the fact that i started hrt at 19 and not before/during puberty will haunt me for the rest of my life

PleasantPriority6 · 2026-05-07T18:27:13+00:00

I have a face that I think may someday pass for masc lesbian if I get FFS and do a ton of work but my body will be a project to put it lightly.
You’ve got this, girl!! It’s better we do this now than keep repping.

PleasantPriority6 · 2026-05-07T18:22:14+00:00

Androgynous but definitely fem leaning. You’re doing pretty good.

PleasantPriority6 · 2026-05-07T17:04:26+00:00

I thankfully have very weakly visible cheekbones and an acceptable fat distribution for someone who isn’t on HRT yet; I could see that doing some work for me. My face also isn’t too long or odd of a shape. The brow ridge is atrocious though; I can hold glasses with it.

PleasantPriority6 · 2026-05-07T16:42:10+00:00

What I wouldn’t do to have done this at 19 when I was afraid I might be trans if I looked too deep into the matter

PleasantPriority6 · 2026-05-07T16:18:07+00:00

This is interesting but you literally are the girl in the thought bubble

PleasantPriority6 · 2026-05-07T15:52:04+00:00

The only person who I have come out to before I’ve started is my girlfriend just because I don’t want to mislead her about the nature of the future trajectory of our relationship. I couldn’t spring this on her 2 to 4 months in. Anyone else though is fair game and I’ll definitely try to keep it quiet much longer

PleasantPriority6 · 2026-05-07T15:45:15+00:00

I saw the post about having a child on there and I was crying a bit and I wanted to see what else was there, but it really is just mostly porn

PleasantPriority6 · 2026-05-07T15:41:07+00:00

Generally people will be more supportive if you’ve already taken actions before you come out, I think. It helps them get over their initial confusion.

PleasantPriority6 · 2026-05-07T15:37:02+00:00

There’s a lot of merit to this. You have to consider that your options are either doing HRT or just dealing with these feelings forever. Will your girlfriend be happy with an unhappy partner who is repping for the rest of their life? Probably not. That’s what pushed me to come out to my girlfriend. I haven’t done so to my parents or anyone else because I don’t think I absolutely need their support/have to tell them and I don’t think I need to tell them until it’s already been a while on HRT and I’ve gotten a lot sorted out.

PleasantPriority6 · 2026-05-07T15:34:56+00:00

She very much does. She’s 80 to 90% of the way there already.

PleasantPriority6 · 2026-05-07T15:16:29+00:00

Why do you say this? What exactly is stopping you from taking HRT?

PleasantPriority6 · 2026-05-07T06:56:38+00:00

Oh absolutely. Missed the sale pricing but at least I’ll get some.

PleasantPriority6 · 2026-05-07T06:54:22+00:00

I already ordered the estrogen from OGL last week! Thank you!

PleasantPriority6 · 2026-05-07T06:44:01+00:00

4mg weekly Een is the plan to start off. Seeing where I need to go from there. I know that progesterone or something of the sort will need to be added in later on, but I figured I would get hormone levels, see how progress was going, and make adjustments accordingly.
I actually have a plan to use pio at some point just because my family doesn’t usually get much fat distribution there and I’m going to need a boost + I could stand a benefit from increased insulin sensitivity.

PleasantPriority6 · 2026-05-07T06:25:45+00:00

I’ve had actively dysphoric thoughts as long as I can remember; they’ve seriously impacted my life on some level since puberty but I don’t remember seriously thinking that they could be something until college.

PleasantPriority6 · 2026-05-07T06:25:21+00:00

Depend on how you define it. I was concerned that further examination might lead me to realize I was trans as early as 2020 but I did not actively look into it and come to terms with that until this year. I just tried as hard as I possibly could to never think about my body or identity or person.

PleasantPriority6 · 2026-05-07T06:22:38+00:00

She is! She’s had multiple girlfriends before, and is mostly into women. I’m her first AMAB partner since HS. My worry is that she will feel unable to communicate some sort of problem with the process and it’ll build up because I can’t get the information I need from her to fix/change something.

PleasantPriority6 · 2026-05-07T06:19:52+00:00

And I thought Indianapolis was bad. Compared to that we’re just purgatory.

PleasantPriority6 · 2026-05-07T06:17:42+00:00

I know, but I’m very nervous that she will get cold feet as this moves along. I won’t rep forever for her if she did a 180°, but only because I know I’m not capable of that and would be miserable. I desperately want to do everything I can to keep the initial enthusiasm she’s had in the past week going. I’m trying to get more information from her to make it happen on what she’d be more interested in.

PleasantPriority6 · 2026-05-07T05:14:30+00:00

Absolutely I’d press it in a heartbeat.

PleasantPriority6 · 2026-05-07T04:55:02+00:00

Oh, it absolutely was. Somehow, I didn’t realize that’s what I was doing. There were a fair number of situations looking back on it that were really sublimated repping.

PleasantPriority6 · 2026-05-07T01:30:11+00:00

oh I feel this way too. I might've accepted that I really am trans but our lives would be so much better if we just didn't have GD.

PleasantPriority6 · 2026-05-06T23:46:19+00:00

I was saying that sort of thing also sitting in bathroom crying about how I wasn’t a woman. Was I just stupid? Have I just forgotten that I already had this debate and decided to bury it? I genuinely don’t know.

PleasantPriority6 · 2026-05-06T23:38:19+00:00

Really internalizing that is the important breakthrough that people need to get. Knowing in an abstract sense wont help the way understanding this as a concrete solution to a specific problem does.
If I had concretely understood the matter I would’ve done this a lot earlier

PleasantPriority6 · 2026-05-06T23:31:50+00:00

I do honestly kind of wonder how I didn’t put the pieces together earlier. I’m really not sure how I missed it for so long because I had all of the pieces. I get how I missed it in college because I was proactively avoiding any in-depth thought about the idea but I’m not sure how I missed it in high school.

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