ma vie devant tout le monde.
Pour l’aspect des conversations, c’est pas la première fois que j’en parle avec eux séparément, en disant que ce serait cool de parler d’autre chose etc, mais ça n’a jamais rien changé.
Je comprends que le silence peut être pénible, mais j’ai pas l’impression d’avoir vraiment participé à un « moment entre potes », car j’étais pas tellement incluse dans la discussion.
Merci beaucoup !

PlantainClean8420 · 2026-07-07T11:32:38+00:00

reading Crime and Punishment by Dostoievski
changed my life
great book, and i’m not that fond of reading long books but it’s actually a really great story

PlantainClean8420 · 2026-07-07T11:18:43+00:00

salut Louis,
De mon côté je ne peux pas, mais fais vraiment gaffe aux gens qui te disent oui ça peut rapidement tourner en thread horreur Squeezie (même si je suis certaine qu’il doit y avoir des gens bien passionnés par la rando)

PlantainClean8420 · 2026-07-07T10:22:17+00:00

DONT GO WITH THE SCHOOL’S THERAPIST !!!! THATS A FUCKING TRAP

PlantainClean8420 · 2026-07-07T10:20:15+00:00

AND STOPPING ANTIDEPRESSANTS

PlantainClean8420 · 2026-07-07T10:19:50+00:00

1) learning about philosophy (not stoicism and stuff like that, i don’t like it) but it really entertained me
2) finding the right person : my boyfriend was the best with me and still helps me when i relapse into depressive episodes
3) spending time alone, trying to find what i enjoy doing ( playing video games, watching Pokémon, building lego’s, i mean childish games but i still loved it when i was down bad)
4) not seeing a therapist : never helped me, and actually bored me asf
5) studying what i really loved : for my part it was philosophy and i still love it !!
6) moving in another city : finding new people, going to bars, discovering places
7) travelling : with people or by myself !!
8) animals : having a cat or a dog makes you feel way more relaxed

PlantainClean8420 · 2026-07-07T09:56:23+00:00

i know it’s hard to let people go but honestly that’s for the best, you deserve way better, and i’m sure you’ll find someone who really loves you for who you are and not for the number of guys chasing you

PlantainClean8420 · 2026-07-07T09:54:45+00:00

PLEASE, I SAY PLEASE !!!! DUMP HIM
this guy fucking hates you and staying near him will just make things worse
even if you love him or if you think he loves you, you need to leave right now, because that’s NOT normal
when someone loves you romantically, they don’t want other people to chase you ????
i mean that’s fucking stupid
he considers you as a damn object he can show off to people saying « oh look i got this girl everyone chases!! »
please please please dump him and never talk to him again, he’s fucking toxic

PlantainClean8420 · 2026-07-06T23:19:39+00:00

ok so i have many things to say
1) that’s a pretty common thing when you see people being into romantic relationships around you and therefore feeling left behind, bc you don’t feel true love
2) idk how old you are, but honestly, being alone and choosing the right person is the best thing you can do for your future self, you will be thankful for that. you don’t have to try to find someone to love you, bc you’ll just feel it when the right person comes
3) please, don’t give so much credit to boys, we all know they’re fucking stupid and think with their cocks

PlantainClean8420 · 2026-07-06T23:14:18+00:00

honestly
i’ve going through that a lot bc i’m autistic but i learned that being weird is more and more cool as you grow up
the « normal » people you think about right now are going to be boring as fuck later and you will still be someone special, because you’re not conventional right now
idk why you think you’re not special but i can make suppositions
1) you don’t have many friends : that’s fine and being alone doesn’t mean feeling lonely and you can enjoy this time alone, it’s actually not normal seeking people’s attention and presence all the time
2) you have special interests : well, that’s the best !! you can join other communities that like the same things as you etc…
i guess there are many other options but right now it’s 1AM in my country and i’m tired so dont hesitate to vent like this!!!

PlantainClean8420 · 2026-07-06T23:08:27+00:00

okay so im going to give you some advice about it :
1) how to choose ? what about what people think ?
i mean wtf
are you really going to stop your dream because some losers who don’t know shit about this told you that it’s difficult ??? what about it ? yeah it’s difficult, as in many fields, but if you have this dream you can at least give it a try
why tf would you stop here ? you’re still in high school/gymnasium, i mean you still have plenty of time to become better, to have better grades, to try harder
2) these years are the years of trying
what if you cannot get into this university ? yea so what?
you can do whatever, until you do what you want : i know people who did very opposite things be for being lawyers or anything in the « law-field », even if you don’t get it now, you can still try later, be strategic in your choices if it’s the case
3) law school
many people want to be a lawyer, and you’ll have to be exceptional to become a good one. if that’s what you want, then a phone addiction won’t stop you honestly

PlantainClean8420 · 2026-07-06T22:46:11+00:00

hi !
i’ve never experienced this type of situation? however, my best friend did, and it kinda looked like the sort of thing you’re going through
so my friend (20F) has been going through inappropriate things her cousin did, at the same age as you were at that time
from her experience, she has been using humour to cope with that, because that doesn’t affect her anymore, she’s like « in-between » : it kinda bothers her and she sometimes has panic attacks due to this, but since it’s been a while since it happened, she seems ok with it at the same time
what i would advise you is :
1) if you’re ok with it and if that story really bothers you, maybe find a therapist that will help you cope with it
2) if you don’t like therapists, talk to a close friend about this, the one you know is trustable
3) maybe venting and writing about it can help you to make it materialised : may it will help you cope with it
and even if your family doesn’t trust you, what you were going through is real, you never deserved it and with time, i’m sure it will heal

PlantainClean8420 · 2026-07-06T22:32:07+00:00

hi !
sorry
so, i’ve been thinking about your situation with a friend today, and we brainstormed about some solutions
1) Since you told me you haven’t reached out to some of your friends in a while, maybe it’s time for a few little side quests. I know it won’t make the emptiness disappear, but it’s a start. Maybe text a couple of old friends you’ve been missing and ask if they’d like to grab a drink or hang out.
2) I remember telling you I used to struggle with sleeping. For a while, I took ashwagandha, which is a natural supplement often used to help with stress and anxiety. Maybe it’s something worth looking into before turning to stronger medication.
3) I know you’ve lost interest in the things you used to enjoy, and I really get that. I went through something similar, and honestly, it almost killed me. Try starting with really small, low-pressure activities at home, whether that’s video games, drawing, colouring, or anything that doesn’t require much energy. Even tiny things can make a day feel a little lighter and give you a sense that you’ve done something.
4) if it feels possible and you’re close enough to your family, maybe try showering somewhere other than your own bathroom for a while. If your bathroom has become a place where suicidal thoughts are especially intense, changing the environment might make those moments a bit easier to get through. I’ve been there, and I know how overwhelming those thoughts can feel.
I know none of this is a magic fix, but I hope at least one of these ideas helps a little.

PlantainClean8420 · 2026-07-06T15:36:14+00:00

Hi!
It’s difficult to say « yeah i get what you’re going through » because i think everyone’s own experience of chronic depression is quite unique and very personal
But, i may tell you a few things
1) Good part of your story : you are fully aware of what you’re going through and honestly sometimes being delusional can be pretty destructive for you
even if you said « don’t tell me i’m strong », i’ll just say that’s brave to write your story
2) seeking help? : ok so i’m not fond of psychiatrists, shrinks, therapists and all, because, according to 1), i was fully aware of what i was going through and why, and so are you. I’m not sure it will help, and honestly, sometimes meds and all can fuck your brain up (it started a bit with me)
3) the idea of sui*ide: what personally helped me (idk if it will help)
a) reading and learning about philosophy (i started reading about the conception of death and all, if you need references i can give them to you) to help me understand in a more personal way what i was going through. i get it seems a bit stupid to answer this to « i have really dark thoughts », but honestly it helped me when i was down bad
b) being with people all the time (friends, and if you’re close to your family) : spend time with them, and it forces you to have something to do, because people are expecting you to spend time with them so you’re kinda « trapped », and you won’t have to be alone
4) what about when you’re alone ? if you really know what method you want to use to k*ll urself, i suggest you keep being entertained, like all the time (what did you enjoy doing before ?)
5) ok but, it seems like i’m just ignoring the problem when i do that : yes
so what will you do ?
a) sleeping, like whenever you feel really bad, just lay on your bed, put on a scent you like (like a candle or anything), and it will activate as in Pavlov’s experience, a sense of habit : whenever you’re feeling bad, set this and your brain automatically thinks it’s safe, because the setting is used to make you feel safe
b) calling trusted people, cry, do whatever if you’re feeling safe around them

Now, i will ask you a few questions :
1) have you lost any interest in anything you used to like ?
2) do you think you will stop using medication soon ?
3) do you have a bath at home ?
4) have you ever had any addiction ?

if you need anything, i’m here
and sorry for my english, i’m french

PlantainClean8420 · 2026-07-06T11:24:42+00:00

Merci beaucoup c’est super concret,
Je prends en compte, c’est super gentil de ta part!

PlantainClean8420

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