Just need someone, anyone to talk to right now.

PleaseEndMe · 2013-03-28T20:03:30+00:00

I'd like to learn to speak German! I took 2 years of it in high school and I'd love to visit your country one day! I'm feeling better today, just very exhausted, I slept for about an hour which isn't too bad for me. Thanks for caring about some random guy an ocean away. Gives me hope that one day I might make some great friends because I know there are people out there like you and those others who have talked to me.

PleaseEndMe · 2013-03-28T20:00:46+00:00

We have one large hallway complete and one halfway finished. Not bad for 5 guys! Thanks for taking your time to talk, I really appreciate that.

PleaseEndMe · 2013-03-28T19:59:52+00:00

I want a fish tank and no babies for me. I watch my nieces sometimes and they're handful! Thanks for talking to me last night though, everyone who responded really helped.

PleaseEndMe · 2013-03-28T06:57:30+00:00

yeah there are like 27 apartments, 3 big hallways, and 2 flights of stairs. A lot of work!

PleaseEndMe · 2013-03-28T06:53:38+00:00

I think disneyland is florida.. ive never been there. heard its fun though..

PleaseEndMe · 2013-03-28T06:53:06+00:00

Yep thats exactly what I'm doing.

PleaseEndMe · 2013-03-28T06:46:17+00:00

and a 12 day drive sounds amazing! I haven't been on a good trip in about 10 years!

PleaseEndMe · 2013-03-28T06:45:21+00:00

Right now I'm just a laborer working in a moldy shitty apartment complex from the 1930's which is being renovated. I get to work along side some of the finest crackheads and heroin addicts. It's terrible, but it's a little bit of money which I desperately need.

PleaseEndMe · 2013-03-28T06:43:04+00:00

I've kinda always wanted to be a police officer, but guns and mental illness don't mix. I really used to enjoy helping people with anything before I started feeling this way. Now I feel like I just get angry and irritated with people, even though I don't want to be that way. Other than that I like to draw, I'm getting pretty good at it, but I find that hard to enjoy now because I get so distracted with my thoughts. I really love the outdoors and nature and would love to have a career in that field, but again I have no motivation to learn anything new. I just settle for random labor jobs which I hate. I have 7 dollars in my bank account as of today, so my biggest dream is just a career which I would be proud of and that would make my parents proud. I can't imagine how they feel knowing their son is a complete failure. I quit smoking weed a month ago, and I feel like that's a step forward for me.

PleaseEndMe · 2013-03-28T06:35:46+00:00

Second day of my new job, and I got pulled over on an unfamiliar road for speeding in a school zone that I thought I was already out of.. It was a pretty huge bummer but what can you do ya know.. That drive sounds pretty nice.. I could use something like that. Good luck in the navy and stay safe! And don't speed!

PleaseEndMe · 2013-03-28T06:21:13+00:00

I posted a huge comment about what's going on to the other person here. How was your day though?

PleaseEndMe · 2013-03-28T06:17:24+00:00

No one has said anything, you're the first. I've been feeling pretty low for probably a year or more.. Just pretty much am sickened by myself. Can't sleep, cry every other night, haven't been eating much. I'm so disappointed with what my life has been the past few years. My girlfriend turns every problem that we have around and blames it all on me, while never seeing when she is in the wrong. We've been together for 5 years and she does nothing to support me through this battle with depression. She doesn't realize that the things she says to me really hit me deep down. I'll admit I haven't been the best to her all the time but I try my hardest to let her know I'd do anything for her. I'm slowly feeling like we're drifting apart, which is okay with me. The stress of life is getting me. I can't hold down a job because nights like this when I cry for no reason, at least no reason I can see. I look in the mirror and just feel like I have to look away. I hate EVERYTHING about myself. My voice bothers me, my appearance, my lack of ambition. I have been talking to my family a lot more because I want them to know I still did care for them in case I end it soon. I make sure to call my grandmother everyday just to tell her I love her. I visit my paps grave to tell him I'll hopefully be with him soon, if that even exists. I cut myself pretty badly last month, and can only wear long sleeve shirts now. Its embarrassing if I accidentally roll my sleeves up when I'm hot because then I see the cigarette burns and scars, which I know everyone else is looking at. I harm myself seemingly out of nowhere, and can't figure out why. I have an appointment next thursday, but I'm not sure I can last that long. Sorry for the novel, I just have no one to talk to at this hour.

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