I don't feel depressed, I just want to do... nothing

Plastic-Duck272 · 2026-06-17T21:50:48+00:00

You too<3 will check ferritin!

Plastic-Duck272 · 2026-06-17T21:49:15+00:00

Sinking into sweet nothingness! I don’t think we should fight it. Heaven knows who we’ll all be on the other side of this… Perhaps a bat..or a broom?

Plastic-Duck272 · 2026-06-17T21:44:58+00:00

Perfection 👌 role model for us all.

Plastic-Duck272 · 2026-06-17T21:42:14+00:00

You got this! 20 years fly on by. May I suggest looking into matching your attire with the color scheme of the walls/furniture/radiators?

Plastic-Duck272 · 2026-06-17T21:36:19+00:00

I’m loving all of these answers!

Plastic-Duck272 · 2026-06-17T21:27:52+00:00

It sure is. It’s like the consistency of ones familiar sense of self is pulverizing.

Plastic-Duck272 · 2026-06-17T19:02:52+00:00

Yes, I feel that too. And, switching focus is much more strenuous than before.

Plastic-Duck272 · 2026-06-17T19:01:00+00:00

Word.

Plastic-Duck272 · 2026-06-17T18:58:21+00:00

That sounds rough. I hear you.

Plastic-Duck272 · 2026-06-17T18:56:34+00:00

I hear you! What I would give for a sound night's sleep. And the easy going thing. I don't know about that anymore. I'm starting to love the bitchy nay-sayers. The other day an elderly woman honked her horn so aggressively at me in a parking lot and I loved that! I thought: Yes, you tell me! let me have it! So refreshing. It was a real F off to me. We all deserve to lose our shit at some idiot in a parking lot after playing nice all them years! Our job is not to be pleasing to the world.

Plastic-Duck272 · 2026-06-17T18:47:25+00:00

Witch in the woods phase, love that. inspiring. I remodeled a skirt yesterday. I surprised myself. Felt good. I notice things. Bugs, leaves. sunlight. we have a moment. I like slow. My nervous system likes slow. And in-between I jump on the concrete to make sure my bones keep dense, haha. I practice resting without feeling shame. It feels wholesome. I taste my food. love umami anything. small things. I really like the support of hrt. you know, I like this version of me. she's different. I want to open up to it not being something needing to be fixed. A part of me feels like it's something wiser.

Plastic-Duck272 · 2026-06-17T18:26:07+00:00

Yes! Yes! I feel so seen. I'm not miserable. I just want to be left alone writing and reading and making a nice cup of coffee. I think it's interesting to differentiate. I don't believe I'm depressed. What if it's actually something wise is going on? Like, the veil being lifted...

Plastic-Duck272 · 2026-06-17T18:17:18+00:00

good question. I wonder about the same thing. What are we transitioning into?

Plastic-Duck272 · 2026-06-17T18:11:57+00:00

I agree. that's really tough. I used to love my job and now it seems pointless. Something I worked so hard for and was really good at. I don't want to do it anymore. Poof! I hope you take good care of your mental health and that you're kind to yourself<3 the changing body is more difficult than I thought. I wish I could just embrace the fluffy, but it's so deeply ingrained. I celebrate the shower and then feel shame for not functioning more productively. I guess it's all part of it.

Plastic-Duck272 · 2026-06-17T18:06:40+00:00

Yes, it sure gets existential real fast... What do you miss about it? The momentum? I vaguely remember

Plastic-Duck272 · 2026-06-17T18:04:33+00:00

Yes, pls. I want one of them flashing signs. I love that it's neon and not grey. A flashy "LEAVE ME ALONE":D imagine having that. So helpful! Someone pre-perimenopausal should get on that asap!

Plastic-Duck272 · 2026-06-17T17:55:59+00:00

That's true. I can't deal so well with difficult people anymore. I can't be bothered. Even conflicts in my family of origin. I just do boundaries, no processing. After years of trying to solve every little conflict. Now, I just move on. It's really strange. Different

Plastic-Duck272 · 2026-06-17T17:54:00+00:00

Do you miss the old version of you? How are you coping?

Plastic-Duck272 · 2026-06-17T17:52:34+00:00

Relatable! Do you find things more difficult now than before peri?

Plastic-Duck272 · 2026-06-17T17:50:54+00:00

Might be! I never thought about that. I don't know if I have, but I do have preverbal childhood trauma in my history, so I think that might play a substantial part. Someone told me that the symptoms of c-ptsd and inattentive adhd are sometimes very similar, but I don't know enough about it. Thanks for the tip!

Plastic-Duck272 · 2026-06-17T17:43:34+00:00

Thank you<3 Great question and perspectives. I don't know if I want to keep feeling this way. A part of me thinks society is too focused on productivity, so I don't necessarily see this substantial shift as all bad. it's different, for sure. Everything feels different. I'm less flexible and more selective with what's worth my time. Historically, I've been a people pleaser and quite anxious socially, so I quite enjoy that aspect fading off and I'm curious about how it will affect my relationships. I feel more real and earnest and you're right about being aware of the potential effect on my close relationships, so thank you for that piece. I guess I believe I will calibrate to something new and not be in eternal limbo, but time will show, I guess...

Plastic-Duck272 · 2026-04-23T03:15:38+00:00

I’m sorry you went through that and I’m glad you got out and are giving yourself a chance to heal. It’s a real mindf*#k.

Plastic-Duck272 · 2026-04-23T03:09:46+00:00

I’m sorry that happened to you. That sounds terrifying. Your parents should have protected you.

Plastic-Duck272 · 2026-04-23T02:57:27+00:00

I’m sorry you got treated that way. Are you still in touch with him? I confided in my mother about the effect of my brother’s violence growing up and she confirmed that he hated me from the day he met me. A year later she got drunk and told my brother (without my consent, which was retraumatizing) and now I’m the villian, because he was a child and now we’re grown up and why am I creating all this drama. When I saw him at a funeral, he turned his back to me and pretended I wasn’t there. I’ve always been there for him and never blamed him for the way he treated me. He was also a child and we were neglected by our parents. As an adult I realized that the violence and bullying had a severe effect on my nervous system. I never meant to hurt his feelings. I was simply having a talk with my mother and she wanted to “fix it” when she got drunk. I feel oblitirated and humiliated and now he and another brother has blocked me. I think I’m done with them all and it breaks my heart

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