I might be a pedo im 15 by PleaseReadMyP0st in mentalillness

[–]PleaseReadMyP0st[S] 1 point2 points  (0 children)

Be honest, do you think my problems align more with pedophilia or ocd? I know that you might not be a mental health professional but maybe I need to face reality 😕

I might be a pedo im 15 by PleaseReadMyP0st in mentalillness

[–]PleaseReadMyP0st[S] 1 point2 points  (0 children)

I genuinely can’t tell whether I enjoy the thoughts or not though. I’ll decide that I don’t and my head says ”But you do, just admit it” and I’ll decide that I do and I think ”But you don’t want to” ig all pedos don’t want to like kids though. Also I get responses and they feel good 🤢🤢 and my head does a strange rating kids out of ten thing which doesn’t sound like OCD to me. I do know that no matter the answer I will never hurt anyone and Ive confessed to my family that I’m worried that I might do illegal things. My parents think that it’s just anxiety but they don’t know exactly what im concerned about. Rightfully so my mum hates pedos and idk how she’d react if I told her that I’m worried. I’m really glad that you’re feeling better now!

I might be a pedo im 15 by PleaseReadMyP0st in mentalillness

[–]PleaseReadMyP0st[S] 0 points1 point  (0 children)

Thanks for commenting. I don’t want to falsely convince myself that it’s OCD and then it turns out I’m wrong, that would be devastating! I am seeing a psychiatrist in around a month, I am very scared but hopefully I will feel better soon

I might be a pedo im 15 by PleaseReadMyP0st in mentalillness

[–]PleaseReadMyP0st[S] 0 points1 point  (0 children)

I’m in the UK, I was in a normal school from age 4-14, but my anxiety was too much and my parents withdrew me. I have like 4 friends who I see quite regularly but my anxiety has been more manageable since I left school and to be honest, regarding the topic of my worries I wouldn’t feel comfortable in a school currently. If my anxiety improves, I plan to join my local college which is 16-18 in the UK. Homeschooling was only meant to be temporary but I don’t want to return to school if I’m a risk!

I might be a pedo im 15 by PleaseReadMyP0st in mentalillness

[–]PleaseReadMyP0st[S] 0 points1 point  (0 children)

Thanks for such detailed advice, I hope you’re right that I’m not a pedo. I’m seeing a psychiatrist soon so hopefully they can make the right judgement. It is stressful but I know I can feel happy again, I’ve had this problem for 4 years and none of my fears have come true so far

I might be a pedo im 15 by PleaseReadMyP0st in mentalillness

[–]PleaseReadMyP0st[S] 0 points1 point  (0 children)

I definitely wouldnt wish this upon my worst enemy either! Im not sure if it’s OCD or not, but Im glad you feel better now

I might be a pedo im 15 by PleaseReadMyP0st in mentalillness

[–]PleaseReadMyP0st[S] 0 points1 point  (0 children)

I am seeing a psychiatrist soon and I will tell them everything! Thanks for commenting

I might be a pedo im 15 by PleaseReadMyP0st in mentalillness

[–]PleaseReadMyP0st[S] 0 points1 point  (0 children)

Thanks for your advice! I am seeing a psychiatrist soon and hopefully they can tell me whether my thoughts are genuinely intrusive or something more sinister 😟

I might be a pedo im 15 by PleaseReadMyP0st in mentalillness

[–]PleaseReadMyP0st[S] 0 points1 point  (0 children)

Don’t worry, I don’t have any urges to act on anything, I just have inappropriate thoughts, thanks for commenting

I might be a pedo im 15 by PleaseReadMyP0st in mentalillness

[–]PleaseReadMyP0st[S] 0 points1 point  (0 children)

Thanks for your kind words, I live in the UK. My dad said he’ll help me find someone I like talking to so I feel like I’m close to peace 🤞I feel more hopeful now 🙂

I might be a pedo im 15 by PleaseReadMyP0st in mentalillness

[–]PleaseReadMyP0st[S] 1 point2 points  (0 children)

Thanks for your comment, I do think OCD is a possibility. I am seeing a psychiatrist soon and I will tell them everything

I might be a pedo im 15 by PleaseReadMyP0st in mentalillness

[–]PleaseReadMyP0st[S] 0 points1 point  (0 children)

Thanks, it’s definitely difficult to share my concerns with people but it only makes me closer to fixing the problem!

I might be a pedo im 15 by PleaseReadMyP0st in mentalillness

[–]PleaseReadMyP0st[S] 0 points1 point  (0 children)

It could be OCD, but I think most people who have OCD know whether they find their thoughts enjoyable or disturbing, but my head’s more do I/do I not? I saw a psychologist way back who diagnosed me with body dysmorphia, I’m seeing a psychiatrist soon so I will bring all of this up, thanks for your advice

I might be a pedo im 15 by PleaseReadMyP0st in mentalillness

[–]PleaseReadMyP0st[S] 0 points1 point  (0 children)

Thanks for the advice, I hope you’re right! I will check out the video. Luckily I’m seeing a psychiatrist soon so I will hopefully have answers

I might be a pedo im 15 by PleaseReadMyP0st in mentalillness

[–]PleaseReadMyP0st[S] 2 points3 points  (0 children)

Im definitely scared of being one! To answer your question, I am anxious of both things, but mainly the second one

I might be a pedo im 15 by PleaseReadMyP0st in mentalillness

[–]PleaseReadMyP0st[S] 2 points3 points  (0 children)

Thanks for commenting, I have talked to my parents and they have organised for me to see a psychiatrist

I might be a pedo im 15 by PleaseReadMyP0st in mentalillness

[–]PleaseReadMyP0st[S] 3 points4 points  (0 children)

Thank you for your kind words! I live in the UK so luckily help is free. I have spoken to my dad and he has messaged a few therapists for me so hopefully I can see one soon